Corinne

Kayc, That is the song that always reminds me of my Jimmy. I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance. I would not have missed that dance for anything in the world! I love the song but cannot listen to it without crying my eyes out. After almost 11 yrs. it still makes me cry. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Oh Amber that is so sad. I will definitely keep Cheryl in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, They made be made by Betty Crocker. They come in a pouch and you find them by the cake mixes. I tried these because believe it or not I can never get the slice and bake ones to come out right. Thanks for the hug it does help. I just started going to the therapist recently because I need to get a grip for my girls. Also, I need to figure out how to help my little one deal with her anger since I don't do to well dealing with my own. We both have a tendency to keep everything inside until we explode. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I had made ones with little m&m's in them (you know they are the ones that William ate) and oatmeal choc. chip. I am getting lazy these days and bought the ones in the pouch that all you do is add butter and an egg. They are really pretty good and do not take much time to make. I am still feeling pretty lousy tonight but you know how that goes. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. I go to my therapist tomorrow. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Thanks William it really does help to know that we have friends here to lean on when we are on the down side of this roller coaster ride. Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. Does anyone know where the control is for this darn ride? I want off!!!!

Wendy, I had to let William eat the cookies he could not find the combo for his safe to pay the bribe. Did you take your meds? William, Did you take your meds? I have been having really down days lately, all I want to do is sleep. It did not help that I had to buy a Christmas tree yesterday since I had to get rid of my old one when we moved. I didn't think I would feel so down about the holidays since I have been through this before but I guess it is because it is the first Christmas without John. I really wish I too could skip straight through to Jan. 2, but I have to get my two girls through this. I don't know where I am going to find the strength. I spent the day finally doing some cleaning and crying the whole time. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

No William you don't have to bribe me, all you need to do is take your meds. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

OK William since you took your meds you can have cookies too. Derek, the coconut shrimp and jalapeno poppers also sound great. I hope the jeans work out for you. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Thanks Karen I try. I have been really stressed and down lately so it does help to come here and laugh a little. Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. William thanks for the hug I really needed it! Here is one back at you (((HUG)))

OK Wendy you can have cookies. William, Did you take your meds? Karen, If you and Wendy are going for surf and turf I want in. PLEEEEEEASE. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, So glad to see you and yes it is fair. I care about the two of you and you are not getting any cookies without taking your medicine! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, That's right! You and William need to be good and take your meds then you can have cookies. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Shelley, I am so sorry for your loss! I will keep you and the children in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Lori, I too will keep Kevin Francis Kelly in my prayers for complete healing. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Wendy, I definitely know how you feel. I too cannot motivate myself to do everything that needs to be done. It was a rough week for me and I too have been feeling down and overwhelmed. I had the dog break his tooth, my daughter get glasses, I need to get to a GYN because I am having some issues and they can't see me until next Mon. because I am a new patient, I need to find a vehicle now because there is no heat,no defrosters the exhaust system is going and I still have not found a job. I just wish I had someone to help. I keep telling myself "one thing at a time", but sometimes I don't know what to do first I just feel like I'm in a fog and just keep turning around and can't find my way out. I don't know if it is the time of year, the change in weather, who knows. Last night the girls started to watch "The Santa Clause" and I just started to cry, my heart is breaking, they will not have their Dad this year for Christmas. Oh well, thanks for letting me vent. Now I will go take a shower and try to motivate myself. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Bob, I like your thinking on approaching your friend on the "extra" ticket. I would ask him about it and let him deal with it. As you said why should you have to figure it out, you have enough to deal with at this point. If the ticket was meant for you to bring a "date", I would explain to him that you are not ready to date at this point and if he is not comfortable with you going alone then that is his and his wife's loss. I usually avoid the fifth wheel situations only because I feel uncomfortable. My sister's neighborhood has card night once a month, but it is all married couples so I do not go even though they invite me and would not treat me like a fifth wheel. I do however go to the all girl get togethers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hey Shelley, Don't worry about it. I am sure we have all done that at one time or other in our lives, some of us more than others . While grieving we all have our ups, downs, happy, sads, angries it is all just a part of our grief journey. Keep posting. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi everyone, Sorry I wasn't around yesterday. I had to take my dog to the vet in the morning, he had to have a root canal to fix his broken tooth and take care of my neighbors dog for the weekend. My older daughter had a sleeper over last night so I only had the little one and she was having separation anxiety with her sister being gone. I also got a call from a friend who said John's sister call her and was saying some things about me again. Derek, I have a problem with my little one and clothes. She has drawers full of clothes and she just won't wear them. She finds two or three things and that is all she will wear. Needless to say my washer is constantly going trying to keep the few things she will wear clean. I'll find Carson pants if you will get my Kayla to wear something different. Glad to hear you made some progress with the garage. Teny, You made me laugh also, thank you my friend. Wendy & William, I just made two batches of cookies. Did you two take your meds? Karen, I went to Hawaii once and well you know how my luck goes, they were in the middle of the longest drought in ten years. All the normal waterfalls and tourist sights were dried up. It was still beautiful though, I would love to go back again some day. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Christian, Please remember you are a very good and kind hearted person. You have been through a very hard time but it will get better. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Christian, I just wanted to take a moment and wish you a Happy Birthday! I am sorry your Mom is not there physically to give you a big hug and tell you how proud she is of you, but remember she is in your heart and I am sure that she is watching over you! I am sending you a long distance birthday hug and praying for you! Are you doing OK? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Teny, My thoughts and prayers are with you today. I know it is hard but try like Karen said to replace the sad thoughts with happy ones and know that Tiany is with you and so are we. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Shelley, I too will keep this family in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, Yesterday I was job hunting (yuck!), then last night my 8 year old had to go to the eye dr., she gets her first pair of glasses on Fri. After the eye dr. we went over to my neighbors house because I have to watch her dog this weekend. My 8 yr old who loves animals and thinks they all love her, got too clingy with the dog in a room filled with people and stepped on the dogs paw and got nipped in the arm and face. Thank God she just got a little scratch by her nose and her cheek and arm are a little red this morning. It could have been a lot worse because the dog is a doberman. I can't be mad at the neighbor or her dog because I know my daughter and she made the dog feel cornered and then stepped on her paw and that's the story. So, by the time I got home all I could do was go to bed. Then this morning my neighbors 2 kids came over before school because she had to go to an all day conference in Phila. and my dog broke part of his bottom fang off and it was bleeding so I need to get him a vet appt. to have the other half removed and now that all the kids got on the bus for school the only thing I feel like doing is going back to bed! Oh well, I need to get showered and get something done today. I hope you have a good day. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I am so sorry I was not online and there for you last night. I had a crazy day and night, I won't go into it, and by the time I got home I was so exhausted I had to go right to bed. I hope you are doing Ok and that today is a better day for you. I don't know why but the eight month does seem to be really hard, but I do know that we will get through it. I hope you were able to cuddle up with all your little ones and get some comfort. Once again I am sorry I did not remember it was your 8 month anniv. yesterday and check in on you. Please forgive me. Erica, I am sorry that today is your 8 month anniv. I know that it is very hard, like I told Wendy and Derek has said, for some reason the 8 month anniv. is hard. Please know that you will be Ok and get through it. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, I know what you mean about being a caretaker I have that in me as well, but it is all I can do right now to keep up with taking care of myself and the girls, "It is what it is." Well, it is 9:30 here and I have two little girls that won't go upstairs without me so I must go take care of them. Have a good evening! Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. William did you take your meds today? William you also need to take care of yourself. I am a firm believer in if it is meant to be it will happen when the time is right so you worry about taking care of you and when the time is right it will happen. Good night my friend.