Widowedbysuicide

I am so very sorry that you received such a hurtful message. 

When people you know do this to you it sure slams you into the hard ground.  It takes your breath away and breaks your heart a little more each time.  I wish I had the solution to dealing with these situations in a way that educates the person but does not leave me with more sorrow in my life.

Some say that these people don't mean to hurt us and that we should be more understanding.  The words from a friend hurt more than those of an enemy.  The betrayal is horrific feeling.  I am glad you can come here to share with those of us who are supportive and have some real understanding.  I find myself searching for only those people who can understand; trying to find a safe place to be myself.  I have not been very successful and each time I must suffer the thoughtlessness of others my grief deepensdeepens.

I'm sending you a prayer and a hug and I will continue to wish for more kindness to enter your world.

Sorry ❤️

Glad it wasn't worse.

Great article.  Time for me to print it and post it near every phone in the house.

I sure can relate to what you are saying Gwen.  There is no way I can adequately describe the feelings of being left to fend for myself and swim the storms of grief.  Each day poses the same troubles, day after day just trying to keep your head above water.  And when the huge waves hit I often hope the end will be soon.  I keep going because I must.  This wasn't in our plans but every day brings an opportunity to to find something to hold on to. 

I hope you will find something to hold on to Gwen.

I have a friend who has said the creams and oils have been very helpful to her.  Her son is employed at a legal marijuana operation where they grow and process the plant.

So sorry Gin.  

Hugs to you Janka ❤️

I am glad to read that you are both (Mitch & Kay) recovering from too much stimulation. It certainly wasn't what either of you needed.

So happy to read your great news Kevin!  

Thank you Kay, Marty, and George.  Once again you have lifted me up and encouraged the best in me.  Bless you all.

Today I finally was able to deal with a bank with regards to an RRSP that was in my husband's name.  Two years of being treated like a subhuman by a bank manager.  There was no Will but I was the legal wife and beneficiary yet all I got was the runaround.  All the terrors I suffered for about $1,000.00  

I have been stalled with doing so many things because of this.  An emotional stall where I feared trying to get on with the 'business' of learning to 'deal' with life.  I haven't taken my husband's name off the bank accounts we shared, I have not filed taxes for 2015.  I have not changed the name on some of the bills to my name.  He did all the banking because handling money makes me nuts.  

The me that I was before Gord died had backup.  I don't have that now and my confidence has been shattered.  

How do you survive this life after...  I don't have an answer.  I am struggling along doing what I can to get through each day.  I'm not any worse off than anyone else but this forum is the only place I can come to find reassurance that I'm doing ok.

Maybe today's success is the beginning of taking charge of my life.  

Goodnight to my love in heaven.  I sure miss everything about being with you.  It has been 10 years since we bought this place and I'm busting my all to keep it and honour you while doing it.  ❤️

This picture is just the other day here on the west coast of Canada.  I don't like my picture taken but I felt so good at the time.  This is Scout, my temporary horse - I am keeping him until his owner can afford to care for him. 🐎

We may still get some flurries of snow but the chances of a big snowfall or constant freezing temperatures is low.  

I knew a week ago that spring had arrived as I saw two new born lambs, pussy willows and I heard the frogs croaking.  I hope everyone will enjoy some bit of spring soon.

I can't understand the words but the music and beautiful voice are expressing love.  Beautiful.  Thank you ❤️

Janka, I can see why the video can make you cry.  It's very beautiful.  I do hope that all our loved are happy where they are.  Thinking they are good makes losing them a lot less harsh.  Take care of yourself.  Again thank you for your beautiful words and pictures.

Thanks for sharing this.

I appreciate all the beautiful things you post.  Your tribute to your beloved Jan is very endearing.  Wishing you all the best.

I'm sorry for your suffering Mitch.

Wishing you well.

This poor family.  I am so sad for them.  I know what it is like to have a child who is this distraught and depressed.  Fortunately he is alive and maturity has made many situations less difficult for him.

Praying for you Caleb.  Allen and Katie all I can do is keep you in my heart and my prayers, I do so fully.

Bless you George.  May your God help you through the difficult days.

What a handsome guy!  

You all are in my prayers. 🙏. 

I can not imagine all of what you are going through Allen & Katie.  Your family has my prayers and hopes of better days to come.  

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I'm sorry about the error above, I can't seem to correct it.

Your little fellow is so sweet looking. 🙏❤️ You all are in my prayers and in my heart.