sinc86 Posted June 24, 2014 Report Share Posted June 24, 2014 I think I'm in the depression stage of grief (?). I've been doing some reading and in one place it said that in this stage the most well-meaning of people have all the advice in the world....and sometimes you just need to go through this stage.....covering the ddpression deep inside doesn't really work and even does some damage to your process of grieving. The problem I'm concerned about is my decision making skills have gone out the window. I've gone from major anxiety to minor anxiety and really decisions have been difficult for a while now. I've always been a volunteer - but I'm finding right now that just putting some money in an envelope to help defer costs is basically all I have to give....but it's something anyway. Last weekend we went through some family things.....and I cried for hours over what has been, what was - and really how wonderful my parents were and therefore, how much I seriously miss them. Losing them both in 4 1/2 years was difficult. Anyway - I've been working my way through this....and last night one of my friends (one of those wellmeaning people) told me I seemed to be going backwards and needed help. I felt pretty defeated....because of all the work I've done in going through the process. My main concern honestly is the decision making.....that puts a damper on everyday life and while I tend to think things through quite a bit.....I haven't been one to look at life through dark colored glasses - thinking of every last thing that can go wrong. But right now - I just have this deep down worry of what all could go wrong. I think part of my problem is that this past year, on top of losing my mother after watching her suffer terribly.....I went through a severe housing crisis - and because of that thought on top of everything else that I might have to give up my pets.....who are my family.....and dealt with several injustice issues in my last housing situation. So - I'm thinking that's part of where this looking through things with so much worry is coming from..... Does any of this make sense? And yes, I know talking to a clergy or a counselor would be a good thing for me right now (unfortunately at the time of my mother's death all my pastor at the time could think of is how I could best serve the congregation, even when I was telling him I needed some time to breathe.....I could have really used that support then....fortunately there is now a different pastor). Sorry for rambling..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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