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    Wife to Stephen
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    August 10, 2018
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  1. I'm still here, just lurking. Second day of difficult grief for me. August is coming up, first year anniversary, and it's on my mind. Not all the time, but it bubbles up. Yesterday I was really distressed. I have one tshirt that still smells of Stephen tucked away in a ziplock bag. While in grief, I went to it, and it didn't smell of him. Of course I was all stuffed from weeping. Didn't think of that until today when I revisited and the smell of him is definitely still there. I know you guys understand.... 💙 We always will remind ourselves to take it a day at a time. Sometimes those days are very long though. Hugs, ~Shirley
  2. Sue, I think this is a beautiful idea. I'm glad to read you accept your family's decision. Don't let it cast a cloud on this day. Embrace the intimate ceremony with gratitude and love in your heart. 💙 Blessings to you. ~Shirley
  3. Mitch, just wanted to send some love to you. Good for you. You hang on to that glimmer, take a deep breath, and move forward with it. We'll be here to cheer you on. Hugs, ~Shirley
  4. Kaye, yes you can give Arlie milk thistle. I had my pup on a supplement when his liver panels were severely elevated. An expensive supplement. Vet then said I can give him milk thistle off the shelf now. Still giving him the other supplement until it's gone.
  5. Kayc, just wanted to send some love to you and Arlie. Take a deep breath, then go on to give you and Arlie as much special time as you can while you can. Arlie's soul will always be connected to yours. And when the time comes, George will be there to greet Arlie. ❤️ You and Arlie chose each other for a reason. Unconditional love. And the love is eternal. We'll be here right here with you. Hugs, ~Shirley
  6. Davis s, Angels come when we least expect them and need them the most. This stranger's soul reached out to touch yours. Blessings to you. And to him. ~Shirley
  7. Not an anniversary (I had that in May), but today is Stephen's 56th birthday and the first with him in the spirit world. I woke up just filled with love for him. I picked up his favorite cupcake yesterday, put a candle on that, sang happy birthday, had a little chat with him, then blew out the candle and ate the cupcake. I'm sure he rolled his eyes, as he didn't care for the birthday fuss. 💚 Grief still reaches up, but not today. Today is sacred space. Hugs, ~Shirley
  8. I don't question if it's a divine sign. I am spiritual but not religious, quite a different path for me since Stephen transitioned. God, Spirit, the Universe - we're all a part of the whole. Angels and spirit guides are everywhere. Trust your heart. 💙 ~Shirley
  9. JTP, I can certainly understand why 444 can be painful for you. (I've recently started seeing 444 either in the middle of the night or during the day when I happen to look at the clock.) Perhaps the below might give you some ease. It did for me. ~Shirley Repetitively seeing 444 is a blessing. Seeing 3-digit number patterns like 444 is a sign that you’re receiving divine messages from higher realms. These angel messages are very important to you at this time of your life and they serve as clues or guideposts to help you along your journey. Because you're always being guided, have faith that you have total divine support. Above all, when you see number 444 repeatedly, the Universe wants you to know that whatever you're going through, you're going to be okay. Just remember that your guardian angel was assigned to protect you in all ways – so hold on and persevere, follow your inner compass that points toward the light, and you'll get through this safely. That's a promise. Because there are multiple reasons why you are seeing 444, it's essential to carefully listen to the soft whispers of your heart and sense what 444 means to you. Follow your intuition for the next right steps. To help you along, here are the 5 common spiritual meanings and reasons of why you are seeing angel number 444 everywhere. 1st Meaning of 444: You are on the Path of Awakening When you see 444, it's a sign to let you know that you’re on the path of spiritual awakening. You have become more aware of the spirit within you as you are feeling the subtle energies of the Universe. The more you start learning about this new path, the more you want to discover who you really are. Are you suddenly more interested in the spiritual nature of things? Are you into spiritual books and people? The number 444 is here to tell that you’re awakening and you're on the right track of entering another dimension on a higher spiritual plane. 2nd Meaning of 444: You are Fully Supported in Your Life Journey The angels want you to know that they are close by to assist you in your life journey. Because you have free will, they cannot interfere in your life until you give them permission. All you have to do is ask them for help and guidance, and they will be ready to help you. Talk to them as you would chat with a friend, and ask questions about anything and everything that matters to you. Remember that angels love you unconditionally and want to help you, but they can’t interfere unless you ask for their help! 3rd Meaning of 444: You Are on the Right Path, Just Trust Another possible reason why you’re seeing 444 is that you’re on the right path in your life. 444 is a clear sign from the Universe that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be in this moment of your life. Trust your journey, trust the way your life unfolds, and trust that you are where you need to be at the present moment. In other words, 444 is your messenger telling you to have faith and be confident that things are going in the right direction in your life. 4th Meaning of 444: You Are in Harmony with the Universe Whenever you’re seeing 444, the angels tell you that you’re resonating with the Universe in perfect synchronicity. You’re living a truly harmonic moment with creation, and you’re ready to unravel its deepest mysteries. The meaning of 444 is that you’ve become aware of the spiritual dimension and the energies within and around you. The more you learn about yourself as a spiritual being, the more you will understand that you’re not separated from existence, but you are one with the Universe, always in perfect harmony. And this is amazing! 5th Meaning of 444: Listen to Your Intuition Once you understand that you’re fully supported on the path of awakening and that you’re unconditionally loved and vibrating in harmony with infinite creation, all that’s left for you is to listen to your intuition. This is the 5th significance of 444, and perhaps the most important of all. What this means is that you’ve reached the point in your life where you’re ready to transcend personal limitations, society conditioning, and anything that stops you from becoming your True Self. Follow your heart and listen to what resonates with you, and this will lead you to your life purpose and True Self. Seeing 444 is no coincidence at all. It is a divine sign from the Universe to help guide you on the right path. Embrace everything that happens in your life by trusting how things unfold. And remember: you’re exactly where you need to be right here, right now!
  10. JTP, wow on the bobcat! Don't doubt for a moment that it wasn't a sign from Bob. Those in the spirit world are always with us, always. Unfortunately, not on our terms, but they are here. 💜 Kieron, same here. Your soul knows. 😊 I've had many signs from Stephen since he transitioned. I still have them, just don't always see them. Two days ago I had a weepy moment. Later when I came to my computer, it was at the start screen with his name up. This has happened multiple times. No doubt he popped in to say hi. So I talk to him, invite him in to join me anytime he can. ~Shirley
  11. Mitch, there is no right or wrong answer to this question. We all grieve in different ways, just as our lives and our loves are different. I will never search for a new love. I had the one I wanted and I'm at peace with that. I have managed to move forward to acceptance for what is, and gratitude for being so blessed to have had my life with Stephen. When I speak of gratitude, it's always about being deeply grateful for having him in my life. I would not shed my grief for one second, if that meant wiping out the love and life I had with Stephen. I carry the badge of grief, but I also carry the badge of love. Hugs, Shirley
  12. Mitch, without you in this life, Tammy would not have had the joy of sharing it with you. I wish you a blessed day. There are many days to mark, many days to simply let go by. It's perfectly acceptable either way. Hugs, Shirley
  13. Terra, wanted to send some love and light to you and your sons. First, thank you and your beloved husband for your service. Both of you have paid the ultimate price. "Anniversaries" are tough times. There will be many, but hold your head up and walk through the grief with grace and gratitude for having your wonderful man share life with you. And remember to pause in life to take a breath. Your husband's soul is eternally connected to yours. Don't doubt that for a moment. Hugs, ~Shirley
  14. Karen, wanted to send you love and light. I am so sorry to hear of your beloved husband's departure. I am sure others will share words of wisdom regarding the upcoming weddings. But I can say I celebrated my 10th wedding anniversary May 2 (my Stephen departed in August 2018). I choose not to say "would have been." My soul is eternally connected to his, so I am married to him for all of time, wherever that time may be. I can validate that being part of this community/tribe has been a lifesaver for me. This is a safe place. We'd be honored to hear more about your husband. Say his name - for me saying Stephen keeps his memory real and forward. Share your thoughts, your pain, your anger - we've been there. Hugs, ~Shirley
  15. My 10th wedding anniversary was Thursday. I will always mark those as "my xxx anniversary" instead of "would have been my xxx anniversary." The days before that date were horrible with anticipatory grief. The actual day I held very close to my heart with gratitude and no grief. I am recognizing that for me, the unknown is worst than the actual event. Stephen was raised Russian Orthodox. His mother gifted all of her children with two small beautiful gold guilded glass framed religious icons. He never hung them as neither he nor I had a preference for religious items. I have pondered what to do with these items for some time now. A neighbor down the road from me, older couple, I discovered are very loving of icons and was told have many hanging in their home. Our neighborhood had its annual garage sale, so I walked over with these icons and approached her. I explained the significance of them, that I lost my husband, that although they may not be orthodox, she might like to have them. She and her husband are Ukranian Catholic. When she saw the upraised writing on one of the icons, and read it out loud, she turned to me with delight and said "It's written in Ukranian." (Stephen's ancestry is Russian.) I cannot tell you how full my heart was walking home. Knowing that these meaningful things to Stephen are now in the hands of someone to whom they are also meaningful. There are no coincidences. So at the end of what was a tough beginning of the week ended in full gratitude. I wish all of you moments of peace and gratitude. ~Shirley
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