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Five things are so limited for a lifes love story.Yiany was teling me every morning < good morning my qween> and when I was worried about every days litle problems he would say < nothing matters in life as long as we are together>.Now every thing matters because we are not together and it hurts sooo much.Your far away friend .TENY

I do think of you from far away.I wish you find some happines again .TENY

Please light a candle for me .I wish I could come.Im sooo far away.TENY

Maury Last week was for me also the 2 years anniversarie.Im hurting alot and can not find reason and any kind of happy moments.Please add me to your prayers for strength and a better way of life .Wish you find your way also and share love with your new partner.TENY

THANK YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS.I feel closer to all of you than my near friends in Greece.Only my 2 boys and brother remebmered that hurting day.Not even my mother called to say a word.I do miss him sooo much AS you say Kay I yearn for him to have his arms around me.deborah thaks for remembering.ALL aniversaries in nov.every minute hurts.TENY

Kim IM so sory that you have to go trough that but I wanted to remind you that in my 15 months I also got pneumonia and was at hospital for 10 days and got andi biotiks for 8 weeks after.We get so depresset and our body complains its own way.Hope you soon get better Im glad that we dont celebrate thanksgiving in Greece so I have only next months holidays to get over.It is sooo hard for every one here today is my weding aniversary and I dofeel ful of tears.Thinking of you.YOUR far away friend >TENY

hellow my friends as some of you remember the 2 of this month was 2 years since my world and life as Iknew it has gone away with him.I tried to pull myself and go to the cemetery saturday morning.My son his wife and my 2 grnd kids came with me.I had to be strong cause my litle grandson was there for the first timeand was holding my hand and cryed alot.His name is also Yiany and my grand daughter is Teny.They were both so sweet and caring so I tried to be brave.Next day as the tradition goes in Greece the family gathered together for lunch and we had fish that my youngest son caut.The day was harder for me and I went to church alone and drove the car into a field and cried my heart with soo deep sorow thinking that I would colapse.I went back to the house ther e was my reality.That is how I feel one foot with my family and other with Yiany and life that is gone forever.Does any of you feel the same?Teny

THANK YOU ALL Iwish my far away friends could be with me tommorow.It is a hard day Iwill try to feel your presence when Il be walking to his grave .TENY

KATHY I think we have the same name .My name comes from katherin for short in greek Teny.Reading your post I have to tell you that <we are in the same boat>My husband Yiany died of cacer within 10 days from the day he was diagnosed.My mind goes always back to the last days in hospital the days I was numb and could not believe the end was here.Flashbaks espesialy this time of year that is close to the 2 year anniversary.I dont know why but we are going on whether we like it or not.I wish you strength and for all our friends that suffer.Your faraway friend TENY

Hellow my friend Im so sorry to tell you that Im suffering with thesame whys and strugle with faith.I was happy with my life and had a lot of dreams to spend retirement and some days withno worries.I just hate that plan that GOD had for me for all of us here.I do understand .Your far away friend .TENY

This coming sunday 2 of nov its going to be 2 years since I lost my reason for living.I tried to open myself and make new friends like you my far away friends.During the week times runs easier.When weekends are here I get so depressed and try to find activities to end the day.Well when I go to bed alone I feel so sorry for myself and nightmares are chasing me.I had hope that time would heal some of the pain but I loose faith.I miss him soo much I cant remember my life without him.Im scared that I will visit his grave.I have not been since last year.Please pray for me.Maybe God will aswer your prayers cause I can not make HIM understand.Thank you my friends.TENY

HI CORINNE I have missed you also. Many times I wonder of some friends that started posting the same time with me maybe they are over the grief and doing better.I admire your strength.For me it is going to be 2 years coming sunday.SOOO HARD>Your far away friend TENY

Dear Kayc I do understand the pain.Aniversaries are very hard days.My wedding day was the 9 of november.The 2 of nov he was gone forever.WE were going to celebrate our 40 years of true love together.I was 18 and Yiany 29.It is so dificult to survive having only the memories.As you say it is NOT FAIR.My love from far away.TENY

THANK YOU MARTY For your very helpful post THANK YOU MY FRIENDS YOU ARE ALL SO CLOSE TO MY HEART And soo far away in real disdance.I need your support and positive thoughts espetialy this time of year .Reading your post I do realise the power that words have.Words of friends can save you can make you feel hope and try to live again Your far away friend TENY

Hellow my friends .This time of the year all bad memories are coming stronger in my mind.I feel so down facing the 2 years anniversary.Grief is with me in every step of my life.Like a shadow folowing me when I open the door and no one there to say hellow my love how was your day?When I go to work and he is not around to share everydays problems when Im tired and need his arms around me .Going to bed alone geting up in the morning without a kiss and his loving words < good morning my love you are the reason and meaning of my life>.Grief is here when I look at my grand children and he is not here to watchc them grow.Grief is with me when I listen music whenI look at the stars when I look at the moon when Im with friends that were his friends when I meet couples holding hands when weekends are here when holidays are coming .I could go on and on ...Grief is my reality Will I ever go back to life?Thank you my friends for beeing here I would like to be able to talk to you to meet you.I would like to be able to share my feelings in Greek Im always afraid tha I can not make you understand how deep is my pain.Your far away friend TENY

Hellow my friends .some times when I read your posts I do feel that if I could say what I think it would be allready in one of your posts.My first year was avoiding to be around people exept of my family.I was going driving long distance and crying in the car alone.I did not spend even one night at my house sleeping one day at my brothers and every other day with my son .Im in the second year I dont feel any better and dont want to have a house of my oun spending most of the nights with my sons family.runing away trying to find a meaning of what is left of my life like you Barb.your far away friend .TENY

Dear friend death is not fair for for any of us that suffer from loss.I could post the same words like you did but I could say even more if I could post in Greek.I can understand.Your far away friend .TENY

Thank you my friends for beeing here for me.Im looking forward to go on with this therapy I have hope that maybe I can find a new normal in life.2 years ago like today I was a happy women satisfied with my life and thankfull to GOD that gave me my love my children and grand kids.Next day came dissaster.Even when Iv been told that YIANY had liver cancerI could not believe that he would been gone in a month.It is almost 2 years and a year and half that I met you my far away friends.TENY

Thank you for answering.What is S R T and T F T therapy? I could not find any information. TENY

Hellow my friends as most of you know Im strugling 23 months to find confort and meaning in life to go on.Iv tried many differend councelors and also group therapy.So far nothing helped.The most conforting help is when I read your posts and find answers to what I post.I do have to apologise for my english not handeling the languish does not give me the posibility to expres my feelings and use the proper words.there times that Im not able to answer to many of your posts cause its not easy for me to find my words and let you understand my feelings.Today Il try my best.Thank you Marty for encuregeme to try this new therapy called E M D R.The first setion was today.My therapist asked me some questions about how I picture myself what are the positive things that helped me so far in my life and what I think that I would need to have more to help me get over this dark passage.He tried to make me understand that all positive part of me is still here and that IM the same person not half without Yiany.IM confused but I think maybe there is a pointTryingk to use ones abilities from inner self and axept thatlife will never be the same.I do miss him very much I miss his love his suport our life together .When love is so stong the loss is ever going to be easier to handle? I do hope for all of us that going on with the new therapy I can say YES.Thank you all for love and suport.I realy try to comunicate with many speling mistakes. Your far away friend TENY

Im so sorry for your loss.And realy understand your pain cause I lost my husbant from liver cancer. He was diagnosed in october and died in2 of november.No time to fight.You are to young to suffer this loss.Taking care of your baby that is part of your husband will give you strength to go on .Do you have family?Do you have friends to hold your hand and help?Im thinking of you from far away TENY

hEllow my far away friends.Thank you for beeing here for me all this long time of 23 months.Thank you Marty for your sopport and advise .Reading your answers is always a relief.I feel stuck and hurt and as time goes by the feeling of lonlynes begomes stronger and I just can understand the meening and inportance of my other half.I feel half a person without my Yiany .HE was my other half my everything the center and my reason for living.Trying to get some help and after trying differend counceling I went back to the one Iv started with.Iv been with him more time and maybe he understands my suffering.He sugested anew therapy its called E M D R .I could not realy understand what is the way it works.Does any of you know or heard about?That is my question.I need your support for tomorow facing another difficult day.I wish you were all closer to give me a hug.Love from far away TENY

Happy birthday and I realy hope your next birthday will be areal happy one .Your far away friend TENY

Hellow my friends most of you know my story and as you remember Ihave tried diferend counceling and group therapy.Yesterday Ivisited anew therapist < a women that as I have been told had also lost her husband some years ago and thought that she would be more understanding>.It is almost 2 years for me and the wound is bleeding.She told me that will never go away and that she can not be of any help .I can only help myself I have to stop taking pills for depression and the only hepl she can ofer is with counceling make me understand that other people that suround me can give love and protection .I know that some of you have moved and I feel that something is wrong with me.Im in baby steps and have no hope .Need your help.Your far away friend TENY

Joe I know how it hurts.I wish I could find a note from Yiany .Nothing was left and I always wonder about so many words unspoken.I only have his voise at the answering mashine and my friends advise me not to keep it any more .I cant let go.Its almost 23 months.Love from far away TENY