Corinne

Erica, I have found that weddings always trigger those sad lonely feelings, but you have made it through your first one which is always the hardest. I am in agreement with your prayers for strength. The Bible verse that gets me through a lot of the hard firsts we go through is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phil 4:13 Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Did you take your meds?

Suzanne, I am sorry you are feeling sad tonight. I will pray for peace for you! You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, My prayers are with yours that your son passes his inspection. As Marty said you are a wonderful Mom and a wonderful person. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Take your meds.

Wendy, Thank you for the update on your Mom. I will keep the prayers going. Please keep us updated. William, Take your meds! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Nathan's Sister, It is hard to believe at times how cruel and cold hearted some people can be. I for one do not understand how people can go through life that way because you cannot have true joy being so mean. I am truly sorry you had to experience that, but let it go because it is not worth even thinking about it. As for your brother's medical records. It is your choice whether or not you read them. If you do decide to read them to get answers, please make sure you are ready. Pray and ask God if you should read them and then trust that feeling you get deep inside. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I am in agreement with everyone elses prayers that God's healing hands are on your Mom and that he is guiding the surgeons every move. You are both in my thoughts and prayers! Please let us know how everything went. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Derek, I know it is a very lonely frustrating feeling when you don't have any idea how to help your child deal with their feelings. When John was missing I had gone to a child psycologist by myself and discussed the girls with him and at that time he said I was doing everything right. Now I don't know maybe I am going to have to find one here to see what I can do for her. If you are having one of those times when you don't know what to do and are feeling alone in it give a shout out and maybe I will have come up with a solution for the problem at the time or maybe someone else here will have one. Remember here you are not alone, we are all in it for the long run. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Derek, I am right there with you! My youngest daughter (7) is going through the same thing. Luckily for embarassment sake she saves it for home. She too is a good girl with a huge heart, but I too am at wits end. She beats up on her older sister (8) says she is going to hurt her, does anything she can to make her cry. She throws things, bangs things, does what she can to make me crazy. I too have tried all the punishment options. I did not sign up for this alone either and I get so mad at John for leaving me to have to do this on my own. She used to listen to him when he disciplined her and now I feel like she is walking all over me. Granted it is not all the time. I just don't get it because one minute she is hugging and kissing me and the next, look out. She will not go to bed without me laying with her until she falls asleep which by the time she falls asleep I am too tired to do anything and I just go to bed. As you can see I have no suggestions but it does feel better knowing that I am not the only one going through this. Hugs & lots of prayers, Corinne

Erica, When Jimmy was alive we too were very involved with our church. When he died I gave up on church and God and turned to alcohol. It was the worst thing I ever did. That was when I met John. John had no relationship with God, alcohol and gambling were his God and in February my daughters and I lost him. I am now finding my way back to God and realizing He was there waiting for me the whole time. It is OK if you do not feel like raising or clapping your hands in church right now, you are going through a lot. It will come in time. Continue to go to church and know that God is with you even though it does not feel like it right now. In Heb. 13:5 He says "I will never leave you nor forsake you." Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Karen, My friend, my heart and prayers go out to you! You are so right when you say that when it is a true love you get used to it and it does not go away. On Christmas it will be 11 years that my Jimmy is gone and I love him just as much now as I did then. My thoughts and prayers are with you! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I am sorry for what happened to you. Please do not feel stupid because it could happen to anyone. There are very cruel people out there that take advantage of others. Don't give up hope, it will happen when the time is right. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Michi, I am so sorry for your family's loss. Please feel free to come and vent anytime. It really does help. I will keep all of you in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Dusky (John), Thank you so much for sharing that beautiful story and poem, you do have a way with words! Please let us know when your book is published. Jack was very lucky to have you to take care of him and love him as you did! Marty, Thank you for the info! I have just found my faith again and have not started the search for a church in my new town. One thing I think we need to remember in looking for a church is, it is just like looking for a new hairdresser, a new garage, a new grocery store, etc... We need to remember we are dealing with people, not God directly in looking for a church, which means we are dealing with human beings and as we all know no one is perfect and we all have our faults and short comings. Unfortunately, it is a matter of trial and error. Hugs & prayers to all, Corinne

Hi Everyone! Thank you so much for all your support and prayers! I am back home now. The girls and I had a wonderful visit with my Mom and the girls had a great time fishing with my brother. Thank God I did not run into any of John's family! William, please do not feel guilty about not being sad enough like everyone said it does come in hills and valleys. My Jimmy is gone 10 years 9 months and I still love him as much as ever and still have sad moments. The other day when I sat at my computer and listened to "The Dance" I once again cried from the depths of my heart missing him. Your memories and love for your precious wife will stay with you forever and sometimes they will bring great joy and other times sadness, but you will go on and I pray one day you will find happiness again. Please remember that experiencing any happiness does not mean that you did not love your wife enough. I am sure that she wanted you to go on and be happy. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Kayc, I will keep you, Jim and Virgie in my thoughts and prayers. You are a good friend! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Suzanne, Hang onto His hand and He will pull you back into the light! Hugs & prayers! Corinne

Suzanne, You were so kind answering my post and here you are in so much pain tonight! NO ONE and I mean NO ONE has the right to tell anyone how long is long enough to grieve! You do not have to live up to anyone's expectations except your own. You have come a long way in so little time. Everyone, even people who are not going through mourning have good, bad and worse days. From what I can see in your posts you are doing fine. Just keep coming here and getting the positive reinforcement from friends. I will keep you in my prayers for your blood pressure and will pray that your good days increase. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Suzanne, Thank you for your prayers. I wish I had this website 10 yrs. ago when I lost my Jimmy. Maybe then I would not have lost my faith and taken the wrong road. But, that is the past and this is the present and through all the wonderful people here I have once again found my faith and feel I will find the road that God has laid out for me and my girls. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi everyone! Tomorrow I am going back to the area I moved from when John died. The girls and I are going to see my Mom and my brother is taking the girls fishing on Sunday. Please say some prayers for me that I do not run into any of John's family. They were so mean and hurtful blaming me for John's death. That is part of the reason we moved from the area and I did not tell them where we were going. The other reason is there is more opportunity here for myself and the girls. Also if you could add a few prayers that I find a good job here. Jesus says in the Bible "Again I say to you that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by My Father in heaven." Matt 18:19 Thank You! Hugs & Prayers, Corinne

Derek, Thank you for sharing! Hugs & prayers! Corinne

Kim, I definitely do not take offense because I too am not looking to get involved but I do know that one day I will. As for now I am just trying to find me. Hugs, Corinne

WaltC, Thank you! It is amazing, after 10 years that song still makes me cry like it was today, the words speak what I feel in my heart! Hugs, Corinne

Thank you Marty! Corinne

Derek, I totally agree with you. With Jimmy if I had known the outcome I still would have been with him. Garth Brookes has a song that says just that. I do not know how to attach songs like some of you do but the name of the song is "The Dance." Corinne

Thanks Kayc! Corinne