Corinne

William, Was yesterday your birthday? I am so sorry I did not remember! I am terrible at remembering birthdays. Some people forget their meds, some forget birthdays. Happy Birthday!! (((HUGS))) I hope you had a good day. Wendy, I am so sorry you are going through this right now with your daughter. This time of year is hard enough without having to deal with that also. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom. Suzanne, Yes, I did remember my meds. I am doing very well remembering them because I am hoping that once they are in my system they do bring some relief. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Kathy, First I want to say I am extemely sorry for your loss and also welcome you to the site. I would also like to thank you for sharing your story and shining your light here. Hugs & prayers, Corinne William and Wendy, Have you taken your meds? Gail, The picture of you and Bruce is beautiful!

Wendy, How did last night go? I have problems with my youngest also. She gets so angry. I took both of the girls to my therapist to do a collage and she thinks from Kayla's actions that she is competing with her sister and that is when she gets angry. Good old sibling rivalry! I was happy to hear that is why she is so angry, not because of her Dad, but I still have to deal with it. It was really bothering me about Kayla's anger because she is so sensative and has a huge heart so the anger really had me worried. The therapist suggested putting them in different activities so that each of them can excel at something different, which of course means more running around in different directions, but I will survive it if it helps. Maybe your daughter does need to see a doctor to see why she is having these mood swings. Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. Did you take your meds? William did you take your meds?

Teny, How long have you been taking the pills? It takes usually 3 weeks to get into your system. If you have been on them that long with no change then you should really talk to your doctor about getting on something else. I have just started taking medication and it is not in my system yet but I am hoping that it helps. You also have to remember that the holidays seem to be the hardest when we are grieving. I have also found myself extremely sad and tired lately. We can all get through this together! I will keep you in my prayers my far away friend. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, Once again "the joys of parenting". They make us crazy but we have to love them! I now have to carry my little one up and put her in bed because she fell asleep on the couch. My older one likes to sleep downstairs with Bo on the weekends. It is so funny she takes over his bed and he has to sleep on the floor. Right now they are both sleeping on the floor next to me she is using him for a pillow. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, I am sorry your daughter pulled that on night of the anniversary of losing Steve. Maybe she too was feeling the loss of her Dad. I know what you mean about animals. I, like Karen, have a black lab named Bo, he always comes to comfort me when I cry. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hey Wendy, You do get a gold star for remembering your meds. I actually have been doing really well remembering mine. I just wish they would kick in because I can't stand feeling the way I do anymore. I just feel like I am stuck in a rut and not going anywhere. I cannot concentrate on anything for very long and I feel like I am in a daze. It is so hard trying to make this Christmas special for my girls, I just want to go and lock myself in a room and not come out until the holidays are done. Hugs & prayers, Corinne P.S. Karen that stew does sound good, I have not had good stew in a long time.

William, I too hold the anger in until I explode. I was wrapping presents for the girls and got so mad at John. We used to wrap the girls presents together every Christmas eve and then put them under the tree to surprise the girls. It is not fair that I am left here to to do this all alone. They need their Daddy. I am so sorry that you are missing Myrna so much. It is hard with the holidays here and with you moving. I know that when I had to move I had to get rid of a lot of Jimmy's and John's things and it was very, very hard. I also know what you mean when you say you will miss the memories but it is so depressing. I lived in the same place for 20 yrs. with both Jimmy and John. There were so many memories there, but it was very depressing to be there. I decided when I left to try and leave the bad memories behind and only bring the good ones. I have forgiven them both for what I went through and now I just miss them both. I still feel like I am walking around in a fog. The only thing I do know right now is that we can all get through this together. Please remember to take your meds during this time. You too Wendy. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Annie, That is a beautiful story and only serves to remind us that our loved ones are still with us. Now your son will remember the loving and caring way you handled a very upsetting moment in his life. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William my friend after just 4 months of losing John I too had to move on due to the low quality of life and having to deal with John's family. You will be fine, it will be a new start for you. I am so happy that Myrna gave you that nudge. When you move you need to remember to bring along all the good memories and leave the bad ones behind. I also think that it is a wonderful idea to make a special place for her there because she will be with you always. I will pray for you to have peace during your move and that you know that you are making the right move. Hugs & prayers, Corinne Did you take your meds? Wendy did you remember to take yours?

Gail, The last time Erica posted here was on Nov. 23. Have you heard from her since then? I too am worried about her. Erica if you are out there please let us know that you are OK. I will be praying for her. Hugs & prayers, Corinne Wendy & William did you take your meds?

Well it has been fun but I need to get my girls to go to sleep. Thanks for being here and making me laugh I really needed it. OMG Wendy, Allen and Midge too! Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Oh Suzanne, I am laughing so hard. I do remember Ken very well. Poor Ken. Sleep well. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William!!!! If you are an old man just exactly what does that make us??????????? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, I know exactly what you mean. I should be happy, my brother got me a beautiful townhouse to live in and paid the lease for 1 year. I just leased a new RAV 4 since my '93 Explorer was about done. I have two beautiful girls. Yet I still feel so sad. That is why I have started on the meds, I just don't seem to be able to get over that hump. I know that eventually I will be better but sometimes I just get so frustrated with myself. I am so thankful that I have everyone here to talk to because I don't know if I could have done this alone. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

I just sent you a more cropped version. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, If you want to email the picture to me, I can see if I can bring it in closer and then send it back to you. No promises, but I can try. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, my friend, as always Karen is right we are here for you. It appears that guilt comes along with grief, but we need to be strong and fight it off or it will destroy us. We did our best and dwelling on the would have, could have, should have's is not going to do us any good, besides that our loves would not have wanted us to do that. They knew us with all our faults and imperfections and chose to love us anyway so let us not disrespect that love. You are a good person with a big heart and don't forget that! I will pray for you for peace. Hugs & prayers, Corinne By the way did you take your meds today? How about you Wendy?

Uh-Oh!!! William I think you are in trooouuubbblle with Wendy. Wendy the weather was definitely not as bad as I thought it might be. It was hard though because it was the first time I was in snow since John is gone and it did bring back a lot of difficult memories. By the way, did you take your meds? Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, You have to remember your meds so that you are OK! You and Wendy have to remind each other when I have to go visit my Mom. You need to fill up your pill box again and get back on track. It was hard to go up to my Mom's this time with the snow falling it brought back a lot of memories and I was not expecting it, but I did get through it. As for being happy soon I cannot imagine that, it has really been so long, but it would be nice. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Hi Everyone, I'm back Wendy & William did you take your meds? I actually remembered to take mine. William the Dr. told me approx. 2 weeks until the meds are in my system. He has me taking 1 pill(150mg) a day for 2 weeks and then he said to increase it to 2 pills a day, we will see what happens. Wendy, I did go up to my Mom's yesterday morning and then we stayed over. There was approx. 2in. there and it was still snowing when we left this morning. I am glad I left early the roads were not bad and I got home by noon. It is pretty icy here now so I am glad the girls and I are home safely. I have to try and remember to call for my test results tomorrow, since they did not call me. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, Yes I will be fine it is just the grieving is making me so tired and I have no ambition to do anything. I am also waiting for some results from my gyn for tests she did. She thinks I am fine but did them as a precaution. I am supposed to drive up to my Mom's tomorrow for the girls to go to the dentist. We are probably going to stay over but I am looking at the weather and it looks like Sunday could be an iffy driving day. It looks like between my house and my Mom's it may be all ice. So, I will have to keep an eye on the weather as to when we come back. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Wendy, Yes I did take mine. Today was the first day. I am hoping I get a little bit of me back and some energy. I don't want my children to remember as the sad, tired, grouchy Mom. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

William, Once again you have made me laugh! Now that I have seen your picture I can picture you punching poor Santa. Have you taken your meds today? Wendy have you taken your meds today? Now I need your help because I have been put on the generic form of welbutrin and now I need to remember to take them I guess this is what I get for busting the two of you to remember your meds. Hugs & prayers, Corinne

Bob, I too will keep you in my thoughts and prayers the next few days. Your Linda I'm sure is proud of how strong you are. Linda will be with you at brunch, not in body but in spirit. Hugs & prayers, Corinne