Corinne

Hi William, I am glad to see your post, I was starting to worry about you again. I am sorry you are going through a hard time right now. It is just another part of this horrible roller coaster that we are on. Do not worry about finding love again you are young and a good person with a big heart, it will happen when the time is right. For now concentrate on you and keeping yourself well (by taking your meds)and things will work out. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Scotty, Kate was an extremely talented woman, her pottery is beautiful! Thank you for sharing the picture with us. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I went onto MSN and typed Where God Wants Me in the search and down at the bottom of the first search page it has a website called Slideshare that it sends you to and you can see it there but I have not yet figured out how attach those links on this site. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Dawn, I am so sorry for your loss. Welcome to this site of caring and compassionate people. As to my response to "How are you?" in the beginning my response was normally "I'm here." People usally did not know how to reply to that so they kind of left it alone. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Lyn, That is one of the hardest movies to watch. It has been 11yrs. since Jimmy is gone and I still cannot watch the entire movie the pain is too intense. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Here is a big hug ((( HUG ))). Hugs & prayer, Corinne

Hey Wendy, I am so sorry to hear that you are having a hard time with the nurses. When Jimmy had his heart attack and his surgeries I found that it was the Drs. that were really rude. Unfortunately as my mom says the squeaky wheel gets the oil so someone needs to have a talk with them. You want me to come down and rough them up a bit. I kind of liked Bob's idea with the IV line. There were a few Drs. I would have liked to used that on. Hug & prayers, Corinne William, Did you take your meds today? Wendy does not need to be worrying about you right now! Hugs& prayers, Corinne

Kay, I am so glad to hear that it was not a heart attack I was worried about you. I cannot offer any advice on stress since I cannot control my own at this time. Here's a big hug (((HUG))) Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Scotty, Welcome to the site. I am so sorry for your loss. Please keep coming back and posting, it really does help. Derek, It is so funny that you asked that, I was thinking the same thing. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kayc, I am sorry to hear that you had a rough weekend and that you think you had a heart attack last night. You really should have gone to the hospital last night you need to be very careful with heart attacks and they need to be treated as soon as possible. Please, please make sure you get there in the morning. I will keep you in my prayers. Please let us know how you make out tomorrow. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Hi William, I for some reason am still reliving John's being missing and death. I think it may be that last week we had about 2 or 3 inches of snow and it has gotten colder here than it has been all winter. It is not just me but my 8 yr.old Kerri is missing her Dad also. She did come to me the other night and told me and she is very angry lately (which is not normal for her) she is answering me by screaming. It just breaks my heart when my girls are hurting. I just have to sit with her and hold her and talk very calm to her until she relaxes. Your feeling down lately could be because you were not taking your meds and the antidepressants got out of your system. Please stay on your meds you are a good friend and I do not want anything to happen to you. Thank you for the update on Wendy's mom. I am keeping them in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Sheri, My daughters are 7 & 8. When we lost John they were 6 & 7. My younger daughter Kayla I don't think really understood the concept of death but I had to deal with a lot of anger issues with her since she did spend all of her time with her Daddy when he was home. My older daughter Kerri did understand and she cries and she will talk to me about missing her Daddy and then she is OK. I knew my daughters well enough that I knew they would not talk to anyone about their Daddy so I have been seeing a therapist and relaying what they are going through. When John died we made a big move because his family was being really cruel to me so we all went through a lot of change really in a short period of time. The move was a good thing for us since they are now in a really good school and there are many more opportunities in this area for all of us. It did take some adjustment changing schools but they are doing much better. They do have therapists for children and some churches have support groups for children but that does not seem to be the way for us. How long were you and Andy together? Are your children talking about him at all? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kathy, Suzanne is right, you do not want to hire a contractor since you are not doing major remodeling. The best way to go is definitely hiring a handyman. John worked for new home construction and he did repairs and remodeling for people on the side, he did wonderful work and charged the people about 1/3 of what a contractor would. I know you probably think the flooring and new countertop are major but to a handyman they are really not that bad. Suzanne had a really good suggestion about asking your local small hardware store if they know of anyone. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Sheri, Eleven years ago I lost my precious husband Jimmy he was my soulmate. He had colon cancer and commited suicide on Christmas morning. Then last February my fiance, the father of my two daughters went out drinking all day and decided to walk home through the woods in 17 degree temperatures without a coat. He did not make it and they found him in April. It has been very hard and there have been many ups and downs but it is very comforting coming here and letting my feeling out. As I said before you can only take one moment at a time. Hugs & prayers, Corinne Sheri, I forgot to mention if you want to create your own topic you just need to go into the forum you want to post in and in the upper right corner it says add new topic. Just click on there and you can create your own post.

Sheri, I would like to say that I am truly sorry for your loss. The only way we all make it is by taking one moment at a time. I am very glad you have found this site it is full of warm and caring people. Please come back and post. You can post anything you are feeling or would like to say and not be judged for it. It really does help. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Suzanne, I just needed to get a new vehicle. I had a '92 Explorer that was really starting to have problems. I actually leased a vehicle for the first time for the same reasons as Wendy. Being a woman it is a real pain going to a garage for repairs, you always have to be on guard so they don't rip you off. I leased a Toyota RAV4 and I love it. It was also cheaper for me to lease than to buy. I know what you mean about the expense on repairs on a Lincoln. When Jimmy was alive we always had a Lincoln and the replacement parts are really costly. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kim, I know this is a hard time for you right now and I am so sorry you are going through this. Please know that you are in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hey William, Just checking in on you. Are you taking your meds? I had a really bad night last night. I don't know why but my mind kept going over & over how Jimmy and John had died and it would not stop. I guess that is to be expected from time to time since they both died so horribly, but it really caught me off guard. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Gail, My thoughts & prayers are with you today! May your good days increase. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I am glad you are going back on your meds. You know how much better you are when you take them. I have actually been very good at taking mine and they really are helping. I can now hold a thought withoug feeling I am in a fog. Did you take your meds today? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Lily, I am truly sorry for your loss. I like you felt guilty about burdening my family and friends with my loss, then I found this site and it is full of such wonderful caring people that they have become like family. On this site you can say anything without feeling you are being judged and without someone thinking you should be over it by now. Please post all you want and say what you need to it is amazing how it helps. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Teny, I know how you feel. All my life I never found me. I was always dependent upon who I was with. I also did not have friends that I spent time with or a social life outside of my relationships with Jimmy and John. I am now working on finding out who I am. I am now on medication because I felt like I was walking around in a fog and could not concentrate on anything or make any decisions. As Bob has asked how long have you been on the medication and is your therapist monitoring whether it is working? It takes a little time to get into your system. Also, it does not take all the pain away but it does seem to take my fog away and let me think. I have even started taking an online computer course. I do not plan on being on the medication forever, just until I get a hold on this new life that has been given to me(that I did not want or ask for). Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Drew, I am so so sorry for your loss. As I sit here reading your story the tears are just running down my face. You are such an unbelievably precious person. Your Mom must have been one awesome woman to have raised such wonderful, caring, good-hearted son. I will keep you in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

John, Thank you! You have a way of giving my feelings beautiful words. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Gamer, First, I would like to say that I am truly sorry for your loss. As for your friend's mom, why don't you tell her what you just posted here? I have been through 2 horrible losses and I believe that it hurts more for people to ignore our losses than it would if someone didn't say something exactly right. I think that she would probably really enjoy talking with you about your friend, it may help both of you. From what you have been posting I don't think that you could say the wrong thing to her. Reach out to her I really think it would help both of you. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, You really need to stay on your meds. It is not good for you to stop and start with them, they cannot work properly and it can be dangerous. Please remember to take them. We want you to be a healthy part of the family. Also, you don't want to make me & Wendy angry! Hugs & prayers, Corinne