Guest moparlicious Posted September 20, 2007 Report Share Posted September 20, 2007 Hello all. I really need some friends today. Today is 1 month since my beloved Dan has died. I feel so empty today and so much pain and anger. I just want him here with me so bad. I know it takes time to heal,but each day which passes, seems to get harder and harder. A dear friend of mine died at Hospice on Sept. 14,2007, she like my husband had cancer. She was 4 days shy of being 40 years old. She leaves behind 3 children. I was strong enough to attend her funeral yesterday, but when her daughter tried to jump in the hole with her mom and had to be restrained, it was so overwhelming,then the screaming began. I wasn't sure at first if it was me who was screaming inside or what was happening. How sad!!! I felt just like her. I can't count the times I say how much I want to go with my Dan. Why can't I just be with him. I still do. Nothing makes any sense. The why's. I want him back so bad. I miss his voice and holding his hand. Our youngest daughter, won't have her father to watch her graduate high school, or walk his daughter's down the aisle. Our only son also. I guess we will cross that bridge when we come to it. But for today, I need prayers and love. I opened my closet yesterday morning, I found a angel key chain,no one knows where it came from and no one has seen it before. I took it as a sign from my husband. I heard someone coughing outside my window, but no one was there. I went outside to check. Am I losing my mind??????????? Thank you to you all for your support. Love, Kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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