jennifer1969 Posted August 9, 2010 Report Share Posted August 9, 2010 Hi my name is Jennifer Friedel. I am 40 yrs old. I just lost my husband and best friend Mark, he was 43 yrs old. He fell down our basement steps and got severe brain trauma. He passed away on June 27, 2010. See he was on life support. But everything was shuting down. So I had them take him off of it. Because he didn't want that. I have never seen that before. And now that is the picture in my mind. Every time I fall a sleep I have nightmares about it. All I want is to remember him the way he was. The nice loving husband. I don't understand why he left me. Why he didn't fight harder. We were together for 10 short years and married since October 5, 2004. I just don't know what to do now. I am having a really bad day today. I stayed in my room from about 2 today. I cryed all day I have chest pains. Today would be the day that we would have sat down and planed were we would go on vacation for my birthday. Now I don't want my birthday to come. My brother ask me what I wanted for my birthday today and all I keep asking for is Mark to come home to me. I am hurting so bad. I just can't bring myself to get out of my room. I don't want to be around any one. I just want to be by myself. I don't know how to handle the grief. I don't want to do or go any where. I can't sleep, all I do is cry, I have anxiety attacks, panic attacks, and depression. I feel lost and hopeless. He was the love of my life. I miss him so much. I keep hopeing that this is just a really bad dream, that when I wake up he will be there with me. My life will never be the same. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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