Marj37

It feels like an understanding family I've adopted. My sons don't understand. Here I don't feel like a crazy old lady. Marj May tomorrow be softer May my soulmate stay close.

Thank Kay....glad you are here.

Sunday afternoon I'm really crying this afternoon. That night may24 we took him to the ER was the first time I'd ever been separated like that. He could barely breathe when we got there and making horrible chest noises and they rushed him right back to the critical care------ put him in oxygen and did a chest xray --- then the doc took me and showed me the awful xray and I was able to pet him before I left. And i never got to hold him ever. the second night I was only allowed to pet him thru the oxygen door and the 3rd night was told it was time to let him go........and i didn't get to hold him....the doc had him partially wrapped in a towel and the iv in him.........I petted him and kissed him and told him he was such a great kitty and I loved him.. And then he was gone. Was so wrenching. I can sit & imagine holding him in my arms and holding his lovely paw when he napped but he's gone until we meet again. And it seems like it will be such a long time. And his brother still is looking for him. I hope my tomorrow is softer I hope my soulmate Gb stays close

I love this song........always have and this is a favorite singing group. Gave me a smile today in the midst of on and off crying. I did go to our island state park in Detroit today - let the wind blow my hair; listen to the birds. You can easily Google and find the lyrics. Marj & Hamish and missing our Gb May tomorrow be softer May our soulmate always stay close

Mary - I get that feeling and i get really scared.d But I have so many photos of my Gb that are as precious as gold. Marj May tomorrow be softer May our soulmate stay close always

I'm glad you have here to post about your deepest feelings. Each one of us is important and each companion we hold dear is our hearts is so missed when they have to leave. Marj "May our tomorrow be softer" and "May our soulmate stay close"

Oh my - that poem really hits "home". Glad I came across it here today. Tho I'd have a kitty shadow in the image it is marvelous. Marj & Hamish missing our Gb

Thanks heaps, Mary. The flowers sound lovely. I have Gb's picture and pawprint plaque, urn , etc. put in a space in the living room. And I ordered a pendant and chain of a kitty in a box from an artist in California - he sent it right away and it lays by my heart. And I have some pussy willow branches that rooted so I will plant one of them as a memorial tree in the yard. I was just thinking how grateful I am that this group of people is here. A true gift. Not being able to express is a horribly lonely feeling. Yes, just as your dogs are a part of your family unit, so were my 2 kitties (almost 15) I don't even tell most people what happened. I don't want any more pain from remarks. Marj and Hamish missing our Gb

Been reading the interesting conversations here about vets and also about not pushing yourself to heal. I like the upfront posts. I had an epal write me yesterday that I was dwelling on the negative. That stung. Because she had told me to write whatever I wanted when Gb had to go. My Gb kitty as only been gone 11 longs days. Marj & Hamish and missing our Gb

Thanks, Kay ---- it sure does ouch!!! This morning I went to our park and walked and walked until my hip flexors said "stop". I hope that helps........my sleeping has really been bad in spite of my Yoga practice. Some minutes I am way ok. Others I wonder how I will survive it. And Hamish (Gb's brother) seems lost sometimes; other times he is ok. He's been sleeping where Gb slept alot the last week he was at home with us. I like this quote in a card I received. "May tomorrow be softer" Marj & Hamish, missing our Gb

Wonderful to read this and think about. Thank you.

I sure would wonder also. Marj & Hamish and missing Gb kitty

I sure hope this sadness doesn't get any worse. I can go about my usual routines and my yoga class but then in between moments I miss Gb so much. That rascal was so imprinted on my heart. And his love and antics and lovingness and simple joy of being. I've been writing my journals and trying to play with Hamish a bit . Hamish is a more reserved quiet kitty - and affectionate like Gb Marj & Hamish & missing our Gb

Kay ---- I just love this quote. I count on it every minute.

Thanks so very much, Marty! This is such a wonderful good forum you have created. Yes, that is the book you posted on someones words that I saw. And thanks for the prayers and healing thoughts. I have a couple loss books but not one based on cats, they are general animal companion loss books so i wanted to get into this one. I'll order it from Amazon now. Marj and Hamish missing our Gb

The 3rd of June The house seems so empty without my live wire Gb kitty. His bro is a very laid back kitty so it's like a pall has descended. I cry so much now and then. I wish I could find his smell--------his body had such a beautiful unique smell just like Hamish' has. I saw a new pet loss book mentioned when I was reading some of the posts here and now I can't find it. Send me prayers and healing thoughts to SE Michigan Marj and Hamish & missing our Gb

I love your quote. I'm sitting here looking at his picture on my other monitor. I just keep wondering how it can be .

June 1 One week tonight that Gb left my world.......I wish for his spirit to hover here so much. I miss him deeply. I loved every hair on his body, his beautiful eyes, his rascalness, his lovey-ness. Marj & Hamish and missing or Gb guy.

My heart thanks you that have responded. Such a great place where no one puts on pressure and no cliches. Grief oozes out of every pore in my body. And my eyes need pampering from crying. Thanks for the prayers, Orabell --- you are also newly wounded --- and I send prayers to your heart. And thank you Carrie and Kay for the caring words. To have people who realize the bond that grows as we live with these fur kids and how the bond breaks and how it hurts makes a soft place to come. Thanks again, Marj 37 with Hamish and missing Gb.

I totally understand 100% how our bodies can miss our companion kitty. I miss mine also. And all your words aboslutely resonate. i was happy to find your words as I've been feeling much the same since I let my Gb go on the 27th. love his name and he is beautiful still in your mind and in the photo. Marj37

Hello I have such a sad heart. The pain feels ACUTE. On Tuesday evening (May 27) at the Oakland ER they told me Gb would never be able to breathe outside the oxygen cage. We took him there late Sunday, May 24) with cough and labored breathing (he'd had mild asthma for 8 years that got worse the last couple months), he hadn't been eating, was so lethargic, etc. My vet was out of town. His chest xray looked like lots of spots and other stuff. By Tuesday night when we went to visit he was so frail, could barely life his head and the doc said his quality of life was not good at all. I felt like screaming then . I miss him so much. Everywhere I turn I see him. He and bro Hamish would be 15 in July. I've had them since they were we wee kittens, rescues, and could hold them in my hands. Brown tabbys, as loving as could be. Gb was the happy go-lucky one even at his age until a couple weeks ago. This looks like a wonderful forum to be at. I've looked at others. All I do is mostly cry when I'm not with Hamish; I really want to scream. I hope Hamish will be ok. And the two guys were always together; herding around the house, eating at the same time, sleeping on my bed; napping in the same vicinity. Feels like I'm saying too much ..........or not enough. I'm a senior woman; the 2 kitties and I were a close family unit, 24/7 all these years. I loved being with them. Marj (attached a pic of the 2 of them waiting for me to give them dinner)