Corinne

Erica, Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you today. I know the numbness you speak of and I think maybe it is our minds way of giving us a break from the pain. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I am glad that your Mom is home. I have you and your Mom in my thoughts and prayers! I will also pray for her peace in dealing with the 100 questions. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Did you take your meds today? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Gail, The firsts are sooo hard, but you will get through it. You have your children to help you and they have you to help them, even if it is just being there with them. What you told your daughter when she said she cannot remember what her Dad's voice sounded like was so beautiful, I am sitting here in tears. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers during yet another first for you. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, Please do not be so hard on yourself. Sad to say we cannot decide who is to go and who is to stay, it is in God's hands and He knows best. From what I have read in your posts your Myrna loved you for who you were and what you were with all your little problems. I believe Myrna would not want you to be so hard on yourself so in saying that put a smile on your face for a moment for your Myrna. Hugs and prayers, Corinne P.S. Don't forget to take your meds today!

Kellymarie, I am so glad that you found someone to love again. When we lose someone it leaves scars that will always be there. The wounds heel but the scars are there and serve as a reminder of our lost loved ones and the love we shared. I know that panic that you felt. John was missing for two months before they found him. Last week I took my daughters to an ice cream social at their school. I stayed outside with my 7 year old while she played and my 8 year old wanted to run around with her friends. I had to let her do it but the whole time I was in a major panic, what would I do if someone took her, I could never go through that again, it was horrible but she was fine and I survived. I ended up with a migraine that night but I did get through it. In order to be happy and experience joy again we do have to leave ourselves open for some pain and for us because we have our scars it can happen over the strangest things. But we do have to remember as Derek said it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I am sorry you had to experience that horror again, but you did get through it. A part of us will always grieve our lost loved ones but it is good to know that you can find love again if you let yourself. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, We all know what it is like to be forgetful at times. Besides reminding you to take your meds helps to keep my memory sharp. Also, I have found that helping others really helps me. As for the beauty of the outdoors, I am now in a townhouse, but there is a beautiful park close by that I go to now instead of just walking out my front door. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Suzanne, Thank you so much for sharing that article. It does offer hope! Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, You better make sure you take your meds before Wendy gets home and checks in on you! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kay, I know exactly what you are talking about. I had 2 1/2 acres 1 mi. back on a dirt road in the woods. It was like a little bit of heaven on earth. I had to sell it after John died. My mobile home was old and being taken over by mold and mildew. My brother made me an offer to move us out of there for our health and to give my girls more opportunities. So, I accepted since John's family was so mean to me. I am glad I made the move but I do miss the peace and quiet and the animals. We would see them all in the yard. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Did you take your meds.? Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Erica, I hope you are having a better day today. Thank you so much for posting with me yesterday, it really did help. I am so concerned for my children. The past two days now my older daughter has gone back to her anger (I thought she was over it). Yesterday when my older daughter was screaming instead of talking I calmly asked her why she was so angry and she told me "You know, it is because someone is not here anymore." It broke my heart and I explained to her she can say it is because Daddy isn't here anymore. My sister is a nurse and I asked her yesterday to speak with the support person at the hospital she works at to see if she can recommend anyone for myself and for my precious little ones to help us along with our grief. I know with the grace of God we will get through this but sometimes it is overwhelming. I keep telling myself "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phil 4:13. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, We have all taken some pretty hard punches here, but I think you were online with a Higher Power, if all "pop ups" were like that there would be no complaining! God Bless You! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Wendy! I am so glad your Mom is feeling a bit better. It probably felt so good for her to be able to sit up even though it was tiring. I know exactly what you mean about the littlest things. Just watching the leaves start to turn and the fall coming set me off because both Jimmy and John loved this time of year. I also know what you mean when you say sometimes you feel like the forty something old widow, I am right there with you. Things will get better for us! Just please make sure you are eating and taking care of you while your Mom is sick. You are both in my prayers! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Karen, Unfortunately I cannot say that has ever happened to me but I did get goose bumps reading of your experience. Sounds to me like you are a blessed woman! What an awesome experience! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Maylissa, I am so sorry for your deep pain. I have had many furdogs which I have lost and yes they are your children and the pain is deep. I will join my prayers with Derek's for more people understanding the pain of our lost babies. Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. Thank you for helping Teny with her dream, I did not know where to look to find the answers she needed.

Erica, My oldest is 8 and my baby is 7. My older daughter will talk to me sometimes but my little one is too much like me and keeps it all in. I try to get her to talk to me about what she is feeling but she will not. She is very, very angry right now and I am afraid she may be getting that from me, that is why I need to find the right counselor or therapist to help. My little one could use any prayers to help with her anger. She adored her Daddy and I don't think she knows how to deal with it. Thank you for caring! I will keep you and your children in my prayers. Hugs and prayers, Corinne P.S. William, did you take your meds?

Erica, Yes, at times it is difficult with the girls because as you know grief has no time frame and sometimes it hits at really bad times when the girls really need me. I have not yet figured out if that is good or bad because yes it does stop the tears only to bottled up again. You have children too, yes they are older but I am sure they are grieving also and need you. You need to lean on them as they do you. I too have no energy and I really need to find a therapist and a job! It is already 12:05 here and I feel like I have accomplished nothing. We will get through this with the Grace of God! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Dusky, Thank you for your postings. You have such a way with words. Your words and poems are so flowing and I feel like when I read them you are expressing some of the feelings I cannot. Thank you and please keep continuing to post your beautiful expressions of love and sorrow! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Tori, I am so sorry for all of your losses and the health problems your family are going through. I can offer my prayers for you and your family for these things. As for the child care for your great-grandson there may be a program in your state to pay for it. Here in PA it is called coordinated child care. You may be able to find info for help out there through the welfare office in your area. I hope this is a little bit of help to ease some of your pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Erica, I too am having "one of those days". I just past the 7 month mark on Sept. 24 for John and I will coming up on the 11th year for my Jimmy on Christmas. I feel like I am falling apart. Finding this website really has been a God send for me because as I have said when I lost Jimmy I covered all my feelings with alcohol. This time I chose not to and now have realized I never did grief work for Jimmy sometimes the pain is so intense I don't know what to do with it. There are so many feelings inside I cannot figure out which one to deal with first. I have decided I need to find a someone to help me sort everything out. I feel like Dusky said in his post "I miss what I was with him-and all that's left is this stranger to go on." I met Jimmy when I was 20 and lost him at 34, so he was a major part of me and now I need to find who the real me is and I'm scared and confused but I have two little girls counting on me. I am a private person and feeling very insecure of myself these days, it will be hard but I will make it with friends and God. Erica, I pray that you find some peace today and that your therapist can help. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Take your meds! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I am glad you are back posting and taking your meds. Wendy might have directed those threats at us if we did not try to keep you in line. Have a peaceful night. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

AnnieO, I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. May you find peace now that the suffering is over. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Only Child, I am proud of you! You should not and do not have to listen to someone belittle your Mom. That was the way to handle it, you gave her a warning she did not listen, so, end of conversation! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, I am so happy for you and your son. I have been praying for you all day and waiting to hear that he passed. Thank you God for our prayers being answered. Now you can relax for a moment. (like mothers ever do). Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Take your meds or Wendy's coming for you! Hugs & prayer, Corinne

Wendy, You and your Mom are in my constant prayers. Please make sure you take care of yourself while this is going on! Thanks for giving William a talking to, I was worrying about him also! Hugs & prayers! Corinne William, Listen to Wendy, take your meds and keep checking in, we do care! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Dear Lostlamb07, I am so sorry for your loss. To go throught the loss of both parents at such a young age is more than anyone should have to go through. As for not letting yourself get close to anyone because you are afraid of losing them, you need to realize you are missing a lot of really good things like, close friends, the love and closeness of your sisters, and in the future the love of a mate. Maybe it would be helpful for you to sit down and make a list of the good things you are missing out on and the bad things that could come from being close to someone. In losing my husband and my fiance I have found that I have learned a lot and become a stronger and better person. I personally feel it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. In letting yourself get close to your sisters you will find comfort and strength that can only come from family. Keep coming back and posting it really does help. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Amber, I am truly sorry for your loss. Your dogs are beautiful! When my husband died I had three dogs at the time, they were all mixed breeds. When Jimmy died I had put them out in the pen because of all the confusion and for the first time ever they all started howling. They were so lost. I was so glad I had them though because we all tried to comfort each other. You are doing the right thing with your Mkwaa, let her comfort you and you comfort her. Our animals do sense our feelings and are there to comfort us. Hugs & prayers, Corinne