MZM Posted September 29, 2010 Report Share Posted September 29, 2010 About a month before the accident a friend (also married), who I was helping/counseling during a hard time in his marriage, kissed me. To be honest, at first, I didnt push him away and even though later he texted me saying "he is sorry, but he is in love with me," I knew i was guilty for having let it get to that. His wife had seen the text and he had explained that WE kissed?!?! She called me threatening to ruin my whole life. She called my Zubeir and told him about it all. We had this huge fight and my family and his got involved. In our culture, a kiss IS the end of the world to our families. I had felt terrible for letting my love down and for letting down everyone around me down. They were all very hurt and upset and I felt terrible for the other guys marriage too.... I tried to take my own life because I couldnt handle the hurt i had caused everyone...But my Zubeir and I worked things out and we were all fine...until the accident:( Since then, the other guys wife sent me a text saying "I hope you've learnt your lesson and the world has lost amazing people...hope God helps you" to which I replied "You're right, the world has lost amazing people and if I had it my way, it should have been me..." Now that my heads a little clearer, I hate that guy!!!! He put our gorgeous love in jeopardy because HE sent ME a text and HE kissed ME!! He couldve said "I kissed her" and he couldve dealt with his own cr@p...but he wanted to take me down with him (my mom had told me this the very first day and it didnt make sense at first!) Last week, this woman sends her best friend to add me on Facebook but I knew....and today, I see them in traffic. I have such hatred in me...and I want her to know that I was not the cause. He turned to me...he said horrible stuff about her! I want her to know that I am not the problem here. I want revenge!!!!! I've lost the love of my life:( and he is fine! I hate him!!!!! What do i do?? I know he didnt cause the accident, but he ruined the last few weeks of my love's life:( I feel so guilty and terrible today! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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