Corinne

Lori, Thank you so much for sharing that story. I believe that our loved ones are still with us and they do show us in little ways. Your story reminded me of something that happened on Thanksgiving I forgot to share. I was mixing a meatloaf (my older daughter is a picky eater and asked me to make her meatloaf so wanting to make the day special for her I made her a meatloaf), while I was mixing the ingredients I was looking down and I saw my Nana's hands, they were really my hands but I was mixing the meat exactly the way she used to, it gave me such a warm feeling and I new she was with me on a very hard day for me. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Teny, Congratulations on becoming a mother-in-law!! I am so happy that you had a good day yesterday. It is normal for the emotions to come out the next day. You do need to be well for your children as your son said. I know that it is hard but remember that they do need you no matter how old they get. That is what keeps me going I think of my girls and that is what gets me through. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, How are you doing? I sense a bit of sadness in your posts. Is it the holidays and missing Jack? It is amazing it does not matter how long our loves are gone this time of year always brings some sadness with it. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Everyone! I have to laugh for a moment. This site is just like a big caring family. When one of us feels hurt by something that is being discussed everyone comes together to reaffirm our love for each other. This is what family is all about. You are all the best! Hugs & prayers, Corinne Wendy I'm sure you went and took your meds when Suzanne reminded you but William did you take your meds today?

Marty, I just needed to thank you once again. The girls loved picking a stocking and lighting a candle for their Daddy. They also did one for their Great Nana who passed away on August 30, 2006 at the age of 98. Hugs & prayers, :wub: Corinne

Oh Teny my friend tomorrow will be bittersweet for you. I will hold you in my thoughts and prayers and will be right beside you in spirit as will Yiany giving you a big hug. You must concentrate on your son's and daughter-in-law to be joy at starting their new life together and know that we will be right there with you just as we were when you went to Yiany's grave for the first time. I will pray for you to have great strength and joy for your son. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, Don't take offense to what anyone was saying here. I think that the main thing that everyone was saying was to be careful because there are those out there that will say anything that they think you want to hear. I have been quiet about the conversation and just reading the posts so as not to offend anyone, but I feel the need to let everyone know of my experience. When John was missing they called in a "psychic medium/remote viewer". This woman is the cause of most of my pain and hurt from John's family. At the time when John was missing I was a mess and confused, not knowing which way was up. His family was mostly in contact with her and one of John's friends who was looking for him every day. One day John's friend told me he had not heard from her in a while and thought that his family was bothering her with calls and such. I thought it could be possible because they were doing that to the police chief. I sent her an email apologizing if they were bothering her because there is a lot of alcohol abuse and prescription drug abuse in his family. I asked her to please call me or email me if she got anything else as to his whereabouts. She proceeded to immediately forward my email to John's aunt, which started all the problems. John's aunt accused me of trying to get this woman to stop looking for John, not my intent at all. I did not find any of this out until John was found and his aunt sent me a horrible email. After I received the email from her I realized why they left me out of everything and never mentioned "John's fiance" when dealing with the media and newspapers. Although John and I were never married I had actually thought of his family as family(devastated once again by my trust in people). I am not putting down or judging anyone for what choices they make in trying to get through their grief, everyone needs to do this in their own way, I am just offering my experience up to let you know to be very very careful with who you deal with. By the way she actually was doing this for no charge and she was in one of the episodes of "Psychic Detectives." Please do not take offense to this I just felt in my heart I needed to share my experience with you as I love all of you and care about you! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Marty, Thank you so much for the link! You are a God send. My daughters wanted to hang their Daddy's stocking and I had to explain to them that Santa would not be able to put anything in it here because Daddy is in Heaven. I can't wait for them to come home from school so that they can now hang a stocking for their Daddy. God Bless You! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, It was extremely hard to do. If it was not for the girls I don't know if I could have done it. The girls are still so young and I have to keep the spirit of Christmas alive for them. I am happy to hear you made it through Thanksgiving OK. Today was another hard day. I took the girls over to my brother's house to put John's cross in his woods(I had made a cross for John when he died so the girls had a place to go talk to him and we brought it with us when we moved but had nowhere here to put it). My little one really missed the woods so I had to get her out there. In doing this I found out that my older daughter had become scared to go into the woods(John had died walking home through the woods), after a lot of talking I was able to take her by the hand and get her to walk around my brother's pond. We saw deer tracks and scrapes and big Blue Heron and I think it really helped her. Now with John's cross there I should be able to get her back out there and show her the woods is a safe place to go. I feel so bad that I did not realize she had this fear sooner , but thank God I now know and should be able to help her get over her fear. William, I am so glad you are taking your meds and feeling a bit better. Yes, we did make it through one holiday and we will make it through the rest together. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Nathan's Sister, I am sorry that it is 6 months today that you lost your brother. It is actually 7 months today that they found John. It is very hard but we can get through this. They will always be with us in our hearts and memories. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I am glad you made it through Thanksgiving. I did good until I had to let the girls put up the Christmas tree, it was sssooooo hard but they are still young and I have to some how muster up the strength to make it a fun Christmas for them no matter how much I just want to hide from the holiday. Are you taking your meds? It has been a while since we heard from Derek, I am hoping it means he and Carson are doing well. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William, Are you taking your meds? Are you feeling better now? I usually end up feeling lousy on the holidays also. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, I am glad you had a good Thanksgiving and that your son was able to come and stay with you. As always I must say you are an awesome mother. Being a mother myself I know how much it hurts when our children hurt, but take comfort in the fact that you are doing an awesome job and he is making it on his own. I will keep you and your son in my prayers. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I forgot to ask. Are you feeling any better today? You said your Chrones was acting up yesterday. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Thanks William! You know it is so strange I was with my two girls all day and my sister and her family stopped by for about 1 hr. but I still felt so alone. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi William, How are you doing today? I did really good, the girls and I had chicken and meatloaf, they will not eat turkey. The problem is I promised them they could put up the Christmas tree this afternoon. I am trying to make it a good day for them. I was fine until they pulled out ornaments they had bought for their Daddy and I just lost it. It is soooo hard to keep my spirits up for them. Please pray for God to give me the strength I need to make this holiday season a good one for them. Hus & prayers, Corinne P.S. Did you take your meds today?

Hi! On this very difficult day I just wanted to list a few things I am thankful for: I am thankful for having the chance to have loved so totally and completely as I did with my beloved Jimmy. I am thankful that John gave me two beautiful and precious girls to love. I am thankful for my brother that moved me into a beautiful home in a new area that offers a better life for myself and my daughters. I am thankful that I will be getting a new and safe vehicle next week. I am thankful for being given the opportunity to find the true me, even though it is a very hard and scarey process. I am thankful for having found a wonderful and supportive extended family here. I love you all! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Deborah, I wish the same for you and all of my family here! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I will keep you in my prayers. Feel better! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kayc, I am so sorry for what you are going through, but you are handling it right. I know what you mean about jumping into things too quickly. When Jimmy died I drank and jumped into the relationship with John before I finished grieving and finding myself, which is why I have now lost him and have to help my girls deal with losing their Dad. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I wish you a Happy Thanksgiving. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Teny, Your English is fine and I understand everything you are saying. I too do not know who I really am, but I am determined to find me. I would also like to vanish through the holiday season but my girls are still young 7 & 8 and I have to try with every part of my being to put on a happy face and make the holidays enjoyable for them since it is the first year without their Daddy. We will somehow get through this together. I will pray for some peace for all of us during this holiday season. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Karen, Thank you so much for all your help. I have kind of been hiding within myself lately. I do come on and check the posts but feel I cannot add much at this time. I did have to come on and wish you and everyone else here a Happy Thanksgiving! and thank you all for your help. Hugs and prayers, Corinne

Hi Karen, I am so sorry for the loss of your mother-in-law. God bless her she made it to 102. It is a difficult loss but a little more understandable at that age. I lost my precious Nana on August 30, 2006 at the age of 98. She was my mentor and one of the funniest people I have ever known. She taught me how to "say it like it is". I truly miss her but I am glad she is finally getting some rest. Once again, you are one precious lady to have stayed in contact with her and not tell her about her son. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Thank you everyone! Her first name is Michele. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Everyone1 If you believe and trust in God could you please say some prayers for my youngest daughters teacher. We new in the beginning of the school year she was diagnosed with breast cancer. I got a note home from school today that she will probably be out most of this year. They are going to treat it aggressively. She has a daughter in third grade. She is so sweet and so full of life. Please pray for her healing. My little one asked me to say a special prayer for her teacher tonight while we were saying our prayers so if you could just join in with us it would be greatly appreciated. Thank You! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi everyone, I am sorry I was not on earlier but my little one needed me. I think we are all in the same boat right now. None of us know who we really are and maybe deep down we are afraid to find out. I think maybe if we believe in ourselves the way our loves believed in us and keep reminding ourselves of the way they encouraged us and helped us be strong we will be ok. That is my hope anyway. Lyn I know what you mean about the sleeping. I think I could sleep 20 hrs. a day still be tired. We can all get through this together. Here is a big hug for everyone (((HUG))). Hugs & prayers, Corinne