Eleanor, You sound like the person who would do anything for anybody. I am sure you did your best. I too lost my best friend just recently, who loved me like a mother, a friend, no body can come close to what she did for me. I used to live at her place as a boarder. I know your mother knows, just as my friend knew, that we always did what was best for them, and I know that they will always know that we will love them no matter what. So I am going to be brave and I will remember my friend forever. As I say nobody can come close. I am sure your mother was the same as my friend. Take care, Thanks for writing, about your self and how much you loved your mother. I will take heart from your letter. Kavish