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Happy birthday my dear far away friend .I hope for the next one to be a happy one Love TENY

NO PLANS ! After what hapened in my life I can not plan for future.My mother loved to make plans and I kept telling her that when people make plans God laughs at them.Yiany died a month after we have sold our home and planed to move to our summer home.Grow old in love take long walks at the seaside visit some islandsand he wanted me to stop working.Uor home was always the center of the family a place that we were all gathering.Now I have no home I can not stay alone in the summer house.Im living with my son for the time beeing and I just dont know when time will come so I can deside for myself.I miss every thing you desribe the hug the kiss the arms aroud me just to know he is there for me to talk about every days problems the confort he gave me the love we shared We were also woprking together so we were day and night so close .I can not go on tears are coming back.It is so unfair for all of us that loved so deeply uor other half.Love from far away TENY

In a few days its going to be 2 years that Iv started posting.Im grateful for all of you that kept me going for all you advise and support.Gfief is going on because of the resend death of my mother.Im thinking of all of you but I just wonder how are some of my friends that are not postng any more.I will try not to forget some names but I would like to know how are you going on?Fred Lily Lean Larrysgirl Lyn DesertBob Loris William Derek Waltc Gail Corrine Kim .....MARTY Thank you.I need you all. LOve from far away TENY

IM so sory for your loss.In a few days its going to be 30 monts that Iv started to post here.All friends have been a great help and in times I could not go on words of confort kept me going .Its ahard road to travel unfortunatly all of us here had to take.I know how you feel and I must tell you time and friends help alot.Take care of yourself in the first year I entered the hospital having to strugle with pneumonia that almost kill me cause I was very fragile.MY son came to visit and started crying telling me that he can not face loosing another parent.He gave me strength to get well.Our children need us.Love from far away.TENY

Hellow my far away friend today is the 40 memorial day for my mother .Just before going to the grave Im reading what you wrote for Jack.How did you choose an ancient Greek Philosofer and poet?Thank you for always sharing words of wisdom and and feelings that help all of us.Teny

My dear far away friends I realy need your support and advise especialyu from those of you that know me since that nightmare started.I realise that some of you have moved and getting in an easier path It has been 30 months from Yianys death and a month from my mothers.My heart is broken and I dont know for whom Im crying when it hits me it seems like life has stoped when my love left and with my mothers death Im facing myself like im fragile and ready to colapse .The baby gave me some joy but grief is stronger than life and it absorbes me.How can I get over?How can I face life again with some hope for whatever future is left?Love from far away.TENY

Hellow my friends .I thought I had no more tears and in the first 2 weeks I could not cry for my mother I was crying for Yianyall over and then the baby came and Iv spend some time with my sons family.Today Im IM back to work at my studio in the first floor my mother lived so we were together almost every day.I cant stom thinking that if my life was a book the first pages wouldbe of a happy love story a house with the keys on the door the center of the family .I had a routine of happy every day life and never in my thoughts was what Im living now .The house is gone ,in its place a big appartment building that has nothin g of my past .My love is gone my mother is gone and I fear what is left of my future .What are the rest of the pages of the book? will Ibe able to be here healthy to see my new grand daughter grow?Im in such pain and fear of my own death that sleepless nights are back together with the familiar feeling of grief.I need your support.Your far away friend TENY

Dear dusky Im so sorry Im far away but I realy appreciate every word you post.You have been a great help and friend.Love from far away.TENY

Dear Carah Im sorry for your loss and I do understand how you feel.I lost My love 30 months tomorow and its only last week that I slept in our house and bed.I never thuoght I would be able to do it .All thi time I was sleeping almost every night at another house.My brothers my son or with a friend.The second year I spend most of the time with my son after I got very ill not taking care of myself.I have strted feeling better and more strong and 2 weeks ago Ihave lost my mother so sleeples nights are here again.You have to give it time you can depoend on us here and get help from all friends of this site no one understands better than people who sufering the same loss.Im sorry to welcome you here.Your far away friend TENY

Dear Wendy lots of love from far away .TENY

MY grandaughter is born a day after Yianys birthday.She is a beautiful and healthy baby.My brother who is a doctor<Childrens surgery> was a great support and help.The labor started at 3 in the morning and she was born at 1.30 pm I dont know her name yet.Thank you soomuch for praying and thinking of me.Im crying with joy and also missing Yiany and my mom that are not here to welcome and be happy for the new life.Love from far away.TENY

Thank you Marty how can I find the candle? TENY

I just came back from the cemetary.I took flowers for Yiany and acording to the orthodox church we had to pray for my mother on the 9th day of her death.When I came home my son called to say that tonight my daughter in law is going to the meternity clinic to give birth tomorow.I need your prayers your sopport for this baby to be born healthy.Thank you for remembering YIanys birthday .Life is so strange full of surprises.I need so much the tears to end .I hope tommorow I can welcome tears of joy.Love from far away. TENY

My drear friends Im thankfull for your posts today in a few hours Im going to the cemetery to pray for my mother and bring flowers for Yiany.I dont realy believe in rituals of the church but I know my mother did so the 9th day after death you have to go to the grave.I did not want to go after Yiany died but now Im going to visit both of them at the same grave.Im in shock I dont believe what is happening in my life.IM sooo scared for my sons baby to be born healthy and well. I do need your prayers.Life is so unforseen.IM scared and depressed .I can not pray to have my life back but I pray with all my heart for the new life that is coming to the family.Please pray for me for the baby for me to find some strength and face what is left of my life.I had soo much pain loosing Yiany and it hurts every day then my daughter in law lost the baby she was expecting at 4 months of pregnacy now my mother is gone. All of my family is hoping for the baby.Please be here with me.THANK YOU.Love from far away TENY

My dear far away friends thank you for your replys and support.The funeral was yesterday .I was feeling that I will colapse but I made it to the grave.Yiany and my mother are together now and in my heart the grief is double.Iknow Im crying all over again for my lost love and life and Im afraid that the real grief for my mother is going to hit me later.Im scared for what the future is holding for me Im afraid for the birth of my grandaughter.Is everything goin to be OK?My son told me yesterday that I have to stop crying that I have done too much crying the past 2 years and he is worried for my health.How can I look forward having significant losses so close?Thank you all love from far away TENY

My dear far away family its so difficult to put in words what Im feeling.I did not answer to your many wishes and especialy to those of you who post in Greek!Saturday was my birthday Sunday night my mother fel down and broke her hip she was going to have surgery but in the evening she had a heart stroke.She is gone.I just dont know for whom im crying all over for YaIny my mother myself? the funeral is thursday the same church the same grave.I was scared for this month and this week everything in my life happens in april and november.My so scared for the coming birth of my grand daughter.Is every thing going to be ok?Will tears go away how can I can go on .Hurts sooo much.TENY

Hellow my far away friends today is my birthday and I miss sooo much the first kiss in the morning with his arms full of roses.My grand son who is named after Yiany wanted to blow the candles for me so I had morning wishes from my litle Yiany.Hope you are all doing better and Im sorry for the new members.LOve from far away .TENY

Dear Kim I understand how you feel I understand your anger .I wish there was a way for people that dont want their life to be able to give it to smeone who is fightign to live.When I lost Yiany I wanted to end my life but I also knew that I would give pain to my family and that is realy a selfish act.I also understand you dont want to go to the same church. I would not be able to go either.Send some flowers and dont go.You have your grief very fresh and you dont need to add another pain.Love from far away .TENY

Derek Im thinking of you today and your son. It is 29 months for me and you were one of the first of my far away friends that have been here for me .You had always a very good advise and so understanding.An ancient philosopher <Aristotelis> told < never talk about a very deep pain to people that have never been bitten by a snake they will nvever understand your pain>.We have all feel the same pain so we can be supportive for eachother.You cgave me hope and wish for you to find joy again.Love from far away TENY.

Thank you my friends for you replys .Kay I have tried to use the transelation but I give aGreek word and what I get is the same word in english letters.not an english word.KathyIm so sorry we met under this conditions.Myabe some day you will come and visit your Greek family and dont forget to let me know.April is a very dificult month for me .many anniversaries plus Easter .Im also expecting the birth of my grandaughter.Need your support.TENY

29 months today and I feel it was yesterday that I had to say goodby to my life the way it was.There are days that Itry to start my day trying to give a meaning and there are days that I think whats the use going on as Walter said to what?I miss him sooo much I miss his love and the love I gave him.Yesterday I went to hear a lecture tha Irvin Yalom gave in Athens .He analised his last book about death and the fear of death that everyone faces.He did not talk about those that are left behind the only advise he gave was try to connect to the living but how? I try hard to do so looking at my children and grandkids and the one who is to be born.All the love I take and give can not cover my emty heart.I went to church this morning to pray the priest told me that I can not find courage from anyone but myself .I have a family .I miss my life I miss my love the way were.Thank you my far away friends I have so much more to say Im always concernd with the dificulty I have with the language.Does any of you read Greek?TENY

Dear Kim my far away love to you for this difficult day.Teny

hellow Marty how can I participate to the online programe from Greece?TENY

My dear far away friend I will pray for you .April is a dificult month for me also.I know how hard it is.hope you feel better.Love TENY

Wendy every word you say could deskribe my feelings also. IM sorry for every new friend here but it has been 28 months for me and only one night I slept without the help of pills.Some days are getting easier but others are desperate.Im reading a book title < thats not the life I orderd> I know that any of us could even imagine some years ago what is like to loose your one and only love.Im trying to make sence God gave life God took it back but I wish HE could answer my prayers.Lovew from far away TENY