Marie Lee

Karen...I loved the Tanya Tucker song...it does fit..Tks and hugs.

Finch, I don't know if one can truly accept the pain that our loved ones experienced at their departure .. Pain is something we all experience in one form or another... How can one accept that? I don't think we can...perhaps we just have to realize there are things we are not going to get answers for. I actually don't know if we really get any answers on things pondered...seems to lead to more pondering...for me anyhow. Not sure this was any help, Marie

I have become less active on Facebook since the loss of Kevin...even though my daughter is in there and posts pics of Evelyn ....I have her send me pics directly so that helps...but I can't seem to do it...maybe because Kev and I would banter with friends ..and now I just have been sent down a path that takes me I a different direction.. Not sure I will ever get back on like I used too..I do, for about 5 mins every week or so...and then, I log off.. My kids are moving into an apartment, so it's me and Lulu Bell out here in the country... My legs and lower back pain , discomfort , continue and sometimes my upper back, neck remind me they are hurting a bit too..my elbow and fingers are still experiencing ongoing nerve issues. Numbness at times ...discomfort, quite often...my new normal. I do stretches ...bike ride some...crunches ...whatever I can think of...I am sure it will always be there....but I cannot complain as I am able to walk ..get around..etc. I don't mind solitude ..I really miss having someone to love, share ...live with....care for...laugh...why is life so crazy?.. Pondering still...Marie

AB...I hope you are finding you are lovely and worthy of high value and worth.... It is a tough world ..and made tougher for us all as we add to our journey this roller coaster ride of grief. Sending much love, Marie

Hi Marg, Dave , Kevin, everyone..yes, this forum is indeed a bit of a life saver. How many places can you go and speak freely? Not many in my book of experience. I am a bit of a " talk out your problem" kind of person...You might not know that about me as I stay fairly quiet on here. I am sure my group hugs can come across trite..maybe I am a flower child wishing peace to everyine all the time..lol I strive really hard to stay positive. Depression has been a battle for me all my life. I ponder too much. It's how God made me..I constantly try to balance that out...it's an ongoing battle. My brother passed in 2010 and his life was one of constant upheaval, anger, drug abuse, unstable, etc.. He stole from my mom and would out her through an emotional grinder...I have some conflict about his life and passing, etc...wish I could have been a better sis..but, I was holding on to my own life boat and trying to dog paddle..navigate ...etc.. My family history shows many have had manic depression, bi polar attribute, etc..... So, surprise...right? We were a beautiful mixed bag of emotional messes in our house.. Then, I married a man that had some challenges too...and raised children....life certainly didn't go as I planned lol another shock, right? He and I somehow made it, despite ourselves, lol...and we were kind of at a real good spot in our life when I lost him.. Here I am, alone, I have family and a few friends...but I am no longer married..I don't have my partner, my rock ...the person who cared and shared my daily life with me...for 28 years...well, he was in the navy so sometimes he was out to sea..but now he's not coming home from this deployment...it went by so quick... Now what do I do? I love this oasis ..this forum...this group of people that share an unfortunate common bond...but, one every human being will have and yer, it's treated with hands off approach in society...no wonder I am not sure I like people I general, lol... Now where is my life raft...dog paddling over her...Marie ( I am certain I went off subject..it's one of my many endearing traits, lol)

Yes, Dr Lenera it is... Hugs...

I did ours a few years ago ....when he was still alive ....it was very therapeutic .. The trip down Memory lane ....not sure if I am up to it at this time..but one day maybe...

I made A scrapbook with some of our cards ....

Hi Marsha...:-) Tks !

Of everyone and I hope today is a productive day...maybe some good elements to it... makes me think of Marty's wise words....let it be enough.... Thank you all for helping to understand that grief is a journey a natural one...loss is something we have all experienced and every human being will.... One of many experiences, gifts and trials of life I suppose .. cyber group hug..Marie

Ana, Great article...Tks! Marie

Medicine to help would be the bomb Gin....lol Yes, I am SICK of it.... and I love you all...that is so very true...one of the reasons I keep coming back to this forum is because of you ALL... The one corner of my world where everyone Gets IT. with love to all, Marie

The thought occurs to me how interesting it is to hear everyone's love journeys...so I guess in a way that made my valentine day a little better. Plus I got flowers from grandson Mason :-).? Preyers for peace and love for all...and for a message of love and comfort from those we are all missing and also from the loved ones we have surrounding us...in this world and the next ..world, dimension...whatever the next step is.. Marie

Hugs Polly... I have to say ....I am so appreciate of this circle of friends. Peace and love to all...Marie

Great pics jhcp...best of luck to you and to us all... Marie

Beachjow...I am not doing good at all...lol..surprise right? Lol Hugs to everyone here, Marie

Hugs to everyone ..still wondering aimlessly myself.. Marie

So cool Martha Jane, a cherished keepsake forever. Marie

Why does it hurt? I have no idea....Myself, I am trying to stop overthinking...the struggle is real. Hugs AB... One step at a time.. Marie

Oh Gin, Oh how much I get what you are saying...some days just suck....Prayers for peace and love sending your way, Marie

Hi all.. Just want to say that many days I don't post...I read...just can't find the words.... Darrel..many blessings to you... Hugs to everyone....this grief process is exhausting some days... Gonna go rest..today is my 8 month mark.. I guess time marches on.... Take it easy folks, Marie

Happy birthday Marty :-)!

Lovely story and the poems were great ! What a treat for you to find! ..Tks for sharing Martha Jane..

Martha James that is awful!,, I hope someone here knows something to help you. Struggling here too, Lee

Brad, I love what you want about you and Deedo's love... you made me smile, I hope your memories make you smile as well, Marie