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About Polly

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    Bangor, Pa

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    St. Luke's Hospice House/Bethlehem, Pa

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  1. No they haven't even mentioned the disability. But I was wondering if that was possible. I will call the care worker. She had surgery on Sunday morning. They put a rod in her femur. And a plate in her upper arm.
  2. Polly

    Always Aware

    ohhhhhh, I swear I could have wrote this. I also think that Richard had something to do with me meeting Bill. Sometimes he will say or do something and I just stop dead in my tracks and swear it was Richard.
  3. Thanks Marty and Kay. Yes, I think they got all the glass out of her eye. No, she doesn't have any brain injuries. I have my older daughter and Nicole's best friend have been staying with me at the hospital. We have been taking turns staying over night with her. I took off work all this week. Supposed to go back next Tuesday. I will have to take a leave of absence if she needs help once she is home. Can't afford to do that but I will do whatever I have to do. She is my baby. No one else was in the car with her. She was following a new boyfriend, as in that was their first date. She is not really sure what happened. She hit a tree then went airborne and hit the telephone pole. The boyfriend saw it and called 911. He stayed with her until help got there.
  4. just wanted to let you know that Nicole was in a really bad car accident on Sat night. Not sure how she survived. She broke her femur, upper arm and 3 places in her pelvis. She has cuts all over her face and had glass in her eye.
  5. I believe there is a plan. I don't think Rich was happy about it though. I know he didn't want to leave me. I also believe he had something to do with me meeting Bill. Bill is so much like Richard. Sometimes it really freaks me out.
  6. Nicole and I got back from our Florida vacation to Disney and Daytona Beach on Sunday. We had a really good time. We both didn't want to come back home. She was born there and I lived there for 8 years. She asked if we could just stay and send for our cats. LOL! It was nice to spend that time with her. no stress or worries. Daytona Beach was a little hard for me. The last we were there Richard was with us.
  7. I have and yes, it's really hard. I remember my best friend asking a few months after Richard died if I thought I would ever date again. I remember I told her that I didn't think so. I told her that Richard was so good to me that I didn't think anyone could treat me the same way. Little did I know that 1 year later I did meet someone. We met at a grief support group. He lost his girlfriend of 20 years. We have a lot in common. We started out just being friends. We would go bowling once a week. As time went on we both had feelings for each other. So we started dating. We both struggled with this. My youngest daughter who was 17 at the time really hated that I was dating. There were many times in the past year and a half that I said I couldn't do this. There were 2 times that I broke up with him for a month each time. I finally realized that it was ok to love again. I love that we both can talk about our loved ones and it is ok. My daughter is just now finally being ok with it, for the most part.
  8. My sister came for a short visit on my birthday (April 4). I scheduled a private session with a medium on Thursday, April 5 for us. I really believe they can communicate with them. The first thing he said to me was Happy Birthday. He said that he lets me know he is with me through my cell phone. I was like omg! When I go to bed at night not every night, but randomly, my cell phone will vibrate and light up like I got a text message. I will look and nothing. Some nights this happens a few times in a row. I usually just say something like, Richard! then tell him good night and that I love him. There were a lot of other things that came up and I was like omg!!!!! There is no way anyone would have known these things except for Richard and I.
  9. Exactly what I was thinking. I can't cut him out of my life. I thought I could and thought I was ok with it. I was wrong. Being friends and taking things slow seems the best for now. Oh and as far as my daughter. I think she is growing up. She has been more understanding. Before Bill and I broke up the last time, she was trying to be nice to him.
  10. thanks Kay. I had a really tough weekend. Lots of tears. Lots of thinking. A lot of alone time. It got really bad on Easter. I worked 6am-3pm and came home to an empty house. My daughter went with her boyfriend to his aunts house. After a couple of hours of crying I realized that I wasn't just upset that Richard wasn't here. I was also really missing and needing Bill. Yes, he drives me crazy at times, but he has the kindest heart just like Richard. He would do anything for me, just like Richard. He would never intentionally hurt me or cheat on me, just like Richard. How can I not let him in my life? So on Monday, it was his birthday. I called him to wish him a Happy Birthday. I asked him if he would meet me at the bowling alley. We used to go bowling at least a week on nights that it was $1 a game. He said yes. It felt right and we had a really good time. I told him that we had to take things slow. My head is really messed up with all of this but we are so good for each other. He totally understands because he lost his girlfriend of 20 years. Yes, I'm really excited about this trip. I was so hesitant about doing it but my best friend convinced me that I should just do it. This will probably be our last vacation together so going to do it good. She is already talking about moving out on her own. I'm sure she will because she is my mini-me. I left home a couple weeks after I graduated.
  11. OMG Mitch and Kay!!!! I worked 6am-3pm on Easter then came home to an empty house. Sat here and cried for hours. Guess that was better than what you both went through.
  12. Here is an update with what is going on. I started dating Bill again before Christmas. We would go out but he wasn't spending the night here. That was just too much for my daughter that is still living here. Things seemed to be going ok. Then at the end of February, I broke up with him again. I just felt like I needed some space. I was feeling smothered. I just felt like maybe I needed some time to myself. We really didn't even talk for about a month. Last week I did call him. We talked for about 2 hours. I told him that I still wanted to be friends but I couldn't promise him anything else. You see, we have a lot in common. We like the same things. We talk to each other about everything. He told me that he would rather be friends that not have me in his life. That really meant a lot to me. These past few months have been good with me and my girls. My youngest has actually been talking to me about things. She even shocked me a few weeks ago when she asked me if I had talked to Bill. I was honest with her and told her that I had only texted with him at that time. I told her that we were still friends and that for now that is all it's going to be with him. So my youngest only has a little over 2 months until she graduates from high school. I have a big trip planned for her and I in June. I'm taking to her to Disney as her graduation present. We are going to drive there. It's about a 17 hour drive. We are going to spend 6 nights on property and do each park plus the water parks. Then we are going to spend 2 nights at the beach before heading home. I think this will be a trip for good memories for us. I'm excited about this. I'm sure Richard would be so proud.
  13. Calopumi, Thanks for sharing. I do know it's hard for my kids to see me with someone else. Heck, it's hard for me to be with someone else too.
  14. Ana, Yes, it just sucks. I met someone at a grief support group a year and half ago. It was nice to have someone to go out with and do things. Someone to talk to that understood. Every time when things start to get serious I seem to back off. I question whether this is what I want. Am I really happy? I really am not sure.
  15. Yes, they just keep coming. Every time something in this house breaks or breaks down I just want to cry. Richard was the one to take care of that stuff. Although I'm pretty good at fixes things it gets me every time because I know I'm now doing what he would have done for me. That is really sweet that you send your son a box like that.