Marie Lee

Oh Gwen.. The silence is deafening isn't it? Nothing replaces our loves.. Hugs, Marie

The magnitude of being alone after being in a committed relationship for so long and not wanting to be alone.... yes, fear and anxiety fill our thoughts as we navigate our new normal.. Peace- Marie

I have to wonder if this forgetfulness is an innate human instinct to remind us to stop and take a breath so our brains and our bodies can refocus it's energy. Isn't it ironic that through forgetting we can be reminded to pave a pathway towards remembering? It absolutely drives me crazy to forget. I usually end up thinking of my forgetfulness as a failure, which it is- Except it isn't. Mary Beth.. This is soooo me ...still a bit scattered brained at the one year mark .. perhaps it will be a new normal? Peace- Marie

Dear MBBH... Becoming "me" after losing Kev last year is an odd and foreign experience... I have learned only a person who has lost a partner can relate. Everyone grieves differently... So glad you found us.. this group of friends here are amazing.. Sending out love- Marie

Hugs to all as we push on to another day.

Hugs Kay! Awesome video Kevin- it inspired to work on one for my kids and their dad- my Kev. Memories alive in my heart- love to all this weekend- Marie

Welhusen- I was also with my husband at the time of our fatal accident and have struggled with that. I am sorry your daughter has this sad association with her birthday now ?. I am glad you found us here ❤️ So very disheartened for you in regards to the wedding... many hugs to you and your daughter. Be kind and be patient with yourself.. You can pour your heart out here.. Peace, Marie

Love that you had that moment Marge and then the comic relief too almost simultaneously;-)

Dear Pat- You are among friends that " get it"... I just passed the year mark of losing Kev... I have tried to be positive and remember the good times ... hold close to his traditions.. But mostly I wonder aimlessly around...lost still... hugs to you ... and everyone here.. Hang in there and be kind to yourself... Marie

Thank you all... Marty- angelversary is good I think I will use that from now on. Dr Lenera- I have not been so productive..I sometimes think I need to go back to work.. maybe then I will feel productive. Sunday, the eleventh was tough - as it was on a Sunday we were heading home from that great weekend with friends when we got hit.. but what day isn't tough anymore? All last weekend my mind was filled with the events ... I am trying so very hard to be positive and find some way to carry on ... Its a struggle for sure.. I was watching a show and this guy had a situation he wanted to share but he had no one to share it with at home .. that's me now. I so resonated with that! I find myself meandering around lost.. I get segments where life fills somewhat normal.. and then I feel sucker punched and life is drained and all I feel is the pain of this awful journey... I miss my love.. I miss my life...I know our hearts have a great capacity to love... I guess one day I will feel loved again...

Ty Marty - Appropriate and Beautiful ❤️

Thank you Kay- hugs... Wishing my beloved Kev a happy birthday in heaven today ... Yes- my body as well as my mind remembers- Just Breathe....

Today my mind is filled with the events that weekend and our goodbye on 6-12-16 my dear Kev.I will celebrate your memory and your life every year now. Thank you for showing me what matters. I am thankful the weekend was spent with all of your favorite things: Good food Great friends Many drinks and toasts and lots of laughter... I was not ready for goodbye so I need you to stay in my heart and beside me as I try to carry on your memories and traditions.Charting a new course with you in my heart love- Your Marie Lee ? Time to go push Mason on the swing ?

Hugs Darrel - I wish you well and hope we hear from you..,

Lovely pic Butch.. prayers of love comfort and peace sending your way ..

Beautiful story- a day to be proud and you can bet Ron is beaming down over it!

A wonderful memory Mitch- hugs!

Gin.. I so get it.. I have not tended to plants or set out on the porch either and they used to be my therapy.. had grandson Mason today and I was completely lost trying to figure out how to entertain him alone .. I miss grandpa's big gigantic kid heart and playfulness...ended up at the beach and that did bring a smile to my heart ❤️.. watching Mason play in the sand and water. Hugs, Marie

Kevin - Awww Tks so much for sharing:-)

Hadn't thought of that Eagle... I get that- no one to do stuff for... I am quite lost...too... Tom -yes, everything changed in a flash ... hugs to all- Marie

Hi Mitch - I am so glad to hear from you on here .. wishing I could find that motivation.. I myself don't know who this person I am becoming is anymore.. hugs.. Marie

Dr Lenera .. My thoughts lately have been similar..I keep saying in my mind: thank you Kev for choosing me- loving me - and sharing life with me - our imperfect lives fit together so perfectly.. I keep wondering: How does one go on when all they were living for has changed? I have no answers- much much love to everyone here.. Marty - an accurate portrayal of grief.. Marie

Ty Cookie - yes the triggers continue for sure - just don't even know who I am anymore

Thank you Gin! Hugs

Much love and hugs Patty!