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Hi fred Reading the posts from all my far away friends is an every day confort.,Well grief is like you are sleeping and dreaming and all of a sudden the alarm starts ringing .you wake up in panic in the midle of the night you can not awake you can not go bagk to your dream but you can not get up and start the day .For me it is going to be 17 months 2 of april Im not yet ready to get up and start my day .My nights are full of tears and during the day I hate what is life for me .Your friend from far away .TENY hope I make myself understood ?

Thank you my friends for your replys its agreat support to know you are there.I do hope that someday Il get to know and maybe meet some of you .That is if I will make it to have a future .Stranger going on .Yuor friend from far away .TENY

Im sorry for all my friends that are so lonely .I do understand.Easter and every holiday is holy and happy only for those that dont hurt.Next month is our Eester my children have organized going away Im going to be alone and april is full of anniversaries for me my birthday Yianys birthday the day we met 9 of april and EASTER follows .I need support as all of you and will keep posting so I can have your thouhts and strength by me.I wish that I could expres my self better I have so much to say but does any of you understand GREEK ?love from far away TENY

thank you PattyAnn its good to know that even from far away friends are understanding the way you feel.I wish with all my heart for everyone here to find some peace.

It has been a while I did not post about my feelings .I read your posts and all of my feeling are there.Pain anxiety antidepressants .YES the world is still here but IM not.Looking myself at a mirror I see a stranger a women I dont recognize .During the week it gets easier but weekends is hell.hapiness we shared is sorow for me alone and nobudy to share .MY family is asupport but they dont talk about my loss cause its been 16 months and they believe I feel better.Most nights I find myself reliving the worst moments of my loved one over and over.Is that suffering going to last as long as I live. Is this kind of life of any worth ? Thank you for being there my far away friends.TENY

I just want to tell you Iknow the feeling.I wish all of us here found each other in differend situations .I hope that you and every one in this site find a kind of happines and pain is less than now.Do you have friends and children close to you? My family is a support but the as you say heartache is my reality.I Think of you. Love from far away .TENY

hELLOW i WAS JUST READY TO POST HOW BAD MONTH OF APRIL IS FOR ME AND i SAW YOUR POST.Im soo sorry that you feel this deep sorrow but I do understand.The 9 of April is the day we met 11 my birthday 22 Yianys birthday and 27 Easter.Lonely feelings crying depression my conpanion.KIM you have to go on cause you have kids that depent on you I think that if I had a responsebilityI would make my heatr strong cause your kids are patr of your love and your husband lives in their blood and cell.Im thinking of youTENY.

Thank you for for replying .Yes I was a whole person as much as you can be in 18.I dont rebember myself cause I grew up with Yiany.Feeling lost and missing him every day I do try hard to have a reason to go on.During the week working helps but when weekend is here depression my empty life no hope and dreams for future makes me crasy.I used to love spring planting flowers geding the house ready for summer.Nothing matters any more.Nothing to look forward .Likeall of you here I keep asking WHY.TENY

Hellow to all of you here Im sorry for not answering your posts but Ifeel I had nothing positive to say My pain is here almost 16 months .I miss you all my friends here .How are you Karen Wendy Gail Kayc Walt BOb StallynScotyLorikely Doublejo Corrine .Forgive me if I forget some names that are traveling the same time road with me.For the new friends keep posting its the only confort I found.Hugs from far away. TENY

IM not going to be here tommorow so I want to say happy birthday for doublejo.I wish you well and be strong we need you .TENY

HI GAIL IM verry sorry to tell you that if you change the names in your post it gould be mine.I do feel the same and some very down days I try to find a reason to keep going .I do miss him soo much miss the way I use to be us instead of just me.Today I went alone for blood tests the doctor who is the same that gave yiany his test told me that its unbeleavable the way he died so quikly.I started crying and did not want to face reality Thank you for being here .hope you feel better and when you do please let us know. TENY

HI my far away friends yesterday wasthe 3rd time I went for group therapy.It was easier than the first meeting .The people we are together dont have similar problems so when Im with them I feel I dont belong .The same feeling I have with my family and friends .They all have their lifes thei home and every day routine.Im lostwith a life that is left and dont know how to handle.I dont know if its right to go on with the groupwhen I asked the leader she told me that even if problems are not the same I will find out that eventualy that I can get and give help.Weekend is near and dificult 2 of march its going to be 16 months.Pills dont help therapy does not help I need your help.Thank you TENY

IM realy sorry you are going through the same pain .Ilost my husband 16 months ago and I can not believe its true.IM making an efford to get up each morning and go on with every days work The only thing that helps is my friends who are posting here and give courage .Keep coming here we all need each other TENY

C-C Im sorry for your loss Ilost my husband 15 months ago from cancer by the time he has benn diagnosted he died within 10 days .I dont know whatis best along goodby or the suden good by .Both hurt so much when you loose the love of your life when you loose abig part of your self and your way of life.You have children that care for you but for me the first months having children did not help cause they had a shock of loosing a much caring and special father.All my friends in this site are and have been a great help giving courage when you fall apart and advise cause every one here hurts the same pain .Im thinking of you from far away TENY

Gail Im sorry but I do understand .Loosing love hurts and its like grief is here to stay.I hope that maybe some day pain willstop coming at the door.take care .Thinging of you from far away.TENY

Last weekend was a hard one It was snowing in ATHENS .The worst since 50 years .We are not used in cold and snow .Nothing was operating scools closed and only some supermarkets were open.I had to stay at my brothers home and not go to work so time felt endless .My mind went back to memories and I just wanted YIANY to be with me ceep me warm and safe.After 3 days the snow has gone and teperature is 17 deegries cel it was bellow 0 .I have missed your pots especialy from all of you that are going the same time jurney .How are you? Is it going any better for any one?I have started group therapy the first 2 setions I felt strange but the 3 it was more confortable.I will give it one more try.need advise .Thank you TENY.

Last weekend was a hard one It was snowing in ATHENS .The worst since 50 years .We are not used in cold and snow .Nothing was operating scools closed and only some supermarkets were open.I had to stay at my brothers home and not go to work so time felt endless .My mind went back to memories and I just wanted YIANY to be with me ceep me warm and safe.After 3 days the snow has gone and teperature is 17 deegries cel it was bellow 0 .I have missed your pots especialy from all of you that are going the same time jurney .How are you? Is it going any better for any one?I have started group therapy the first 2 setions I felt strange but the 3 it was more confortable.I will give it one more try.need advise .Thank you TENY.

Hellow my friends how far from Greece is Arizona?I would like to meet you all some day .If the meeting takes place please send some fotos of all of you together.WE have a terrible weather in ATHENS the worst since 50 years.Snow is high even in the center of the city temperature is below 0 very unusual for Greece.people are not used to it so schools are closed shops are closed only a few super markets are operating.I need the energy of work cause having nothing to do my mind is on the life and love that has gone.Thank for beeing here for me.

GAIL I know what you feel.I had to go back to the same hospital with my mother last week.all bad memories came to knok me down its so hard but as Karen says we have to try to go on with life that is left.It great that we can support eachother.TENY

Hellow my friends Im OK .Earthquake was not near Athens we felt the shake it was strong but caused no damage .The shok gave me a feeling of strong loniness.Reading the post and your thoughts of me gave me hope and I know that I can belong to my far away family.THANK ALL SOOO MUCH TENY

HI KayC Your post with positive thinking and love gave me hope .Valentines d ay is not so much known in Greece but I do miss my love today like every day .love from far away TENY

Patti Thank you so much we all need love today its so hard. TENY

Hellow my friends .Thank you rosanne art Lorikelly Deborah.Last post was abuot my bad weekend since you advised me so I just want to let you know that monday was as hard I had to go back to yhe hospital with my mother >Memories of the nightmare came back to torture my mind and soul .I have to go again tomorow sheis going to have a small operation in her eyes.Its not a magor broblem but only being in that hospital gives me alot of pain.I had starting to have some plans for future I have started to exercise 3 times a week and thinking of anew activity together with a friend we were planing to start a wedding planner job.All future plans got out of my mind like Im again point 0 .Nothing matters Im in deep pain starting grief as 15 months ago .I have started group therapy maybe I will get some help.Im giving up my new job plans Im afraid Im not ready yet.Need advise.Thank you TENY

Hellow my friends Im thinking of allof you .Im sorry to welcome new people but I dont post cause I have nothing positive to say.Im glad that valentines day is not a big deal in Greece.I just got over a hard weekend.TENY

Im sorry for your loss.As you say dealing with death is hard .Im old enough to be your mom .I lost my husband and hurting so much that times I dont want to go on with life .Reading the posts today made me think that my children that are grown up they need me .thank you TENY