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hellow my far away friends I was thinking of posting this and was not sure that was good for the new ones here > iv read deborah your post so Ifound courage to post.I have been invited to aparty where alot of people are going tojoin dressed in carnival costumes.I have axcepted the invitation and as the days came closer I felt depressed and I knew I did not be part of such an event .Music celebration fake joy.My feeling of grief are here all the time and I new that it would be a great difference of my inner world and the face I had to put on.I called to say that will not go .My friends gould not believe that after 4 years Im not over my grief.Some thought its not normal and I have to ask for profetional help.Nobody that has not been in this terrible journey can realy understand.I prefare solidute than being part of an event so stange to my feelings.Deborah you are not the only one.We are paying for love and it hurts.love from far away.Teny

dear Gail it is so good to know you are happy again.You are giving hope to all of us .Im also doing better but not good it has been 4 years for me and hard to believe he is gone.Have you got married again? love from far away .Teny

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR REPLAY .kAY C I WOULD LOVE TO MEET YOUR SISTER GIVE HER MY TEL NUMBER TO CALL ME 6936723404 MOB AND ATHENS NUMBER 210 6723404 LOVE FROM FAR AWAY TENY

dear far away friends old ones and new ones.hollidays again and this time of the year pain is deeper.im thinking allof you that suffer the same grief.i want to keep hope in my heart that it is going to be easier the coming year.In greece economik situation is worst than ever.Facing every day and geting poor every sngle day is a nightmare.It has been 4 years alone and I feel like Im living the life of a stranger I dont know.I have lost myself .This is not the life we dreamed for. love from far away TENY

my dear friend I can feal your pain and IM sooo sorry.Time goes by but for us time did not heal uor wounds.Love the way we knew has gone and I pray for you for me and all people that sufferto find confort and less pain love from far away.Teny

thank you my far away friends .today is another sad aniversary for meour wedding.When we are happy life goes fast.I do remember all happy years and it looks so far away like if Im not the same person that was once in love and happy.I would like to know how are all of you that posted here when I started are going on.My email is teny @ ath. forthnet.gr I dont know why my profile is not at the site any more. love to all of you .TENY

Dear far away friends the 2 of nov was 4 years for me. im sorry for all new people here. I would like to thank my old far away friends and let them know Im here almost enery day reading new posts.MY journey is getting easier but it is hard to be alone.Im surviving. some days are harder and some better.Im looking for my new normal.I hate it.grief is like exile.you find yourself in acompletely stange country.new habits new laguage new foods new people and nothing familiar.love the way I kew has gone I try to replace it with the love of my kids and grand kids .I always feel sorry Yiany is not with us to enjoy our grand kids growing.I miss my life miss him miss myself the part of me that has gone forever.Hope that my old far away friends are doing better than me. love TENY

dear far away friend happy birthday .i know how hard it is but ido hope you find some confort and better days love to you TENY

hellow Walt Im still here and always wonder about my far away friends love frm far away TENY

dear far away friend I was always wondering how are you doing.Im happy for you and you give us hope that life goes on. best wishes from far away.TENY

Dear Kim it is a nice surprise to read your post.Im always thinking about all my 0ld far away friends.How are all of you doing? I do understand you feelings.For me its 3 years and 8 months and every minute my mind is at my lost love.I have not found yet what is called new normal in fact nothing is normal the way we knew. How are your keeds ? Im thinking of you .Love from far away.TENY

thank you for your reply it feels good to have advise frm someone who has more experience and cares for people that are suffering.Have you ever been in Greece?Teny

Hi Walt Im missing reading your posts.I know it hurts even after 5 years.Im close to 4 years and understand that the longer the time is we miss our loved ones more.Time does not heal all wounds.Love from far away.Teny

Thank you for your replay but I dont understand what do you mean by creating emotions,Since the one and only who gave me that kind of love affection admiration suport made feel desirible even in my 60 is not any more wityh me how can I have all the emotionscreated by his love?My life is gone and some days I wonder why Im still here.Love males the world go on .Where is my love?Thank you from far away.TENY

tHANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR ANSWER.i HAVE SO MANY TO ASK BUT IT IS DIFICULT TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS BECAUSE i CAN NOT MAKE MYSELF UNDESTUD IN ENGLISH.i HANE RED SOME OF YOUR POSTS IN OPEN TO HOPE TRYING ALWAYS TO FIND HOPE.iT HAS BEEN 44 MONTHS SINCE i LOST MY HUSBAND AND IT HURTS ALWAYS. THANK YOU FROM FAR AWAY .TENY

Hellow Im teny from Athens GReece.Iv send An email Did you reeive it? about is it wrong not to let your loved one know that he is terminal and with no hope ill. thank you Teny

Deborah, thank for your replay I domt know your email. I would like to keep in touch with you.love Teny

Hellow my far away friends I do miss some of you that are not posting any more so I think that you have recovered.I do feel better some days but I also have days that I dont find any meening in life without my love.44 months is a long time especialy for those in my family who think that life goes on without him and I can not share the pain that brings tears every time remembering the life that is gone forever.Where is the new normal I read in all grief healing books?.I do have loving children and grandchildren but no life of my own.Nobudy to share my feelings my fears my every days promblems that with the economic situation in Greece are many.Im tired I dont know a way to relax cause to relax I need a shoulder and ahug that IM missing so much.Im so sorry for all you new friends here .Where are you my old ones? how are you doing?Love from far away Teny

im sooo sorry for Kim .I do read almost every day what is going in here.I will pray for my far away friend. Love TENY

Im sorry for your loss it is so simmilar to mine.We also had to move to anew house and Yiany had the same pain like Michael after doing alot in the house .He went to see his doctor and was admitted to the hospital.every day was worse with no hope .it was lung cancer spread to the liver .he was gone in 10 days.I he was a big guy also.I can feel your pain.Do you have family? do you have children? Love and support from close family helps.I think of you from far away .TENY

hellow my friends.I was ready to post about anniversaries and I found the post allready.forme april is the hardest month.The 9 is the day we met.it was Easterday.the then the 11 my birthday the 22 his birthday the 13 one year from my mothers death.Easter and the holly week all sadness is 1oo times deeper.Im so sorry thatsome days I feel Im progresing and some days I wonder why I can not give hope to our new friends.Today I was with my family all loving and caring.My 10months grandaughter was with us and all I was thinking why he is not here to be happy with the little one he never met.Im surviving but not finding joy and when I feel Im happy about something I always feel the big hole in my heart.Please forgive me for not being able to expres myself better. Love from far away.TENY

dear far away friend my best wishes and love hoping that you are stronger and some joy will come to your life.TENY

thank you my far away friends.I feel like Im swimming and trying to keep my head above water and some strong wave allof a suden covers my face and I can not breath.love from far away .TENY

I want to apologize to the new comers for my post cause I know you all need hope for less pain.Today I went to his grave it is 40 months and the pain is soo stong.Some days I think that IM progressing and then pain and desperation comes to the surface and I can not find meaning in life.I have my work but economic situation in Greece is so bad that stress is part of every days rutine.joy happiness are emotions I forgot.every days life goes on but the lonely nights are desperate.WE were togetherfor 40 years since I was18 and I dont know any other life without him.Does any of you that have been here so long as me have the same grief or Im not normal to feel this way .love from far away .TENY

Im so sorry for every new member of this family.I have been here almost 3 years and I live in Greeceso I have found a far away support.I want to tellyou my way of handling the first year after my husbands death.My love died 10 days after he was diagnosted with liver cancer without having any previous signs.We had plansto change home and live to a small house by the sea.I found myself with no plwce to live cause I could not face to live alone at our dream house.I have spend the first months with my brother and when I got very ill I moved with my son.I neededpeople around me I needed their love and suport.After 3 years of strugling to find some rutine I was able to move to our house by the sea for only a couple of days during the week.Memories are so painful at that house so I do feel better with my children.Dont try to deside now give it a secod thought.We aways need time.Your far away friend TENY