Marie Lee

Thanks Brad, it was an ok day..it was productive...

Sweet memories Kay :-)

It's the one hundred million little things I miss... Guess I always will. Happy gardening !

Good morning beautiful was something Kev said to me often.. I wanted to say good morning to all of you beautiful people. Hope your day is filled with the warmth that love can bring . I know Kev is not here with me physically anymore ....he is ALWAYS on my mind and in my heart.. And also you, my friends, are as well...Peace to you. Hugs, Marie

Speaking of dreams, I woke up from a dream with Kevin in it this morning....it was a nice way to start my day. love to all...Marie

Praying so hard.....

Awesome! Congrats :-)!!!

I have to say it's enlightening how little people do reach out, call, include you once you experience this kind of loss.. I have lost some very dear frds.... Maybe it's just temporary...I dunno..

Thanks Kay...

Journaling helps me too... hugs- Marie

Mitch, I have memories and hope too. Happiness is elusive at times..but then I see my grandchildren..my children ...old friends ...a sunset or moonlit waters...and I have some happiness for a moment. Trying to drink that rainbow... Hope today is better for you, Marie

That's a nice daydream Ana...I often think how Iwoild love to meet Kevin again, now, after the loss and realization of the value... At our age and experience...it would be a dream come true. What a day for a daydream..... Trying to keep looking up, Marie

Hang in there Robin, my family has put the fun in dysfunctional all my life. Hope that made you chuckle and hope it helps you to know you are not alone with family dynamics going amiss.. we don't get to choose our relatives.. Sometimes I wish I could return some of mine! But, they are my family and they try to help me as they are able to. Hug and kiss those grandbabies! Marie

Thanks Kevin, I Just listened to that YouTube link , Patton , and he had some pretty good points about grief. Its amazing that his 7 yr old daughter is teaching him... :-) Reminds me of a quote, ...we will learn more from our kids than they will ever learn from us.... I am doing my best to get out of my head and " attempt" to move forward. Everyone has their own journey and timing for sure. This is not how I wanted my life to go,and yet, here I am.. I guess I am still standing... Happy weekend folks- Marie

Hi Gin, Kev was an avid sports fan..I can imagine how it would be for me if we had lived in Chicago... :-/ Hang in there, Marie

Frussell...I am sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Deb....many hugs to you and your family. We are all grieving, and miss our loved ones very much...you have many friends here. Sometimes the pain can feel like it takes my breath away as I try to figure out how to go on without Kev..I lost him in June; November 12, will be 5 months. In someways it seems like yesterday and then other times,a lifetime ago, so much is changing... Prayers- Take care, Marie

Love grandbabies ❤️ beautiful pics...

Here is a pic I took today at the river.

JJ, You're quite welcome. Glad you are seeking out family and getting help with your childcare. sooo... Last night and today : I joined some of my husbands old buddies for a couple of drinks last night...they used to meet regularly on Thurs. night.. I kept looking at the empty chair beside me, as that is where he would normally be, when I joined them... It was very good to see them...and it hurt some too...On the ride home, I thought about the many times we drove home together..sometimes on his Harley and sometimes not. Of course it was tear filled ride home. I tried to watch Breakfast at Tiffanys today ...but ended up feeling the need to get out of the house and drove to our beautiful river in our Fl town...Moon River played over and over in mind...missing my " huckleberry frd" on this next leg of my journey... it was a beautiful day on the river though..peaceful. Sunny skies..blue ....that always helps. When I try to talk to others about Kev, it seems they become uncomfortable ..and say maybe I need grief counseling... I think to myself ; After 30 yrs, I think I would be a very cold person not to have my mind and heart filled with memories of my lost love... So, I come home to chill before I pick up my grandson from school..and share with you all my thoughts today. I spoke to the gentlemen who has done our taxes the past few years...it's always emotional to talk to someone who knew us both when they are just finding out about Kev passing...I wanted to see if I needed to be aware of anything regarding taxes this year due to the loss of Kev. I am sure that added to my melancholy day... I am getting frustrated with the insurance companies as I need to consult with a neuro surgeon about my lumbar MRI...I gather this normally how insurance runs in these situations..sigh...It's not like I asked for this back issue...grumble grumble... Been trying to keep myself busy and away from the cyber world some and it has helped. Not all memories are sad, may good memories bring all some warmth to your heart ..as we all grieve. Cheers, Marie Thanks for listening..:-)

Thanks Kat...

Hi Ruth, It's a tough road we travel....lonely too, even though we can be surrounded by family and friends. For me, at times, it feels like no one really cares about me, our life, like he did..he and I did... I too have realized how much Kev did that I took for granted. I wish he were here to hold, touch, feel, kiss...to tell how much I love him. I tell him in my Mind all the time...I constantly look at all our pics on the wall from our years together... There Is a void in me that will always be. One day I guess it might not be as prominent... You are surrounded by friends who can relate and don't judge, a rarity in today's world... Tomorrow our granddaughter turns 6 mos.. Nov 12 th marks 5 mos since I lost Kev in a tragic car accident. It almost seems with every up...there is a greater doewn coming right behind it.... Much love, Marie

Hi, just sitting here and wanted to express thanks to everyone for being there when the world shuts its doors. I try to take breaks from the Internet and FB..to reconnect to " the land of reality" but reality kind of bites right now, lol. After years of being a couple, it's awkward being alone so much now. I have family and friends and am so thankful...but most do not understand...and that is ok..just magnifies the loneliness more at times. Once I get my back sorted out, I will need to find some volunteer work I think... Maintaining a home by myself is a bit daunting at times... So I try not to think too much and learn to live in the moment. The slow pace my life has taken is teaching me patience and appreciation for the ordinary miracles of everyday life. Thank you all for sharing your stories ..lending me your arm to lean on... As I grieve for my beloved... Marie

Kay, I want my Kevin with skin on too!!!

Victoria is lovely, I have a Boston Terrier that helps gets me through ..her name is Lulu Bell :-) ..Kev loved her too! Now she and Mason are best buds as predicted by grandpa...here's a pic of lulu bell..

So true Kat...Robin...love the stories of the stars...Brad..Gwen...hope it's a better day today for us all....Patty, that's sweet about the alarm ..it's the simple things ... :-) hugs.. Enjoy those cute little ones in costumes, they make believing in miracles and life a possibility for our grieving hearts...