wmjsca Posted October 27, 2010 Report Share Posted October 27, 2010 Well, the funeral is tomorrow (he died on 10/22/10). I want to view him tonight because I'm afraid to wait until tomorrow to see him laid out, the shell of what's left of my sweet love. I don't want to see him like that at all. I know it's necessary for closure. I know the beginning of my life without him won't start until this is over. I dread the celebration of life that will follow, because to everyone but me, their lives will go on after they leave and I'll be alone. I don't want to get into a rut feeling sorry for myself, but I know I'm going to be very sad for a very long time, if not forever. When I go to bed tomorrow night, I'll still be alone and everyone else's life will go back to normal. I have no idea what to do. I will return to school to finish the semester and raise my son and do all those things, but every facet of my life included my fiance and now everything seems so empty. I dread going tomorrow and having that casket closed and lowered into the ground. It must be so cold there and he was so warm and sweet. I still cannot believe he's gone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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