MZM Posted October 14, 2010 Report Share Posted October 14, 2010 Im having a day where i cant stop sobbing! I keep asking how is he just not here How is it that for so many years we were together almost everyday and now im supposed to live without him. What is the point! What was the point of him being born and being such a gorgeous beautiful person and then being take away at 26! What was the purpose of that!?! How do I live! Whats the point of living knowing I will never have another memory with him…and that all the memories im left alone with… all the photos, all the texts and emails… I cant do this!and its not fair that that oneday I will start to forget certain things!I wish my memory would be like it is now, even 50 years from now... Then, I had a fight with my best friend. She doesnt deal with emotions well and infact, since the accident just over 2 months ago, she has only called to talk about cancelling plans or whether she could make it (and this was when friends would get together and never just she and i alone) Not once has she called just to ask "are you ok" or text to say "im thinking of you" When i asked her about this, this is exactly what she replied: "It isnt as though I went on ‘holiday’ and didn’t call you. And because I didn’t, it doesn’t mean that I don’t care. I assumed we’re on a level where I don’t have to ask you if you’re having a bad day or not because you will tell me if you are.And just how you expect me to be a friend to you during your toughest times, I expect you to understand that during your tough times, I will have my own issues too. They’re not as big as yours but that doesn’t mean they don’t exist. You are right about everything else - I am not that person that phones someone many times a week. I like to deal with things on my own so I think everyone else is the same. What you expect from me (phonecalls, staying over), I can’t give you and I’m thinking that we’re just wasting time because I will never live up to your expectations. " Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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