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hELLOW kIM>I really dont know how I can be of any help.I just wanted to let you know Im thinking of you and hope you get strength and have courage to fight for what you believe it has to be done.Your kids health is the priority now.I wish you were in Greece my brother is a doctor and that would help alot.Love from far away .TENY

Thank you my friends for your support.My heart lifts up when I read your answers.Wendy Leean Annc Kayc Leda Donna Fred Deborah Mary linda Derek you are all special people.Your far away friend TENY

Thank you so much my friends for replaying.Living inGreece Im not able to join a special grief group cause they dont exist here.Im in therapy but the only thing that helps are sleeping pills and serotonin.Im gratefull for all of you that can be hear for me.Im sorry for negative feelings espetialy for those who are new here..I read yesterday that elder people should not try to find happynes and that have to be satisfade with small every days pleasures Write now nothing gives me pleasure and every day I miss my happines.Maybe the economic situation the fear for future the unstable politics are adding to my negative feelings.Love from far away TENY

My far away friends Im sorry to post this today but I have the feeling Im stuck.I reed every post and seems to me that most of my friends that traveled the same period of time with mbe are coping better.Today it is Yianys nameday you see in Greece we celebrate name days more than birthdays.Every moment of the day his loss is in my mind and Im not ready to axcept yes I lost him forever.Im a mother a daughter a sister a grandmother but not a wife a widow that sounds awful. I never before felt so old.Looking myself at the mirror I just dont see me have no interest of wearing new clothes or whatever in the past gave me joy.Its like my life is going on without me.I would appreciat if some of my friends that have been here longer give me some advise and support. Thank you TENY

Well dificult answer sooo many moments of happines missing that I dont know where to start.Our boys are missing Him so much but I would be selfish spending the time in his arms.I used to put my arms around him and hold him tide andYiany was laughing calling me my litle octapus wont you let me go?I would not let him go.Yesterday was 26 months and I dont feel any healing.I hope for all of us a better year.Your far away friend TENY

Hellow my friends I wish for every one a year with less pain.I wanted you to know some of our traditions.New years eve in every town and every island young boys and girls dresed in traditional costumes < each island and village has its own>are singing the carrols holding a small decorated boatthat is the decoration that most homes in the villages have Boats in all diferend shape and size deorated with candles or lights.Famillys gather around the fire place they writenotes of negative feelings and whatever went wrong in the year and burn the notes in the fire.New years day in every family they have a pie that contains a coin .The head of the family cats the pieces and naming each for every member of the family and one for the unknown guest one for prosperity at work and one forJesus.Who ever gets the coin is the lucky one for the coming year.I dont like this tradition any more cause Yiany got the coin 2006 the year he died.Pomegranates are the good luck symbol so we use to brake one in the frond door of the house for good luck and prosperity.I wish I had some hope this year but it is so hard I miss the years we have spend together I miss his arms around me and the hugs and kisses for each year we were together.Love from far away TENY

I want to start a list of the couples here...I could name many of them but don't want to leave anyone out, so please add your name and the name of the spouse you lost...I want to pray for each of you in this new year. Kay and George Erica and Walter Scott and Kate Tom and Mary Linda Janet and Mike Corinne and Jimmy Jeanne and Alex Derek and Karen Rosemary and Lou Bob and Janet Jean and Walter

Happy birthday. WIshes from far away .How are you? TENY

Christmas day is over but not the hollidays .One more week to go.I have to say that the day of christmas wass better than I thought.My close familly gathered at my brothers house.My sister in law tried to make it spesial for every one .She is so brave and positive acting althouh she sufers from kidney failure and goes for dayilises 3 times a week.My mother who is 90 was with us my brothers 2 daughters my 2 sons with teir wifes and my 2 grnd ghildren Teny and Yianys <they have our names>.I had the feeling I was collecting pieces of love from every one.I had a good feeling being with all my familly but not a happy one .My significant other was missing and every piece of love could not replace it.I feel quitly about not apriciating what I have and always focussing at what I dont.Does that meanI dont love my children enough?I dont appreciate my brothers love and my sisters in law love?I can only bond with my lost love lost dreams and life as I knew it.I just keep forgeting that my children lost their father also.I want to have hope and hppines again and wish for all of you the same.Love from far away TENY

Thank you my friends.Kay answering about hollidays in Athens Im sorry tolet you know that thing are getting hard.Fortunately there are no fires at the streets but it has been alot of shooting against police cars and luxurie cars that were parked in the center of the city.The christmas tree at the center square was replased but angry mobs hanged garbage bags and protested throwing stones at the police and people that were doing their shoping.Tomorow christmas day protesting against police and goverment is taking plase at the center of Athens.Angry people with no hope loosing their jobs and security are feeling that celebrating has no right this year.Fear anger stress turned this chrismas in a volcano I hope that lava will not cover our future.My shop is not close to the center but sales were very very low 80 percent down.Having my personal grief this situation is not helping.Wishes from far away TENY

THANK YOU ALL SOO MUCH.TOday I had a horible nightmare it is frightening.but I want to let it out.<I was walking going to my mothers home holding Yianys body in a small coffinI wanted to look at him and a friend told me not to because he will not look the same.She sad I have to bury him but I was crying and did not want to let go.Finaly I reached my mothers home trying to find a room to place the coffin and there was my father ,who is dead 20 years ago, smoking and looking worried at me..>I woke up shaking crying and lost.I had a warm bath and tried to calm with no success.I could not tell anyone but I feel better to post here.its a relief.Tears from far away.TENY

Dear kim .I can not believe that God gave you this sufering.I wish that HE will think it over this christmas that it is suposed to be the celebration of birth and new start.I will pray for strength that we all need but today you need it more.Love from far away TENY

IM feeling desparate today.Just to let you know and wishing that some of my far away friends were closer so we could talk about this terrible feeling.Driving to work this morning Iwas thinking whats the use of beeing here without him ?Were is my life were is my love.Negative thinking ?I need support.Your far away friend TENY

Happy birthday from far away.My husband use to bring me red roses for my birthday also.I just dont like them anymore.I feel the same and trying to get over the hollydays with less pain.TENY

I read every single word all of you are posting I just feel the pain and if I was able to expres my feelings using words in english I wuold say everything you say .It has been 2 years for me and days like this I feel the grief as strong as it has started .Holidays are here but in Athens violence fear anger burning shops so smoke and tear gas is the christmas decoration.I had hope that sales for gifts were going to be better but instead sales have droped 80%.I worked long hours to prepare my shop it was good beeing busy its kind of therapy even though I was very tired when time came to go to bed I can not sleep without taking a pill.Whys and ifs are always troubling my mind some times I feel angy that he did not take good care of himself and he left me with a broken forever heart.In Athens at the window of a bank a poster says ,< MERRY CRISIS AND HAPPY NEW FEAR> well I do hope ite not going to be like this.Your far away friend TENY.

Hellow my friends I did not post last week cause there has been a desaster in Athens.A young boy of 15 was killed by the police and studens protesting followed by mobs and terrorists started toset fire in the center of Athens throwing stones braking glasses of stores and buildings. even the large christmas tree at the central square was burned.300 shops are total loss.The protesting was followed in all the main cities of Greece.Anger rage all over and bulglers finished what was left by fire.Situation is out of hand and it not yet over.Hollidays? Nobody feels like celebrating short of money emty feelings lost of happiness.I dont feel like celebrating but I had hope that I would work and sell some of my christmas pots.Im loosing hope and grief is my company.I soo much miss him.THank for beeing here my far away friends TENY

hI KIM JUST TO LET YOU KNOW IM THINKING OF YOU AND SEND MY LOVE FROM FAR AWAY .TENY

Dear friend Im so sorry you had to join us but believe this gruop has been a great help and support.Your story is so like mine >MY husband Yiany has been diagnosed the 20 of oct and died the 2 of Nov.He had liver cancer.It has been 2 years now hard to believe and I know the hurt.Do you have relatieves children close friends?My family gave me supportand my far away family posting at this site gave me hope to get going.TENY

Dear friend Im so sorry you are not going to be with us but as I dont understand the word occurrence I dont understand the reason you are leaving. Hope you change your mind .Your far away friend TENY

Dear friend Im so sorry for the results of your moms tests.I wish I could be of any help.I do think of you and pray for better news next time.Love from far away.Teny

My dear friends I hope that some of my older friends here will read this post.First of all I want to send my wishes to all of you that celebrate thanksgiving.Im happy I did not have another holliday to get over but I know the meaning of this holliday.Some of you remember that last year Nov 29 my son got married and his wife was pregnand.She lost the baby and it was a great lossand sufering as it came less than a year after YIany died.My daughter in law is pregnant again and today she is going to the hospital for a series of tests to find out if the baby is healthy so the pregnasy can go on.Please pray for her .Her name is Anna. PRAY for a new comming life.I need so much a new hope in my life and want my sons happines and for him to have a family he is dreaming for.THanks for being here for me and helping through this terrible feeling called grief. TENY

Thank you my friend your words are always conforting .TENY

MARSHA Im so sory that you hurt.I want to thank you for answering my post and tell you that since you have the courage to confort others that meens that there are days you feel more yourself.It is 2 years for me and I have been through all the feelings all of friends here describe.Yesterday FRED answered my post andhe made think by telling me thatYiany would not want me to spend the rest of my life missing him.I know we all miss our loved ones and we will never stop missing the lost life.That is not the life we ordered butwhat we can do of life left.I have no answer yet.Im stugling every day with the help of all of you my far away friends.TENY

Last week one of Yianys best ffriends died.I could not go to the funeral it was at the same place were I met Yiany.A big farm house that belonged to his friend that died.I was invated with my parends and Yiany by his friend for easter hollidays I was 17 and Yiany 28.We got married 6 months later.I have gone back years ago .I have started crying all over again for my loss and life that will never return.The tragedy of death the loss that is present in every small detail in every days life the lonlines I feel the emty house my emty feelings .Im scared to face the coming hollidays.Will I ever find confordand away of feeling that life is worthed.?Some days I feel so lost that its like I dont belong to this world.Thanks for being here for me.Your far away friend .TENY

wENDY i WILL PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR mOM .i HOPE YOU HAVE GOOD NEWS.LET US KNOW.LOVE FROM FAR AWAY .TENY