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Celebrated my bdy with my daughter and her BF yesterday, we met at the Empire (Chinese buffet) in Eugene, Kodie came with me of course, it was six weeks late but that doesn't matter. Took most of the day, took Kodie for a walk at the park beforehand, got gas at Costco afterwards (out of way, not sure it was worth it), got home after 3, took Kodie to Jazzy's for 1/2 hour, poured rain, got home ten until 4 and heated my dinner, evening routine...woke up at 1:20 with power going crazy, a transformer blew, couldn't get back to sleep after that, loaded fire... The kids got their checks from the estate Friday, less than they were told, but it's done and over, the next challenge will be filing taxes, ugh. I hope everything is well with you! Been a long week, still getting headaches from concussion and Iris...she's all over the place. Was going to move to UT to be with a friend, then was going to get a roommate, now she said she's minimalizing and going to move to Mexico, will sell Jazzy or lease her house and let the people take care of her! ??? Good luck with that. Wants me to visit (w/o Kodie), nope! She's in lala land. The advice I keep hearing in my mind is "Don't do anything major the first year." which I would extend to five. I started a thread on my other grief site "Moving from loneliness to aloneness." It's a process...

Marg, good job on losing weight, I can't imagine trying to lose on a high carb diet, but you did it. Can't have bananas but if I did it'd be greenish.

I never saw this earlier this week, so not sure what happened Wed, Thurs. I am praying for you and hope you're in a better frame of mind right now. This is PREcancerous, not to worry about, just to get through. The cancer foundation has helps if this were cancer. You need to hang in here for Nile. Please. Let us hear from you, we care. I don't have anyone either, I know how it can feel. 💗

No but then I'm not a whole congregation! I am so glad the sale went like it did! Your brother ticks me off royally, yes, true narcissist. You have better restraint than I do. My son called yesterday, he bought his house three years ago, the former sellers sold it with a new roof, now it's leaking everywhere, and the company is defunct. Their dryer went out. They have a gas leak. And a neighbor took out their fence, Paul had to cob it together, large section, as the dogs couldn't go out like that. Neighbor has done nothing. WTH! Bethany is overextended and keeps trying to loan HIM out! He tells her not to. They're going to her sister's for TG so I'm high and dry. The only reason I go is to be with family. I messaged Melissa, haven't heard back. Iris invited me to go with her to the Methodist TG spread, all I can eat is the turkey, everything else is carbs. Will see. What do you do for holidays? I'm ready for April already, can we just skip winter and holidays? I go up and down the mountain to the church, winding country roads. And I drive Hwy 58 to the city to shop or go to medical appointments. I got a postcard from my local clinic wanting me to come in and check my BP. Are you kidding me! I was so angry! I called them and said they had 3 1/3 months to check up on my BP and if I'd left it up to them I'd be dead! That their NP was the one who CAUSED it to be 210/110 telling me my toe was broken and to get into urgent care. I've had breaks, this was NOT a break and it was nowhere near my toe! I'd told her the tendon it was and I've had pulled tendons before, I know what THEY feel like! I had showed her the side of the foot where it hurt! She would NOT LISTEN! I will never see her again! Kodie and I drove the 100 mile round trip to Urgent Care and they confirmed what I'd thought! No breaks, not the toe! I got my BP down in the next two days by breathing exercises. No thanks to them. Are they kidding me! They're just now looking at their chart notes?! I'm mad at myself for not listening to my inner instincts and doing what I was told. Rule #1: You are your own advocate! Drs can suggest, they cannot dictate our lives! Iris was in town seven hours yesterday, left Jazzy in the kennel, I got her out and let the dogs play for two hours while I did her dishes, her kitchen was a mess! The dogs had so much fun, running and playing the whole time! Kodie got filthy, but I didn't care, they missed each other so much.

It's sad that this is what our lives comes to, growing old alone, enduring the changes, one by one...or all at once. I am glad you got your dentures, it can be hard adjusting to them, I remember my sister going through that. My son called yesterday, he bought his house three years ago, the former sellers sold it with a new roof, now it's leaking everywhere, and the company is defunct. Their dryer went out. They have a gas leak. And a neighbor took out their fence, Paul had to cob it together, large section, as the dogs couldn't go out like that. Neighbor has done nothing. WTH! Bethany is overextended and keeps trying to loan HIM out! He tells her not to. They're going to her sister's for TG so I'm high and dry. The only reason I go is to be with family. I messaged Melissa, haven't heard back. Iris invited me to go with her to the Methodist TG spread, all I can eat is the turkey, everything else is carbs. Will see.

Still getting headaches and head still hurts but lesser, didn't throw up yesterday so that's a plus. Never heard from son. At least I did my daughter and her BF, it's hard going through something like this alone! Went to church yesterday, at the end of the service when the pastor was leading the singing, Kodie joined in, quietly. It was so cute! The Husky in him. The pastor adores him, thankfully. Iris and Jazzy got back Saturday, good, can't believe her code worked for her, it didn't for me or her other neighbor! Today we have to get Jazzy out of her kennel, Iris will be gone for six hours. It's pouring rain, that ought to be fun! Will be thinking of you today with the sale...

What was the outcome? Way too quiet here lately, it echoes...

Still getting headaches and head still hurts but lesser, didn't throw up yesterday so that's a plus. Never heard from son. At least I did my daughter and her BF, it's hard going through something like this alone! Went to church yesterday, at the end of the service when the pastor was leading the singing, Kodie joined in, quietly. It was so cute! The Husky in him. The pastor adores him, thankfully. Iris and Jazzy got back Saturday, good, can't believe her code worked for her, it didn't for me or her other neighbor! Today we have to get Jazzy out of her kennel, Iris will be gone for six hours. It's pouring rain, that ought to be fun!

Went to town yesterday and got my glasses adjusted, they didn't look busy yet they have no openings until May?! (It's 60 miles from here). Got gas, another 20 miles out of the way and then another ten miles to get to grocery store and 50 more miles here. Took Kodie to the park before and after, ten miles out of the way both times, but he earned it. Winter will be here when I look out and it's white, no idea when, could be any time or could be Christmas. I personally hope it holds off. No word from my son about TG. It's been five weeks since he called on my bdy. You have earned what you have coming from the estate sale and I hope it continues doing better and better, that's way more than we got from Peggy and Bert's estate sale even though he had antiques of a unique kind. It earned $1,400 less Junk Hauler's and thw lawyers and CPAs, in the hole now, wondering if the kids will get anything at all. Sorry about my response, I couldn't help responding with ROFL..out in the woods, totally on my own, nope, no organizations. My neighbor will come air up my tire on my wheelbarrow today, I got the air compressor ready and car moved out so I can put the wheelbarrow into the carport...

Tell your brother to let go of his pipe dreams, you're dealing with reality and none of this is fun.

Yes, it's important to be our own advocate.

We're county not city so lucky to get ANY maintenance at all. You'd think people would do in front of their place but nope! Leave it all for the old lady. 28 here now, predicted 37, I want a refund! It will get colder before people get up. No, this place needs decluttered, badly, but nowhere to take it and not a good place for a garage sale. With my hand injuries and 10% strength and continual pain and numbness, that's my big enemy now. Before I was always working/commuting, no time. If I could tell people one thing it'd be get rid of your stuff in your 60s, now I'm 71 and never anticipated the disabilities that'd come with it. I'm lucky I can walk and have a good back but the lack of strength from the injuries is very debilitating. I figure when I get this place paid off then I can move what I want and have an estate sale on what I'm leaving (a lot) and then sell the place, but I can't afford two places at once. And they require electricity be left on while doing that. Can't load the fire if I'm not there though! So not sure how any of that will work. Too much for my brain to handle now. I think they're right, the most of it will be the last day. Your brother can suck leaves! What has HE done to help out?! Sorry, it galls me how people who do nothing (like my sisters) have such opinions! Julie's idea of helping Peggy was come throw some stuff away, like her cookbook which was a 60s Better Homes & Gardens & I had to find and buy her another. Polly is blind so can't do much, but she didn't toss w/o asking. St Vinny's quit takin donations here during Covid so now you have to make 100 mile round trip to get rid of anything and with the price of gas like it is, nope!

In 2008 my doctor prescribed Valium for my anxiety, I didn't want that, it's very addictive (Remember Valley of the Dolls?), two days on it and I couldn't do my job or drive, I took myself off of it and looked up info on different meds...I didn't want something that would alter my brain, just something to take the edge off a bit so I could cope. I found Buspar (Buspirone) and take the lowest dose. I've had no side effects and it's helped me, I imagine I'll be on it for life as I was diagnosed GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) and I had it even as a child. I printed out the info and took it to my doctor, who got sarcastic with me (I told him it's my body, I have a vested interest in it!) but prescribed it. I did better than he had! My friend was having problems with her anxiety meds so I told her about it, and she talked with her doctor and within a week it was working, also no side effects and much safer than what she'd been on for ages.

Get your doctor's take on it, also look it up, side effects, etc. Share your concerns with your doctor and see what he says.

We had a storm prior so I'm thinking a tree came down on a power line, knocking us out. Kodie and I walked for 1 1/2 hours during the outage, picking up branches on the road so people could drive, the fresher you get them the better as when people drive over them, it breaks them into bits...trucks and SUVs can usually make it but not good for cars. I'm amazed, in 46 years here, I'm the only one that does this. They will miss me when I'm gone. Good luck with the auction, praying it has great results!

Leave that decision for if/when you find out. It all depends on the location and how far advanced... Praying for you Hon. I literally LIVE for my pets...

Power went out, no internet or phone either. Had a Tbsp peanut butter and 1/2 cold egg for dinner. Walked Kodie for something to do, branches in the road all up & down the road so picked them up, took 1 1/2 hours, soaked to the gils, it was pouring out. Power back as I was going to sleep. Had already set the clocks so had to do it again. So much for resting.

Tried relaxing, the power went out. Ate 1/2 cold egg and 1 Tbsp Peanut Butter for dinner. Walked Kodie for something to do and there were branches in the road everywhere so picked them up 1 1/2 hours. Got soaked to the gil, it was raining hard. Had the clocks set back already so had to do them again when the power came back, was going to sleep then

Yes, I understood that, 🙏🙏🙏, let us know what you find out. Been going through that with my best friend the last 2-3 years.

I'm okay, it's what I'd call a slight concussion, the wounds are pretty severe but don't need stitches, resting, will be bored resting. Getting old sucks. Her lack of communicating properly and my lack of strength got me, happened Tuesday. Wow, your parents had a lot of antiques! Hoping it does well...

Cancer, that's what got my Arlie over four years ago. They couldn't do anything for him, he got a clean bill of health two weeks prior from his vet. How the hell do you miss that! I'm so sorry, Novi. They live on in our hearts.

Not affecting my eyes or cognizance. Iris wanted me to look under a rock for her key, but the first one I checked, no key Or any of the rest of them. Accidentally pushed a boulder underneath the deck and I knew she wanted it to block the dogs getting under so tried to get it pulled back out but no leverage or strength. Got one of Mike's tools but too wimpy. So I scooted underneath it to get better leverage. Scooting forward is how I hit my head with great force. Couldn't get up, scooted backwards and crawled to something to pull myself up, that's how I pulled a muscle. Finally got up. Took from Tues to today to show up. Turns out the reason I didn't see a key is because she didn't tell me it was a key holder. That would have been a good piece of information to know! You have to physically look at the bottom to see it. When you pick it up nothing is there. Never would have happened had I known.

Not affecting my eyes or cognizance thankfully!

Concussion, broke skin in two of the three places on my head, pulled muscle in arm, throwing up and headache.

Concussion, broke skin in three of the four places I hit plus have a pulled muscle in my arm, did a job on myself. Not affecting my eyes or cognizance. Iris wanted me to look under a rock for her key, but the first one I checked, no key Or any of the rest of them. Accidentally pushed a boulder underneath the deck and I knew she wanted it to block the dogs getting under so tried to get it pulled back out but no leverage or strength. Got one of Mike's tools but too wimpy. So I scooted underneath it to get better leverage. Scooting forward is how I hit my head with great force. Couldn't get up, scooted backwards and crawled to something to pull myself up, that's how I pulled a muscle. Finally got up. Took from Tues to today to show up. Turns out the reason I didn't see a key is because she didn't tell me it was a key holder. That would have been a good piece of information to know! You have to physically look at the bottom to see it. When you pick it up nothing is there. Never would have happened had I known. I'm of the mindset that if you can't do something, try another way...especially with 10% strength from my injuries and being alone for 18 years. In this case the other way would be "don't."