Angee Posted January 22, 2015 Report Share Posted January 22, 2015 Hello, I do not know how to start and I feel a little silly writing my story after reading the endless love stories of over 10,20, or even 30 years. But I will attempt to give a brief explanation of my situation. I have attempted to reach out to people or resources that I think can understand me but I just feel like no one does. I am 24 years old and on January 25th it will be 2 months that my boyfriend passed away. On January 23rd it would have been our one year anniversary. He was 32 years old, he was diagnosed with diabetes but his death was very unexpected. The cause of death has not been determined yet. Although we were only together a short while, about a year and six months overall our connection was so strong, I was his first love and he was my first real love. We wanted to be with each other for a long time. I have had a hard time coming to terms with him being gone, I feel guilty because he was in his apartment for2 days before I finally decided to go check on him. I wish I would have been there with him. I not only grieve him, but our future together. I thought I had finally found happiness with him, now it seems I'm worse off than I began. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with the fact that he's not here anymore and that I will never find anyone like him. No one will ever love me like him and that breaks my heart. Although I realize I am young and that life will go on for me and I will most likely find love again, I am devastated at the fact that my future that I thought I deserved has vanished overnight. I thought I was finally going to be happy but I only got a taste and it makes me angry. He came into my life during dark times and made me a better person. He was someone I admired he was so wise and knowledgeable on this thing we call life. He was really so special, and I am sad that he is no longer here. I feel completely lost without him and am so confused by my emotions. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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