Amberley Posted November 29, 2019 Report Share Posted November 29, 2019 I think I could write a book on how my last few months have gone. My fiancee recently passed away, november 1st. She was in the hospital for a month, I went to see her every day. We only had two and a half years together, and some may think that's easier. But for me its not. I feel cheated, life gave me the two happiest years, and now I have so very long to live without her. We had a relationship that I believe people only dreamt of, we both have had horribly dark pasts and managed to find each other, start a life together, we often talked about the fact that neither of us could live without the other. I lost my home, my job, my friends and community, and the biggest loss, my best friend and soul mate, all in a month. I struggled with suicide and mental health before I met her, I had gotten so much better, I had dreams, a passion, I had overcome my biggest challenges with her by my side. But since she has passed I'm slipping. I often feel I have nothing left to live for. She was my life, she was the reason I wanted to get better and the reason for doing so well these passed few years. I'm really struggling with my faith, I never really had much before she passed, but I've been asking for signs each day and continue to receive them. Does anyone else wish that the person they've lost would just poke their head out of the sky like mufasa from the lion king and say "I'm here, I'm with you, I love you and I'll be here when you're ready."? How much easier it would be if I knew for sure. I am in therapy and am getting as much support as I possibly can be. I'm always open to more suggestions, or stories of similarities and overcoming, please be gentle with me. Thank you for listening. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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