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hi kim I was happy to read your post and find out that you are doing well.There are many days that I want to give up hope but as I red your words gave me courage.I miss all my far away friends and espesialy the ones that started this terrible journey with me.Keep doing well.Love from far away.Teny

Hellow my far away friends.I have been here almost 3 years.When I lost my love 10 days after he was diagnosed with lung cancer I was dead myself.I had the feeling that I was the only one with the perfect marriage the strong bond and the eternal love.The life we shared was like a fery tale living happily ever after .and then after came with no warning and left me strugle with grief ever after...I have been reading your posts and I can now realise that I was not the only one with the perfect love and marriage and IUm very sorry for all of you my friends that sufer.I do hope for healing this coming year.I know grief never ends but maybe sufering.Love from far away TENY

hellow from far away.IM sorry for your loss and fully understand the way you feel .I lost my love 3 years ago and could not visit his grave for 1 year .I had to go the2 year at his memorial day .but thank ggggggggggod my son was with me.it was hard but as othr friends say I feel now peaceful when I go.Here in Athens the cemetery is huge impresive and depressing full of marble status graves like small houses trees that dont let the sun in.the status are most of them made by very known artists and they realy belong to the museum.Wish you strength and an easier year.Teny

hellow from far away .Im here almost every day but I dont post.I feel I have nothing to say and most of all I dont want to to depress the new members .Im in the 3 year and hurt a lot.Some days are easier and some make me wonder how Im alive without him.Hollidays are more depressing and I hope and wish for every one here that next year will bring some happines.TENY

Im happy to read your post and know you are doing better.Thanksgiving is not a holliday that we celebrate in Greece but reading allthe posts I found that I do have t be thankfull for.As you say I will vever get over my loss but it is easier than last year.Thank you for your courage. YOur far away friend TENY

Welcome back I was just sending a post and saw yours >I hope the tests of you daughter are negative.I also wonder about all friends that were here when I started thisjourney .It was good to know you are well.Keep posting .We need you.Love from far away TENY

Yhank you my far away friends.Thank you Marty for the candle it brought many grateful tears.I wish I could write this post in Greek so I could expres my feelings.I feel I would not be able to go on without the support of ny far away family .There are some days that my close family did not understand my deep pain or maybe they were sufering from the same loss so they could not add my gfief.I did not want to show my pain to my children so this site and you my friends helpt me through this journey.Yesterday was 3 years that I lost life as I knewit.Im strugeling with loss of my husband and there are days it feels like it was only last night that we slept together and days that Im sufering a life time .My sons are great help and my grand kids are close.My grandson YIany< he has his grandfathers name> told me he wants to become a phycologist so that he can help people who suffer like he helpt me. he is 11 years old and very loving kid.I have spend the 3rd anniversary with my close family and the actuale day was easier than the weekend thinking for the day that was coming.My youngest son told me that there is no difference for him cause he is thinking of his father every single day.I have started to think all that I have to be grateful for and try to give meaning to my life .I miss him sooo much but I realise that our sons are his flesh and blood and they are part of him .THANK YOU for being here for me.Love from faraway.TENY

Dear farawy friends thank you so much for beeing here for me.I feel so sorry to know that so many of us after long hurting time are strugeling with the derible emotion called grief.My family is close I have loving grandchildren and my new granddaughter ,< she is 6 months > but adding all I have can not replace lost life and love.I do miss him every sigle day and night.I admire people that are strong and get over it and go on find happines in life.Thank you all and it was so good to have my older friends back again.Love Teny

Hellow my far away friends.Im sorry for posting today because some new friends here may feel disapoinded,Monday will be 3 years since I lost Yiany and 6 months from my mothers death..I know I have survived but Im not in life .I try alot but grief is my new identity.I look at old photos and then myself at the mirror and can not believe its me the same Teny lost without his love .My family is loving and close but the only love I can feel is lost love.I would like to know how are you my old friends here doing?.Iv lost some of you .Does that mean you are progresing?or you dont find any reson to post ? I need your support for monday.Love from far away Teny

Dear far away friend .I was wondering about you and thought you were doing better since I have not seen your post for a long time .IM so sorry you are back with another loss.Please know that Im thinking of you and hope you find the courage to get over this pain. love Teny

34 months and still trying to understand its forever.Some days I feel so tired of this grief road I want to give up and there are days I feel better and want to go with life.Every single day I think of him all the things I miss thenI try to think of what I have to live for and try to keep a balance.Winter is coming and have to go back to my mothers house.It has been 5 months since she is gone but the pain for Yiany is so intence that covers my mothers death.Thank you all for supporting me all this road traveling called grief.Your far away friend .TENY

Thank you for thinking of me.The word desaster can not deskribe this horible situation.My family and me are OK cayse we are at my house by the sea.My sons home is in danger surounded by flames.The wind is very strong and the strugle with fire isi nearly imposible .Please pray for us.TENY

Dear Kim I know the hurt and wish none of us had to feel the deep pain.Yes time stoped with their last breath but somehow we are still breathing and go on with memories and hope.You have kids to raise and a future for life to get better.Thinking of you .Love from far away TENY

Dear far away friends thank you for your support.I have been away for 4 days and it was good to enjoy a beautiful island.Comink back last night grief hit again.Double loss and especialy thinking about my life with Yiany was a torture.I miss him sooo much as all of you are missing their other half and life that is gone.I hope that maybe a day comes that I can handle my broken heart and find joy in life again.Love TENY

Thinking of you from far away .Love TENY

HEllow my far away friends.today is 4 months since my mother died.Thinking back to the pass almost 3 years I feel I did nit give much love and care to my mother cauce I was so depressed after my love died.MY mother was 90 but healthy and needed more atension and company that I was not able to ofer .She kept telling me that she will not be here for ever .I now read some letters she wrote that are so full of dispair asking my dead father to call her in heaven and I feel I was part of her despairation.I try hard to go on with my life and not give troubles to my children but both losses hurt.Yiany is the center of my grief and my mother hurts less .Is that normal? thank you my friends TENY

Dear far away friend Im happy to read your post and know you are well.I miss your advise and help cause you are one of the first friends I met here.TENY

Hellow my far away friends .Lately I wonder the way my mind works and how my moods keep chaging.there are days that I have hope and optimistik thoughts and my mind is supporting my feelingsand then days come without hopewithout wanting the rest of my life aloneno joy ond no meening in anything I do.I work hard to keep my body tired so I can get some sleep.I have toask how can you explain the same person the same mind and under thesame conditions can be so diferend .What bothers me most is that I can not remember my own thoughts that make me feel better and help myself the days that I feel down.Today is one of the down days .Yiany is gone for33 months and my mother 3months.THANKYOU for beeing here for me .Love from far away TENY

Dear far away friend Im so sorry you have so many troubles You have my prayers in fact Im going to church in an hour to light a candle for Yianny so Il do the same for you.Love from far away.TENY

Hellow my far away friends .it has been 32 months that I lost my one and only love.The fist year I did not want my life I broke down body and soul in pieces and I thought that I will never pick them up again.The second year I got very sick entered the hospital and it took me 6 months to recover.Im now in the midle of the 3rd year and I feel like the pieces of a puzle that you try to put together but the image does not fit a big part is missing.A big hole and the image is vever be the same again.When you loose the one you love its like loosing apart of your body only others can not see.I feel crieple in my heart but I sttart learning to live with it.I cry alot and there are times that I dont remember he is gone.I keep busy Im tired .I dont want to have any vacations cause I feel more lonely.Thank God for my new grandaughter my sons and my older grandkids .I want to thank all of you for beeing hereand the support you gave me.you must know I need you .Sorry for my speling.TENY

Mary Ann Im so sorry for your loss.I must tell you that it is so similar to mine IM almost your age lost my love 32 months ago/He was72 and was diagnost th2 of ogtober with lung cancer and died the 2 of november.I do understand how you feel its a part of us that die together.Keep coming here.you will fnd suport.your far away friend .TENY

dear FAR AWAY FRIEND.......AND SOME DAY SOME DAY i WISH WE WILL MEET YOU ARE THE HOPE IN THIS JOURNEY NO ONE HAD ORDERED.yOYU WERE ONE OF MY FIRST FAR AWAY FRIENDS.GOOD LUCK.TENY

Hellow my far away friend Im sorry you are going through the pain of grief but I can tell you it is soon to get over it yet.For me it was 32 months yesterday and I can not believe Im left alone.The secont year was the same like the first but now its starting to get better.He is on my mind all the time but tears are less.Try to keep busy that is what is helping me and the love of my family.Im thinking of you .Love TENY

Hellow my far away friends.I do visit every day and read your posts and Im very sorry for those who are new here.Most of my friends know that I lost my love my other half 30 months ago and my mother 2 months ago.I must tell you that the pain for my Yiany is here and always think of him but I feel I have not cried much for my mother.Maybe there were not tears left.I do blame myself.Summer is here and everyday is hot and bright.I have been away for a couple of days and enjoyed the sea in a beautiful island.Summer gives me hope and there are days that I do feel better.I want my new friends to know that they do have hope .Nothing will ever be the same.I stoped making plans for the future and let future come to me.I have started thanking God for what I have and especialy for my new grandaughter.She has no name yet cause the parents can not decide.I would like her to have Yianys name it is Jane for a girl but beeing the mother inlaw I can not speak my mind.Mondays and wensdays I babyseat and the rest Iv started to take care of my studio again.IM posting today feeling better cause every time I posted was full of pain and gfief.I want my life back not just survive.Thank you sooo much for being my support from far away.I do hope that I will meet some of you one day.How are you my older friends that were here 30 months ago? Love from far away TENY