Marie Lee

So sorry Gwen....I can just feel your shock at her response.... :-/

Happy belated Steve. Safe journey Patty... I hope everyone has a good Christmas....as good as we can... Marie

Love it Katpilot...I need to get mad at grief too!

Gwen, so true...Being in love alone......so, so true.....sigh

Dear Dr Lenera, It's very hard to get through Holidays for me too. It appears that is the way it is for most of us on here. It is very warming to hear that Jo found you and that you found her. I hope that brings you some measure of comfort. I am at the six mths mark too and have no idea how the next six months will be...I have decided baby steps will do for a while.. I tried a few dates and have quickly discovered how lucky Kev and I were. The journey continues... With much care, Marie

Plenty of company is right... I guess this up and down journey will end the way my life goes for a while .. Loved the messag in a bottle analogy.. Still standing? Not sure anymore...Marie

So true George...I was just saying to my children earlier...I have never lost a spouse before.... Spent the morning wrapped up in his flannel shirt..my beloved lumberjack belated hubby... his shirt fits me like a nightgown...watching the Christmas Carol from the 1930's ..his fave version ...then a show I had not seen with a snowy winter cabin and a man cutting down trees...and I remembered my big, strong teddy bear...and his heritage of the Adirondack Mountains....his recent joy in finding he could still cut down a tree and land it where he wanted to... I am trying to find a balance between remembering...honoring...grieving...allowing myself that time, space and yet, not being completely engulfed in the downward spiral of grief...an ongoing battle I guess. Still searching for the balance, Marie...

Patty, I hope your mom is doing better...and I am so very sorry about the landlord situation :-/... Prayers, Marie

Hi George, Thanks...this is indeed a safe haven. Peace, Marie

Patty ..It is indeed the ache of memories and what will never be... Thank you for your response :-)

Marty, Tks very much.

Hi Frussell, I think we all feel like we're going crazy..... we are here for you....Lord knows I have no pearls of wisdom...

Thanks Kay...I keep pushing forward and sometimes I am almost convinced I am healing...but then I come crashing down.. I watched some cartoons with grandson Mason this morning...Tom and Jerry...it made me chuckle...now on to run errands and hope the sunshine and activity help my broken heart a little... Take care, Marie

Thanks Marty, Marg and Gwen....I appreciate all of your posts.

Hi...All...how come grief makes you feel like it's hard to just breathe.... It amazes me the physical aspects of this journey . I understand the emotional ups and downs but never expected the physical aspects of depression... I could just lay down and sleep.... Its hard to find joy in things that usually make me happy... I have a few hours that has a glimpse of normality but the this sadness overwhelms my mind and body. Is this how it's going to be for a while?.. Marie

Hi again, I was just thinking...I thought I had made progress with grief...even went on a date... But this Christmas Season seems to be pulling me right back to where I was at the beginning of this journey. I am thankful for family and friends that won't allow me to just give in completely and shut the world out.. Much love to you all...May God gently hold us in His care... Prayers for Peace, Marie Hugs everyone ...

Hugs to you Caitlynn

Hang in there Robin... :-) I guess maybe we are...certainly am not feeling strong these days. I need to get into Holiday Season for my grandson....I just cannot get into it this year. love to all..

I don't know what to say..just know my prayers and love are with you all.

Happy birthday!! I hope you smiled and laughed a little or a lot today :-).

I hope you continue to find peace and Joy ,even . on your journey Maryann... Thanks for sharing...

JJ so nice to hear! I am ok. The upcoming Holidays get to me sometimes... have a good one and thanks for asking :-)

Thanks Karen...Thanks everyone that listens, supports me and offers kind words of compassion . Its funny that the little things bring back memories or make something painful. Take care all, Marie

Thanks ... Yes, it sucks...

Happy memories of anniversaries , etc, to all... With love, Marie