Troubling Times

[Guest moparlicious]

Hi All,

Thank you to all who have been sending personal messages and asking about me where I am? How am I, etc. I appreciate you all. Thanksgiving was pretty hard on me and I am dreading Christmas(dan's very favorite holiday) This feels like the first Christmas without Dan, I am only at 15 months in this incredibly hard journey and I was so numb last year to feel, I sure am feeling this year and it hurts!!!!! I am going to go to my mother in laws house with all my kids on Christmas Eve and we are going to church, then we are eating and on Christmas we will be serving food to the homeless through the Salvation Army, then we are driving home and having a big day with my brother and all his family. I pray for strength and wisdom and I am getting the blues closer to the holiday. I would give anything to have Dan here, I never would have dreamed he would be gone at 41 years old and 20 years of marriage, I would not have changed it, but being without my true soul mate and the love of my life has torn my heart to shreds.

Our son has been battling illness, he has chronic renal disease and started getting pain in his kidneys, we have been to the er, specialists and his PCP, we did find out it is not his kidneys, but dr.'s think it is his intestines, pancreas or gall bladder. I took him Mon for many blood tests and we hopefully will find something out this morning. As you all know, our youngest daughter fights many ailments as well, her immune system is attacking her body and she just got over a staph infection. Please pray for my 2 children as we fight everyday for their health. Thank God the 3 child is well. So over whemling!!!!

Mike, My dear, true, sweet friend I am so happy to hear of the memorial for your wife, what a special and wonderful thing you did, and you did it with strength, honor and pride.Good job!!!! I know it is hard for you right now, you have many friends who care about you and who are here for you!!!!

Wendy,

Although I understand, please know you are missed and your loss of presence here has many a impact on us all and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

I wish us all peace of mind and strength to get through another day. I love you guys!!!!!! Love, Kim

[LarrysGirl]

Hi Kim, I'm sorry you have so much to deal with along side your grief. I'll say a prayer for your children and you. I hope things get better soon. Deborah

[shhh65]

Kim,

Bless your heart! I'll be praying for health for your children and strength for you.

Sherry

[MartyT]

Kim, dear, you are always in our thoughts and prayers, as are your precious children.

[Chai]

Kim,

I shall pray for you and your children. I hope that your Christmas this year is at least a little brighter, and that you have a wonderful time with your brother and family.

[teny]

hI KIM JUST TO LET YOU KNOW IM THINKING OF YOU AND SEND MY LOVE FROM FAR AWAY .TENY

[kayc]

Kim,

I'm so sorry for all you have been going through. I join the rest in prayers and thoughts for you and your family.

Right now my dial up connection quit working and I'm so overwhelmed and stressed at work, I haven't even gotten to take a lunch break in so long I don't remember, so my reading and posting is a little more sporadic, but I check in when I can and think of everyone daily...you are my family.

With love,

KayC

[Guest moparlicious]

Thank you all for your kindness and words of encouragement. Dr got the results back on Friday but did not get a chance to read them and went home. I thank him for the fantastic weekend of stress, no sleep, worry and wonder!!!!! As soon as I know anything I will let you all know. You all are MY family too. Thank you again. Love, Kim

[kayc]

Kim,

I am so sorry, I know to doctors it's just another day, another task, but to us, it's our life! I pray for peace for you this weekend, knowing God will be with you in everything. I love you!

Kay

[Guest moparlicious]

Thanks KayC -I love you too very much!!!!! I'm asking for you all to please pray for my mother in law, she has cancer and it is in her bones, the last scan showed it is active and is now internal, going to her organs, she said this is our last Christmas together and she will die, I pray she is wrong, she says she is going to be with her son(my husband) and everything will be fine. I really need you guys so much right now. I feel so helpless and lost all the emotions of losing Dan are in a whirlwind right now, I can't understand all this pain.Please continue to pray for my children's health, Josh and MIssie are their names and my mother in law's name is Karen. Thank you!!!!!! Ugh one hour at a time for me this weekend. Love, Kim

[marsha]

Kim - And through all of this you still will be giving of yourself to others at Christmas - I think that's awesome. I too will be praying for you and your family - Karen, Josh, Missie - and you. Try for a little peace this weekend, and hopefully the news on Monday will be good. Hugs, Marsha

[MartyT]

Oh, Kim, we're so very sorry We are right here with you, every step of the way. You are not alone.

[Rosemary T]

Kim,

Right this very minute (5:12pm on Saturday)I lifted your mother-in-law (Karen) and your two children (Josh and Missy) up in prayer. I am in such deep depression right now; it seems as though God has his reasons for allowing me to suffer (I try not to question) so I thought that surely he would answer this specific request. I am told he answers all requests (not always in the time or manner that we hope for)and it would give me great comfort to know that someone out there is getting some relief. I have prayed for health but most of all comfort and peace for all of you.

Take care,

Rosemary

[kayc]

Kim

I am praying for your mother-in-law and your children and will continue..keep us posted.

Love,

KayC