Marie Lee

AB3, I can relate...and agree... I got good news today from the neuro surgeon...my disc is not touching the nerve so no surgey needed for my back, yay...And then there is..,just ..me....Sigh...what am I happy for? Going to try to sleep...peace, Marie

Take care Robin.... Marie

Gin, so true...No easy task...but we have to keep going... Peace, Marie

Gwen..the huge amount of little things created...a wonderful whole....so, so true...hugs, Marie

The loneliness does amplify when we lose our significant other...No doubt.. Peace, Marie

One thing I think this has taught me ..and is still teaching me...is not to judge so quickly...myself and others.. I actually did get some things done today ...first time I felt motivated somewhat.... Tks again wolfskat for pointing out hope... Another lesson for me : The value of HOPE. Marie

Thank you all so very much for your beautiful messages ...? We certainly need them... Trying to enjoy a sunny day, Marie

Good luck wolfskat!!! I am glad you will have family closer.... Ab3..I think we all do.. Someone else said something about waking up with enthusiasm for the day....that would be nice....... I do no have that ....... Hope to again someday, Marie

Hi AB3... Hugs....and peace to you...I hope you are resting, eating and sleeping... I was out of it for the first few weeks so al the goodbye events were a blur....I was on so many painkillers from the accident. It has created a void for me...but there seems to be no easy way through this no matter what the circumstances are. I have lost family but losing my partner of 30 yrs... has broken so many fragments of my heart. I am still dazed a bit and don't quite care about things that I used to. There have been many times I would gladly lay down beside him and join him. It would be so much easier than trying to figure out how to live with this pain. It takes the smallest memory to totally spin me in the depths again...tonight on way home from dinner...I was joking about Kev wanting ice cream after we had just eaten a very filling meal..and I was like, what?, and was joking about it.. everyine chuckled... But in my mind I remembered that was what happened the day before he died. We had just left lunch with frds,,,ate a very filling meal...and he saw ice cream and said Ooooh, ice cream.... I said, how can you be hungry? Lol....we didn't stop and the next day in our way home he died in the car accident. I survived and am doing quite well physically...and the survivors guilt is something I fight all the time.. Trying to make my life count, matter, savor the good time, honor is memory.... My life has completely changed and I find myself not having any idea how to do this at times...so I just say one day at a time...to myself....and somehow I live...and do stuff...and try to keep from crying over every memory ...song....thing he missed.... Learning how to live again.....a bit different ....than before ...a daily struggle... All my best to all...Marie

Losing that one person that truly cared about your life...every detail...Leaves a very empty space..... As already said.... I don't mean as much to anyone as I did Kev.... My mom is a big part of my life and I still have her ...so very thankful for that..... Seven months is on the horizon....the grief is not as physically impactive as it once was.... I still have moments.... Dreams... Memories and tears...I always will. Miss you Kev....always will....<3 Marie I wish everyone a better new year ...2017....

Hi AB3... Very sorry for your loss and the pain that comes with it. Try to be kind and gentle to yourself. Everyone here on this site is amazing... It appears that grief has many different experiences for everyone but the common journey appears to be an up and down battle...that can be long...and lonely.. Take care. Hugs, Marie

Beautiful song....❤️

Great story Patty...this safety net is wonderful ..love the pic...something therapeutic about a nice fire. I bet the scrapbook is beautiful. Hugs, Marie

With thoughts of love and peace....to all...

So cool wolfskat...I love that idea and tradition!

Grief makes us a little " mad" ...crazy...and makes little sense of anything and changes everything ...so...soo...true... Those statements made me chuckle, Tks...needed that.. Marie

Finch, I just read your quote ... "once we have the words to say, there is no one left to tell..." Oh my how appropriate ! Made it through the holiday, still standing, somewhat..Marie

Robin, Kim...It's my first Christmas too..hugs to all... I have cried a great deal....had some family time...shared my feelings and have been told not to , lol....I am trying not to let the negative words sting...understanding that there is a time and season for all... That being said ...I feel this is my time to weep. Period. ( In my mind I say, So, moving on now, lol.... I just shake my head to myself and do my best to keep on this journey. Striving for the balance....of living, experiencing and loving...) Much love, Marie

Thanks Marty....I am joining in and saying...I love this saying. And will adopt it moving forward... Tks for your continued support....and loving words. Wishing everyone enough.... Marie

Hi Karen ....so sorry for your losses...tks for sharing....hope yours is a pleasant Holiday too.. Sincerely, Marie

Hi Darrel, I can only imagine the 1,000 ways you miss her....after 41 beautiful yrs... Kev and I had 28 yrs married, 30 together..total... and boy did it fly by...and I see him in everything I do it seems....this is a great site to help all of us who are grieving.... much hugs and love to all.. Marie

Hi, I know..how people don't like to deal with sadness...:-/ I thought that was a nice tradition y'all started :-) I have cried more in the last two days and visited his grave site...guess it is going to be a while yet on this journey... hugs, Marie

Beautiful song and tribute Patty.....big Hug.

Hi all...Sending Pleasant wishes to everyone !! Gwen- thanks, I try... So...I don't get on FB much...got some really sweet cards....and a very thoughtful gift, at my front door today and of course, the person that " reached out" was a surprise ...why oh why do people hesitate to reach out? Being alone makes me realize just how lucky Kev and I were... I am trying to be thankful for blessings.... With love to all, Marie

Happy belated bday! I hope you rested well :-).