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Clematis

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About Clematis

  • Birthday February 25

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Daughter
  • Date of Death
    01/13/2016
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    Hospice Compassus Sedona, AZ

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    laurafellows@msn.com
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    None.com
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    NO@Yahoo.com
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  • Your gender
    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Sedona, AZ
  • Interests
    Helen (my wife), Lena (my therapy cat), Playing music (cello, ukulele, classical guitar, etc.), Watercolors, Ceramics, Flowers-growing and painting them

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  1. Losing a beloved pet is SO hard, and so often the people around grieving survivors just don't get it. It's a painful truth that our pets just don't live longer, even when they live a long life for their breed. It feels cruel, the way it plays out. I work as a psychotherapist online and I have had so many clients who say that their dog or cat is their soulmate and/or best friend, and the loss of these dear ones is excruciating. No getting around it. But take care of yourself, and remember that "one day at a time" thing. Sometimes it's more like dealing with one minute at a time...
  2. Nono is so beautiful and absolutely adorable - what a loss! I feel for you, to have lost him, and especially after such a short time together. It is heartwarming that you were able to provide a safe and loving home for him at the end of his life.
  3. Losing a beloved pet is SO hard, and the loss can stay with you so long. It's really really sad that pets don't live nearly long enough...
  4. Sounds like a really tough situation. I feel for you. Things are so hard right now for so many people.
  5. That is very sweet, and I bet Tiger and Snuggles both appreciate it. =^. .^=
  6. Hi there - I'm so sorry to hear that you're suffering so much. It's awful. I don't know if you remember me, but I was on the site a lot 5 to 7 years ago after the death of my dad. We were very close and I was his caregiver. Anyway, I wish you the best and hope you can find a way to feel better.
  7. Hello - I just wonder how the two of you are doing. I just saw that Maui Pasta Scottsdale has permanently closed, and I felt sad, although I don't know what happened. I have fond memories of both of you, especially after meeting at the art show in Scottsdale. Just wanted to reach out and touch base...

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      KATPILOT

      Hi Laura,

      Yes it is a sad thing but we tried our best. The Covid thing hit us to badly to recover and the stress of running a restaurant is just too much. Patty is now helping with book keeping and doing her artwork again which what she loves. As I am now 74 it is time to quit flying so I sold my airplane which is another bit of sadness but life goes on.

      Hope you are well and still creating art.

      Steve

  8. Thanks! I got more good news today; the results of my PET/CT showed no signs of cancer. This means I am determined to be Cancer Free! Yay!
  9. I feel for you - it is so hard to lose a beloved pet. Was this a cat or a dog? Would it help to post a picture?
  10. Another disturbing reality is that the doctors lied to me, and when challenged about this, they defended the deliberate deceptions by telling me that everyone with cancer agrees to anything they are offered, in order to gain any slight advantage. They minimize the negative impact of these proposed treatments and give misleading information about the possible benefits. I stopped taking Herceptin after 6 months because the research shows that the strongest efficacy is in the first 6 months, and after that, patients have increasing damage by the drug with no more benefit, the longer they take it. They wanted me to take it for 12 months, but would not discuss the research about the trials on the length of treatment. I have a friend who took this drug for 5 years, and now she has uterine cancer and something on her pancreas - biopsy results not back yet. It is such a racket.
  11. I sure have learned a lot - and a lot of it is very disturbing, particularly as related to the medical profession. I was stunned to find myself in a position where I had a life threatening condition and was facing a team of angry doctors determined to over treat me by withholding information and doing their best to scare me into destroying my health. I felt like receiving a cancer diagnosis handed me an obligation to blindly do as told, because if I didn't I would be depriving the hospital and providers a LOT of money they felt entitled to. For example, my decision to end chemo when I did, based on my research, cost the hospital at least $360,000. I also refused radiation therapy, because based on my age it was 90% likely to not benefit me. I don't know how much money they lost on that one, but it would have been 20+ treatments. And it would have been needless exposure to radiation for me, because as it turned out, there was no cancer remaining in either breast. I had a breast MRI on 11/22, and it showed no cancer. I have a PET/CT scan this Thursday, and if it is clean as well, I will be declared "cancer free."
  12. Thank you, Kay. I have been detoxing from the cancer treatments and trying to get my feet back under myself again in my life. I am still having physical issues from the chemo and emotionally have been up and down a lot. Sometimes sideways...hahaha! You gotta laugh to keep from crying sometimes. Sometimes, of course, crying is the exact right thing to do, but that's not what I mean. My cancer debacle was just that, and thinking about the shoddy care, medical gaslighting, and incompetence I found enrages and terrifies me. I would never have dreamed that a "team" of doctors would gang up on a cancer patient - and be so deliberately mean - with no real thought to the actual care for that patient - me. The surgeon from my "care team" told me on the phone, "The reason your doctors all treat you like they do is because you're smart, and ask them challenging questions." That is so awful - it's hard to fathom the right words for it, and I have a good vocabulary. Tuesday was the one-year-anniversary of my diagnosis day, and it was hard to figure out how I felt as the date approached. Looking back, it seems more clear that it's just another anniversary of a loss or traumatic event. Ground Zero in learning about grief. For me, this anniversary has a lot of grief in it, as well as the trauma of the treatment and mistreatment. Looking back brings a mix of anger, angst, and pride in myself for doing my own homework/research, finding and keeping on my own path, and maintaining the many health-related alterations I've made to my life. Looking forward, I want to do just that. Move forward. I'm not sure in what direction, but this next year will be about something else - not like the cancer of last year - next year will be something new. I don't know what...I'll keep you posted
  13. That is so great that you are getting better, Kay! I am really happy to hear it.
  14. Thanks, Kay - what an amazing story!
  15. Kay, that is really awesome! I am so glad to hear that your health has improved so much. I really fear these doctors; what they want me to do is so extreme, and I fear that if I totally go along with it I will destroy my own health. There is a lot of research about minimizing treatments, alternative/complementary strategies, and so on. But my doctors have never heard of any of that. From what I can tell, my risk of recurrence is low, but they haven't ever really told me anything about my prognosis. I think they know my risk is low, but are using vague but alarming comments to get me to go along with their plan. They are treating me as aggressively as if I had metastatic disease, but it's scary. It seems like I could be throwing my life away if I make the wrong choices, but no one will be straight with me.
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