HAP Posted August 29, 2013 Report Share Posted August 29, 2013 Dear friends, Jane and I would be celebrating our 24th anniversary Monday. The last one we celebrated together was three years ago. This year we would have found a mountaintop on which to renew our vows--as we did on our twelfth. Instead, I will stand on a mountaintop alone, remembering what was, imagining what might have been, and thinking about what yet may come to be. I don't expect to be fully healed when I come down off that mountain--regrowing a damaged heart takes a long time--and rebuilding a wounded soul takes even longer--but I will keep moving forward. That's what Jane wanted me to do if the worst happened--keep moving forward. That's what I keep trying to do...step by step. It has not been easy, but you have all made it easier than it might have been. Thank you for that. I am going to vanish for a while this weekend. I can't say exactly when that will happen because I don't yet know myself. One minute I will be here--and the next I won't. Likely sometime Sunday--but it could be sooner or later. I'll know when to go when it's time to go. I'm taking my phone with me in case I twist a knee or blow a tire. But otherwise, I am leaving the electronic world behind completely. And for a few hours, at least, I will try to leave even the physical world behind as well. I don't want to think about cars or houses or articles or whatever work needs to be done. For a few hours, I want to be done with doing. I want to be alone with my thoughts--and then simply alone--and then simply to be. I don't know when I will be back--Tuesday, I think, but it might be Monday night--or it might be later. Again, I will know when I know. But I will be back. I am not jumping off that mountain--nor am I going to do anything else foolish--on purpose or otherwise. I'm telling you this so you won't worry that I seem to have left the reservation. I'm going to be fine--or as fine as one in our condition ever is. And I will likely be posting until I leave. I just wanted to write this early so when the spirit moves me I can just up and go. Peace, Harry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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