Marj37

Thanks so much, Carrie for you wonderful D.G. comments. I cry buckets when I listen & sing along to the Place in the Choir, It's so purrfect for us who have lost our special companions. I love the idea of D.G. in a box on the freezer swatting as you all went by. It gives me a good giggle. I can't even put into words how special it is to have soul companions on this raw and sometimes raging grief journey. Some times grief rages like a stormy sea; other times it laps gently. Thanks to all. And Marty for giving us this option with all the many "rooms" in the Grief Healing"

Thanks. Exactly how I was feeling, Copperpot. I sure was happy to find my little videos. See him in action completely soliidfied Gb's memories for me......I was afraid that I'd lose the movement as time went on - I do take time to image him in my mind. This will help. Thanks for looking and commenting.

Thanks, Marty

Oh you guys!!! I found my very old you tube movies by dint of Googling for the way to do i t. And her is my beloved Gb. I'm so glad I found them because the files are long gone. You can see his gorgeous face when he looks up!

Oh wow! Thanks for sharing that. I had forgotten you have a kitty. And 20! That is marvelous.

I sure miss all about my Gb kitty - his kitty kisses, his purrs, his body next to mine or on my lap, his antics, his love of boxes. And I cry buckets sometimes. Even thought about saving the tears and letting them dry and using it as sea salt. LOL Yesterday when I was getting some treats that Hamish won't eat ready to donate I found one of the bags had Gb teeth marks where he had gotten hold of it. So I'm saving that bag to put in his memory book. I had to hide everything in bags that I brought in the house for them.....or he'd be right into tearing the containers --- he even learned how to tip over the big plastic container I put the bags in and get the lid off. Hamish always stood by ready to sample the goods. Here's my box baby from a number of years ago!!!!! I found wonderful pics today on my old cds. Thankfully!!!!!

Sure you miss everything about Chester. He was an amazing part of your life. And those moments of trauma sure do stay with us. Some days I can barely stand it because I miss so much of my Gb kitty--------all those years, and kitty kisses and purrs and snuggles and his silly fun antics. Many cyber hugs

Hi - you will know what you need if you listen to your inner self. And then follow that path. And sometimes knowing is helpful and sometimes it adds to anxiety like you have experienced. We are here to support you even in our own sadness.

Thanks a million. Love the little movie. He sure was a wigglel butt. ! AND - a wonderful hole digger

Super photos you shared with us.

Hi --- I sure do agree with KayC. learn all you can about it. Even contact the vet and make an appointment for a consultation. It you make an appointment you can even ask them to schedule you for the amount of time you think you need. I sometimes get those same feelings about Gb. And it is a really strong emotion when it happens and I have to ride it out. Intellectually I know I took super care of him --- but the emotions gets so tangled and I miss him so much all the day long since the cute guy was always keeping me company around the house and the sweet memories do hurt when they are gone. Oh my!!!!

Thank you, Carrie. It a perfect place to let our hair down and tell our feelings. A definite priceless gift.

Love, love the story of Chest er flying through the air. I saw one of those dogs being walked the other day and it was prancing instead of walking with it's person. So cute.

Thanks, Copperpot! The songs were so fun. The three little fishies song I changed to "two little kitties and their momma kitty too", and so forth, "meowed and meowed as they ran around the dam". The one that really makes tears when i even think of it is my version of How much is that doggie in the window.... "how much is that kitty in the window"--- -ending with "he's mine and he's not for sale". I sure don't see that void changing --- we were so so fortunate to have special guys in our life with endearing personalities.

Magnificent pictures and dog. He was such a delight . And I know exactly what you mean about missing them so much you can scarely breathe. Thanks for putting it into words.

What an amazing tale/tail, Thanks for the giggle.

Thanks - I look forward to taking time to listen to the discussion. Were it only possible I'd have done hospice time with my Gb .

Thanks, Carrie. I read about you and doggie - hope things go well for awhile .

Oh yes, Mary - I sure do agree. I miss Gb so much in all the little household routines. I am losing words anymore and sometimes the words make him seem further away. Almost like I want to be quiet and keep it in my heart . This morning I was cleaning the landing by the side door where I'd take them in and out for a little fresh air and there is the box Gb always went in to get his treat when we came inside. Without fail he knew that was his treat place. And Hamish always went to the 3rd step (which he still does). And of course it is Sunday again - the day i watched him labor to breathe while I waited til my son got off work so we could take him to that ER.

Hi - I find the need to comment on the topic of routine. Cats thrive on routine. I try to keep the routine the same with my Hamish as I did when Gb was here. Food times, treat times, a little outdoor time, brushing time - I've kept the same but with heavy heart as my Gb isn't here doing the silly things he did; and when I used his asthma inhaler & treats I would sing to him kitty versions of a couple nursery songs and that was always after my teeth brushing time am & pm. There is a gap now. I have no idea if Hamish misses those songs - but I can't sing them without sobbing. And evening tv time has changed - always had two of them piled on me....now only 1. Sometimes now I change to the other room because I am just too too sad, too wistful. I've changed a few personal routines in a positive way. Knowing life is everchanging.

I agree about their eyes. Huge pools of love .

Such a great memory and picture - i can animate it in my mind.

My thoughts and prayers are being sent to your home, Carrie.

Oh what a commentary. I cried thru all of it thinking of how soft and gentle the ER vet was when she told me Gb had no quality of life and i agreed to the euthansia. I can see it all again. The whole event is so clearly running thru my head. If only the rooms were not so sterile and cold feeling -if only all our pets could have their last minute in our homes. Thanks, Marty

Wonderful pics, mary. I'm so glad you posted them. Pretty normal to feel wistful and sad. Wistful is such a good word. Says volumes to me.