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  1. My first thought when I wake up is what day is it? Five days a week I have to get up and go to work. These past 2 months on my days off if I don't have to go anywhere I have just been putting on sweats or leggings. If I have to go out I wear jeans and a hoodie. I also try not to buy anything that will need to be ironed. I do have some summer dresses but rarely wear them. I'm all about comfort. I wear boots all winter and sneakers or flip flops when it's warm.
  2. oh yes Gwen.....the silence is deafening!!!! Shortly after all this stay at home stuff started I pretty much have been here by myself. My daughter has been basically living at her boyfriends house. I'm sure it has a lot to do with the fact that I told her that she cant be having anyone over. I just cant take that risk because of the medicine that i'm taking. Plus, i'm pretty sure my older daughter told her the same thing. Normally I like my alone time, but this is a little too much for me.
  3. Nicole is doing pretty good. The accident was almost 2 years ago. Last year she had to have surgery to have the rod and nail removed from her leg and knee. She still has trouble with her knee swelling up really bad at times. Her arm seems to be doing ok. She also has been having some trouble with her eye that had glass in it. Yes, I cant afford to eat out either but Bill would take me out about 3 times a week to make sure I was eating.
  4. I really haven't posted much here in awhile. I do come and read mostly. I'm still working since I work in a grocery store. My days off I just try to catch up on things around the house. My youngest daughter, she's 20, has been staying with her boyfriend so I am mostly alone. She comes home to eat, shower and get clean clothes. This has been really hard for me. I have been seeing someone on and off for the past 3 years. Things have finally been really good between us for the past 5 months. The past 3 and half weeks have been hard though. Not being able to be with him and being by myself is depressing. He won't risk it because I am immunocompromised because of the medicine that I am on. Is anyone else so sick of cooking everyday? just me? LOL! Anyway, just trying to hang in there.
  5. Exactly!!!!!! I said the same thing. Although I have not remarried yet. I have been with this guy for over 3 years, on and off. He gets it because he also lost his girlfriend of 20 years. It's nice because we can both talk about our lost loved ones and it is ok. It was just hard for me in the past and every few months I would break up with him. We have been back together for over 3 months now. Things are different this time. I have learnt to talk to him about things instead of just running the other way. We are taking things slow this time. It has been really hard for me. I do know that Richard wants this for me. He would want me to be happy.
  6. Amberley, send you a private message with info. Wasn't sure if I was allowed to post the info here.
  7. yes I have been to 2 different mediums in my area. They both have been spot on. The first one I went to was a group setting. She mentioned about my new Jeep. Also about the fighting with his siblings and he was sorry about that. The 2nd one was a private meeting. I went the day after my birthday and he told me happy birthday. Also confirmed that the strange things that were happening were his way of letting me know he was here. Some of the things that were told to me were so spot on and no one else would have known. I would just make sure that who ever you go to is the real deal. it does take some time to get an appointment with a good one. it's been over a year since I went but I want to go back because I need some answers to a few things.
  8. Bill and I have been trying to work things out for a little over a month now. It has been going really good. We have been taking it slow. I think the time apart was good for us. Not that it was any fun. It gave us time to really think about things. We both know that we want the same thing. We cant imagine our lives without each other.
  9. I would have to say yes. Although I'm the one that kept pushing my boyfriend away and needing space. My husband passed a little over 3 years ago. My boyfriend's long time girlfriend passed about 2 and a half years ago. We met at a grief support group. There was an instant connection between us. We started doing things together. Then started dating. It was hard for me because I still have my youngest living at home. She is 19 now. She doesn't think I should be with anyone. Bill and I have been dating for a little over 2 years. I have broke it off with him about 4 times. This past Oct. he asked me to marry him and I said yes. A month and half later I broke it off with him again. My daughter was happy. As the weeks and months went on, I did a lot of thinking and crying. I have realized that my daughter was trying to control me. I was doing what she wanted not what was in my heart. Three weeks ago we ran into each other. I was worried that he may have moved on or found someone else. He thought the same. We are dating again. We have talked about everything and have been honest with each other. We are best friends. We cant imagine our lives without each other. We are slowly working towards what we both want out of this. That is to one day be husband and wife.
  10. Thanks Marty. I have read some of them. I saved it so I can read more later. Kay, you are so right.
  11. These past few months have been bad. I broke up with Bill in Nov. I thought it was the right thing to do. The first couple of weeks I felt ok with it. Then everyday I would find myself crying. I tried to move on. That didn't work. Then 3 weeks ago, I went out by myself just to get out of the house. As I was walking in a parking lot to my car Bill drove past me. I didn't realize it was him until after he passed me. I stood there and my heart was pounding. I thought maybe this was a sign. A few days later I decided to message him. We ended up talking on the phone that night for about 2 hours. We have since then decided to try to work things out. Nicole, my 19 year old daughter, isn't happy about it. I have realized that she is the reason that I have kept myself from being with someone that I care so much for. It's a real struggle for me. She is my baby. At the same time, why should I not do what makes me happy?
  12. I'm sure Mark does have something to do with it. I say the same thing about meeting Bill. They want us to be happy.
  13. Katie, I think about you often and wonder how you doing. My best friend asked me that same question a few after Richard passed. I said the same thing. I also thought why would she even ask me this? She meant well by it. She worries about me. Here I am, over 3 years later. I have found someone who is my best friend and can talk to about anything. He also lost his girlfriend of 20 years. So he gets it. It has been a struggle but we really do love each other. I know you may think that you will never be able to love anyone else but you never know. I also struggled in the beginning but my kids always made me keep going for them. You just keep going and take it day by day or minute by minute. It's hard, we all get that. We are all here for you.
  14. Oh yes, the loneliness is horrible. It's been a little over 3 years for me. Two years ago I met someone that lost his girlfriend of 20 years. We had a lot in common. We dated for 2 years off and on. It was hard. In Oct 2018 he proposed to me. Then 7 weeks ago, I broke it off with him. I haven't talked to him since. I have realized that being with him helped me get through because I had someone to talk to and someone to go and do things with. Now, i'm back to crying everyday and have no one. Most of my girlfriends still have their husbands. So I don't really have anyone to go and do things with. I have 6 sisters but they live 4 hours away. I'm trying to stay positive. My goal for this year is to try and go through this house and down size.
  15. Hey!!! I am the crazy cat lady, Kay!!!! I have 9 of them. I did put the tree up. Nothing else though. Not even sure why I put the tree up. I have only turned on the lights after I put it up. Just one more thing for me to do after Christmas.
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