Guest moparlicious Posted April 1, 2008 Report Share Posted April 1, 2008 wed. will (would of) been Dan and I's 21st wedding anniversary. What was once one of the happiest days of my life, is now one of the saddest days of my life. I know I should remember all the good times we had together and all the memories we shared together. but I just can't get over the fact of how much I miss Dan.He was my prince. my soulmate, my life.7 months into this horrible journey, I find comfort only thinking no more doctors, hospital visits, chemotherapy,weakness, oncologists, numerous specialists, and all the other misery which comes with your loved one having cancer. The tears already have started and I am trying to make it one hour at a time at this point.Kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
suzanne Posted April 1, 2008 Report Share Posted April 1, 2008 KimI so remember the pain when I had to face our anniversary for the first time without my beloved. Just keep taking it one hour at a time and remember how much Dan loves you.Suzanne Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scotty Posted April 1, 2008 Report Share Posted April 1, 2008 KimYou've had a tough time of it lately. Some "firsts" to deal with in a short time frame. Here's to hoping it gets better as time passes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest moparlicious Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Scotty, thanks for the kind words, awesome you posted a picture, I love it.Suzanne, Thank you for your help.Love, KimI really don't know how I am going to make it through today, I have 1 hour left and Dan and I always went out for biscuits and gravy and now I can't even think of them without feeling sick to my stomach. I miss him so much, I know he knows, but This is the first one without him and I just hate life without him.He was the best person and man I have ever met. I fell in love with him the first time I met him. I am blessed we have 3 wonderful, loving children together, but often long for one more day to tell him all the things I wish I would of said. I see so many little things I took for granted and now long for them.(the toilet seat up, a messy house, dirty dishes being left out and me griping all the time) the I love you's and someone to hold me in a rainstorm, or someone who knows exactly how I feel. The fishing trips, camping trips, vacations and most of all his radiant smile and loving heart. I have to go to sleep now, for I have work and school tommarow, it will be a very rough day,I miss him so much, every inch of me aches.Kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lily Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Kim, I know today (wed., your and Dan's anniversary) is making you hurt badly. I wish somehow that hurt could be washed away. I was just lying awake and thinking of the silly, little, insignificant, stupid thoughts, or jokes, whatever you want to call them, that made us laugh...you know, oneof those "you would've had to been there"? and I miss those times with himso much. I know you must have had those times, many times, with Dan. I don't believe that it's only the great moments in life that make us soulmates,but the hundreds of seemingly insignificant moments as well. Take care Kim. Lily Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfarah Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Kim,I am thinking of you today and keeping you in my prayers just remember that Dan is still with you no matter how far the distance is. Stay strong and we are all here for you with a lot of hugs and love today and everyday. Love,Marlene Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corinne Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Kim,You are in my thoughts and prayers today. We are here for you.Hugs & prayers, Corinne Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lynette Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Kim I can relate to how you are feeling. It's only been 4 1/2 months for me since my Soulmate passed and I think the only thing that gets me by is remembering how much pain and suffering he endured for over a year with cancer. I talk to him daily telling him how I much I miss him and love him but I am very happy and relieved that he is in no more pain and enjoying his new life. Our 14th yr. Anniversary will be in July and I still plan on getting my family together and going on a camping trip just like he and I did for many many years. It might help you if you did something special for you're anniversary. I know your husband will be there with you in spirit. Take care girl and I'll be thinking about you. Love, Lynn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted April 2, 2008 Report Share Posted April 2, 2008 Kim,Thinking of you and praying for you today. You will make it through this too although you will undoubtedly run the gamut of feelings. One good thing about having made it through the first year is having had all of the "firsts" over with...I can't say the second year is much better, but eventually it will ease up a bit.Remember he has not forgotten you, he is only out of reach...call his name, I'm sure he hears you.With love,KayC Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest moparlicious Posted April 3, 2008 Report Share Posted April 3, 2008 wed. will (would of) been Dan and I's 21st wedding anniversary. What was once one of the happiest days of my life, is now one of the saddest days of my life. I know I should remember all the good times we had together and all the memories we shared together. but I just can't get over the fact of how much I miss Dan.He was my prince. my soulmate, my life.7 months into this horrible journey, I find comfort only thinking no more doctors, hospital visits, chemotherapy,weakness, oncologists, numerous specialists, and all the other misery which comes with your loved one having cancer. The tears already have started and I am trying to make it one hour at a time at this point.KimThank you all for your love and support. I don't know what I would do without you guys,I love you all and I really am blessed to have each and everyone of you in my life, You all are amazing, thank you. THANK YOU THANK YOU. Love. kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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