Lostdaughter Posted October 19, 2010 Report Share Posted October 19, 2010 In the process of losing my Dad I either ended several friendships or things just got ugly with others. I am down to one friend who doesn't live here. I just don't trust people. I'm hurt my dad is gone, I'm hurt my close friend (someone I regarded as the father I never had) was such a jerk when my dad died, I am upset other people weren't there for me, and I am really irritated over what happened over the weekend. I had a falling out with someone who sent me an email out of the blue wanting to patch things up. Turns out what she was really after was to needle me on why I hadn't set up a get together with another woman she met one time. This other woman I met recently isn't my friend anymore either. I am a closet smoker (I know, bad) and I could no longer endure her calling smokers disgusting, or lower consciousness etc. So I finally came out of the closet, as it were, and then got a weird email from her. Then the friend I've known for three years kept needling me wanting to know what happened with this other friend (she's met once) and made comments about how she'd asked me three or four times for us to get together and kept on defending the person she met one time. Finally I got disgusted with that too and told her I thought it was rather odd, considering I had mentioned the job situation, getting the floors done in my house, etc. Anyway, I am just irritable over everything and thinking all the effort I've put into friendships has been for naught. Yet I'm lonely but just tired of meeting the same people over and over who have their own agendas. Does any of this make sense? I see a bereavement counselor tomorrow and am going to discuss all of this. On top of everything, my house is in complete disarray and I never know when these worker guys are going to show up. Grrrr....can anyone relate to anything I'd said? All I want to do is just lay on the sofa with blankets over me. Thanks for letting me vent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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