Marie Lee

Praying for you to find some comfort and peace today...

I agree. I do what I can for who I can and file 13 the rest.

Hi Laurie, I just turned 50 Oct 1..lost my hubby this past June, I was 49. We were hit by a semi ..I lived, he did not. I don't know how we go on living w/o them...we just do, live...or some semblance thereof...sometimes I feel as if I just exist.. I miss companionship and will probably date again. I don't expect to find another Kev...but a good frd would be nice. The online dating thing will be an interesting journey as I have never done that. I met Kevin when I was 19 and was married to him for almost 29 yrs...our anniversary was Sept. So sorry for your loss, we greet you with a warm, group hug..we are here for one another to get through this awful, awful time..no easy way to do it. I know I am changing. My relationships have changed. I think people feel awkward..I get it...it makes me wonder how I make people feel now that I see how it is in this side of things... I wish you love and laughter , Marie.

Been up and down today too. Got a medical bill in today...for Kev, for the cardiopulmonary resuscitation they did on him at the accident ... He's gone.... I hear his voice on our answering machine and it comforts me for a second...Thant familiar voice, he fills my dreams every night, with the mundan activities we shared..maybe why I want to sleep...he's still here in my dreams... Took Mason to the zoo for the Halloween spooktacular....it would have been Kev's first Hallloween w/ Mason this year.. for every up...I come crashing down.. hugs, Marie

JJ, thinking of you and hope you are doing good today. hugs and prayers for peace, Marie

Yum, fresh tomatoes! :-) had to chime in ..

Just watched the video Marty posted on NDE, etc. It was great, thank you. Marie

Dear JJ, My heart goes out to you dear! I hope you find some one to help you, direct you... I can't imagine the burden you have, loss of significant other, the guilt and grief left with a suicide and a young child to attend to all by yourself. I am so very sorry. Be honest with yourself and patient too... Yours is not an easy decision. love and prayers, Marie

Thanks everyone.. I was reading others' posts about keeping our loved ones memories alive, that made me feel a little better, going to work hard on doing that. Peace...

Finch, No right or wrong way... Do the best you can...

Maybe it will help if I get used to the idea that he is still with me, although I can't see him. Thanks Joyce, :-)

Kim, Big warm hug to you today...may it warm you from the inside out!..... You are loved. Marie

I love you all. Thanks for being there and understanding. I try to get busy and move forward and it doesn't last long. I feel like a Debbie Downer when I share my pain with others..... I wonder when the hurt will be less... I admire so many of you for the caregiving you provided to loved ones.... Words elude me ... Much love, Marie

Hi, I am watching my grandson Mason today. The Lord knows how it feels my heart with happiness to see him play. To have the time to be with him...it hurts so very much that Kevin won't be coming home from work and playing with him. He won't walk in that door fussing about traffic. Making his snacks, throw the ball around for our dog. I won't have him to make turkey for this Thanksgiving..always his fave. I try to stay positive vut it's really not fair he was robbed of this. I don't think that pain will ever go away. Cherishing the moments but my heart is still breaking... I wish this nightmare would go away....Marie I miss you Kev....

Janet, I get it...I am lonesome and miss my hubby too. I went to visit his mom and dad yesterday....it was nice to see them. I know they miss him too, nothing fills this void. I know life goes on and I try...I am just not quite there yet... Hoping for a better tomorrow... Peace, Marie

I wish you comfort and peace today....He had such a nice smile for you in this pic, cherish the good times. Marie

Hi Gin, Yes! The ordinary daily routines ....are sooooooo missed.... Been scrap booking pics from grand daughter Evelyn's birth May 2, 2016.. And Grandson Mason's third bday 9-11-16.. Just did grandpa's page with Eevie...in May, he passed a month later, June 12 th. oh, how my heart aches with the missed times he would have had and that they would have had with him. He was such a kid at heart ...a great story teller..he was made for the role of grandpa . Sigh.... Heavy heart..Marie

Prayers for you and Gracie, Much love, Marie

Hi KayC, The future is a bit daunting for me as well, at the thought of living to 90 without Kev.... I enjoyed being married and loved our simple life... Take care, Marie

So happy to know so many people that loved imperfect people perfectly. Peace, Marie

Such a beautiful post ❤️... I am happy that you have such a great memory for today. My daughter was born this day 26 yrs ago...she is now a new mommy. My heartstrings tug because grandpa was shortchanged the day his life was cut short and little Eevie doesn't have her grandpa Kevin :-/. Words seem inadequate... But I hope you have some sunshine in your heart today to commemorate so great a love. Hugs, Marie

Please pray for a friend, Sabrina, fighting breast cancer. Surgery Nov 10th...Thank you. Marie

Friendship....Aaaahhh....how I have puzzled over that word.... Trust? Hmmmm, not my strength, thankfully Kev helped me there.... One of the reason I was so thankful to reconnect with an old friend...it was like Kevin whispered her name to me, knowing I needed a true friend...I know now how rare that is... I had thought of her on and off..knew she remarried... Then her name and her maiden name came to my mind out of the blue.. Her name is unusual, so I thought, hmm ..Maybe I will google it and see..it worked. Unfortunately, she lives in another town, but we can text and talk...etc. I very much miss being married and having a partner...we used to say " I got you babe" and he was a jokester and would always say " you lucky babe" and wink....I miss someone caring about the little and big things...just being there...my rock. We don't know what we got til it's gone..huh? Sigh,,, Thank you all for friendship and trust...and love. Rare jewels in our society... All the best, Marie

My mother and I talk about it sometimes. I now see what she went through back in 98 when dad passed. My children were young and I was very naive to grief .... Especially what's it like when you lose a spouse. I am thankful for you all....and you're right, most friends and relatives don't understand. There is a huge void and you don't feel like you belong anywhere. I tell myself, ok..not going to dwell on it today...got to get busy, sometimes it works for a little while and then the wind in my sails totally dies and I am knocked down...back to the numbness and emptiness and lost in direction and care even.... My daughter called me last night and we cried a little together...I hear her grief too and I know how different it is. strange, but true...I now know this... Oh well, to have loved and lost is better than to have never loved at all, right ? I am still standing...Love to all... Marie

Dear Robin, Much love to you..... Life's journey has so many unknowns. Sleep evades me tonight and I Find myself looking at pics.. Wrapping up in my Kev's flannel shirt and wishing time would go backwards ...