DoubleJo Posted October 22, 2007 Report Share Posted October 22, 2007 This month I'll be paying off my mortgage. You know, the time you're supposed to be happy. The man who made this house our home has been dead now for 5 years (where does the time go)? . He worked so very hard for us. He had epilepsy and so his recent memory was poor. He had to travel back to customers because he'd forgotten his toolcase or something, working twice as hard for twice the time and never complaining, just excepting the situation, happy to do what he did. He never let anything stop him or stand in his way. He was an inspiration to me. John was 10 days shy of his 58th birthday. He had a stroke. After 27 1/2 years together he died holding my hand in bed.It was frozen cold. I'd paid off the second mortgage with his life insurance money. I paid down the refinancing with my second husbands' life insurance. Now I'll receive the statement this week for the very last payment. It breaks my heart he won't see the fruit of his labors.Many of you know how the things that should be "happy" are sad. I'll cry big time. This is one of those realities that hits very hard. So- I decided to write to you instead of replying this time. Well-that's it. This ends something I don't want to completely end. It cuts me off a little more from our past and closes a door. It is harder to pretend that someone is not really really gone. But they are. DoubleJo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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