Spyro Posted August 6, 2014 Report Share Posted August 6, 2014 I am so devastated & have never felt so guilty and sad. 12 weeks ago my friends cat had kittens & I picked mine out that day. She was a gorgeous grey tabby, my dream cat. I handled her once a week and watched her grow up. I was getting married & within a week of us coming home from honeymoon she was ready to come home with us. She immediately bonded with our 5yo dog & for the past 6 weeks my husband & I have fallen totally in love with her. She was the most lovely, cuddly kitten. Yesterday I was off work & decided to spend an hour with my two pets watching TV. I got up to get a yoghurt from the fridge. As I was walking out of the kitchen I suddenly decided to turn back to get something. My little cat had followed me in & I thought I was going to step on her because she darted towards my feet. I tried to miss her & ended up tripping over her. As I did she darted backwards & in the tangle of us trying to miss each other I ended up catching her head with my foot. She immediately collapsed & blood was coming from her ears. I was wailing & crying, I knew she was gone. she didn't cry & her eyes were fully dilated but she started taking fits. I don't think she was aware of anything going on, but it was horrible to watch my beloved pet in that state & be so powerless. I rushed her to the vet but she was already gone by the time I got there. I don't know how to come to terms with this guilt. I was so protective over her & minutes before had hunted the house for her because I could hear she was playing with a plastic bag & I was afraid she would suffocate! When this accident happened I was trying so hard not to even step on her paw or tail but in doing so I made it so much worse my husband doesn't blame me & knows it was a freak accident but I can't escape the feelings of guilt & flashbacks to the sight of her. Everyone wants me to get another kitten to help my dog & myself move on but right now I feel like I don't even deserve to ever own a cat again. I have cried constantly ever since. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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