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I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. My thoughts and prayers go out to you. Lori

Derek I am sorry it was so a hard day for you, i think this time of yr just makes all the pain so much worse. I know that God has a plan for all of us but sometimes it is so hard to see that. As humans we want it our way not his. Just keep believing that He will see you through and He will give you the strength. How is Carson doing? How did he handle Christmas this yr? Are you both still going for therapy? I myself have slowed down, i am working more and financially it became alot. My thoughts and prayers are always with you. Lori

Congratulations Gail, how wonderful to be having a grandson. i am glad that your day wasn't as bad as you thought. Lori

Merry Christmas Wendy. i am so glad that you got to talk to your motherinlaw, this probabaly gave you alot of comfort. i am sorry i have not been on that often and did not know your mom was ill. i will be praying for her that the chemo will heal her and not be to bad for her. all my prayers and love. lori

Merry Christmas to all of you. I hope you all have the best day you can. i am off to my inlaws for dinner. my boys loved the gifts from santa. we went to mass and dinner last night for christmas eve. i am trying to do the best i can for the day. all my love lori

Merry Chritstmas to all my friends here. i hope that the new year will bring each one of you happiness and peace. God Bless Lori

Thank you teny, you are always in my thoughts. i hope that the new year will bring you some peace. love lori

Kathy That is so wonderful. i believe that our loved ones try so hard to show us that they are here. sometimes we miss the little things b/c we are not looking for them, your husband wanted to make sure you saw it. thanks for sharing . Lori

Thanks Marty, i am willing to try it. lori

Teny I have alot of doubts and some days are worse then others. I am praying for you that each day will get a little better for you. i wish i could say something to make you feel better. just know that i think of you often and pray for you. Lori

Kathy, i am so sorry for your loss. you have found a wondeful place to come. i hope that you keep coming back and talking. Lori

I to only but up a small tree just like yesterday. it is 4ft and sits on a table. it looks so pretty with its ligths. i am not sure if i ever want to go back to a big one. my boys and husband are ok with this, so it makes it easier. thanks for sharing your story. Lori

Terry I don't know if it ever really goes away, i just think it gets easier to deal with it. some are great for me and others are not. i just do my best now to make the best of the bad. i think i will always live with the missing and that is what hurts the most. for me i remenber that 6-9 month frame being one of the worst times. i know just allow myself to feel sad. i know for me i still question what is the purpose of life, i think about this alot. i wonder about my own death also and i think b/c of losing my mom i am more afraid to die. something i nevered worried about before. i believe this is all normal . i wish peace. Lori

I say to my mom all the time, please be the first one waiting for me when i go. i know that when we see each other again it will be like we never meet. the only thing is i probably have to wait a long time to see her. lori

Just want to tell you i meet with a medium on sat. it was wonderful, i can not put into words. i put it under topic "medium", she works with the state police of nj, del, ny. lori

Wendy that is a beautiful picture, thanks for sharing it. it is nice to picture of the people here and there loved ones. Lori

Beautiful, thanks for sharing. Lori

I have heard of it but don't believe in it. i work at a vet hospital for 15yrs and we feel this not the best diet. just my opinion. Lori

Linda I am so sorry about your mom. i lost mine july 3, 2006 and it feels like yesterday. i understand the pain you feel in your heart b/c i have it also. i know that our moms are in a better place but that doesn't stop us from missing them and wanting them here. You have found a wonderful place to come and talk. please keeping coming back and sharing about your mom. Lori

I can relate to the fear of flying. i have felt this intense fear for a number of yrs. we flew to Calif 6 yrs ago and i held my rosary beads so tight around my hand that it left a mark. The part about feeling your own mortality is normal after we lose a loved one. I felt like a orphan after i lost my mom since my dad had passed 5 yr prior to her death. I wondered what death felt like, i am still terrified. i believe in heaven but am so afraid of what it is like. my mom had this fear til the day she died. i tried to comfort her but i go see the fear in her eyes. this bothered me the most. i pray that i wont' feel that scared. she was catholic and had a strong faith but it still scared her. i don't think i will be flying for awhile, thank God. my little son also does not do well flying. thank God my husband does not mind driving. Lori

Wendy We are all here for each other so we will help each other get through it. this time of yr is so hard, everyone is happy and our minds are filled with what could of been. i am praying everyday for each one of you. love lori

Lyn Mine had gotten so bad that i had to take something. i tried everything on my own but nothing worked. it was hard giving into a medication but so thankful i did. i have always been a nervous/anxious person and the grief just send me on a whirlwind. lori

I think guilt is such a part of the grief process. i myself had alot of guilt and still do. it ate me up inside. i was having panic attacks and my legs would shake and pace for hours. i finally got help for those. i just think we sit back and think about all the things we should of said , should of done . there is a time where we have to say enough, we did all we could. its hard one. For the money , i think your loved ones are happy. they want us to be happy and that includes being financial ok. lori

It was great, i didn't want to leave her. i felt so close to her there. Wendy, she is up in Ramsey all the way up Rt 17, i could give you her email. it would be worth it to go. she is booked though next nov. i waited 8 mos to see her. i almost canceled and am so thankful i didn't. Lori

Lori I hope your day went ok, i am wishing your mom a very happy birthday. She must of been a wonderful person to raise a daughter like you. all my love and prayers . Lori