mrundell Posted April 20, 2015 Report Share Posted April 20, 2015 The love of my life and best friend, Don passed away on April 15, 2015. We were married 28 years last February 15. I'm so lost and the hurt is so great... Don had heart surgery on May 9, 2011, he came through 9 hours of surgery, and was in recovery when he coded twice. They brought him back and somehow got him to an other hospital in Austin with 2 heart pump machines... the doctors later told me he has less than a 15% chance that he'd make the 25 mile trip. After 28 days in ICU, he was finally off the ventilator. We went home the following week. From that point on... we lived life to the fullest. We took trips and did "bucket list" stuff.... His Congestive Heart Failure went into remission... thanks to great doctors and modern medicine and life went back to the new normal... yet the end was always there. We've never been closer... every I love you meant it. In February, we took a 2 week vacation, including a 10 day cruise. One of the highlights was him catching an 89" sailfish in Florida.... Beginning in March, he took a sudden turn from the worse. The doctors put him on the last medicine... he'd already been tested and wasn't a candidate for a heart transplant and he didn't want to live with a VAD. So we knew the end would be soon. He retired compleletly on March 27... that was so hard for him as he loved his job and his team. Every moment was precious... but I knew the end would come... soon as he got weaker. Trying to be "normal", I had a conference about 50 miles away... Don assured me he'd be fine. I went.... I felt I needed to be away and normal for just a day.... when I came home on Tuesday. .... He'd fallen before I got home. We talked... he ate lunch... then told me he had a headache.... He had a massive bleed and lost consciousness before 911 arrive. I was there.... I think I said goodbye. We'd talked a little about his service... he'd chosen music.... I did the best I could in planning something he'd like. I knew this would be hard, heck, I thought I would be prepared.... but no.... I wasn't at all. The emptyness and heartache are so bad and I don't even want to go on.... I know I will. We have 2 boys... the youngest is 22. They will miss there dad so much.. The day after he passed, a friend was talking me to eat... I couldn't eat. The weather was dark and stormy, then the darkness stopped, yet it still rained amongst the sunshine..... I looked to the east and there was the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen.... a perfect end to end rainbow with the brightest colors I've ever seen. I cried.... but I know it was from Don, letting me know he was with God and he was okay, and that I too would be okay. Right now, I'm just trying to get through the day. I have a strong support system... family, fabulous friends, and wonderful sons. But this is still so HARD,. Micki Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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