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Hi, Maybe you should join a group that volunteers to help other people in need. Helping others could help us help ourselves. Personally I like to think of my best friend and thank her every day for helping me which helps me to be kinder to myself. Kavish

Hi Cubby, I think it is just that you miss your mom so much. Just encourage yourself to do little things, baby steps, and take your time. Be with some caring people like your husband and talk out your feelings. It is in your heart that hurts most of all and you have to help it heal of its grief. It does not mean you will forget your mom any more or love her any less. Kavish

Hi Kathy, I can not imagine how much you have to deal with everyday. I assume your husband would support you if you do file the suit. Please see what the stipulation/time is there for it. I would want you to find all the answers but you should find out from others who have gone through it as I think it would add more to grieving and stress as nobody involved is going to own up to the mistakes made and it would have to be proven. If you can find the support and a counsellor it would help you as to have some one to share with. warmest regards, Kavish

Happy Birthday, Bob. Love, Kavish

Hi MayLissa, Thank you for the information on our fur-friends and Dr. Shrock. I will "conciously" try to research his website and see if he addresses love without attachment as prophesied by Gautam Buddha. Also a sincere thanks to Marty, our counselor, for her guidance. Kavish

Thank you MayLissa, I am thankful for the post with the Interview with Dr. Bruce Lipton. It really opens a new level of conscious field for my soul. Kavish

DeeGee, There are some men, who don't want to upset the applecart. I guess your husband was one. I too find it very very difficult talking about my fears or my inner deep feelings because I really don't know how to express them. Sometimes we men are the most stubborn and really immovable objects maybe just to avoid criticism which may be a part of us deep down somewhere lots of time ago. I was afraid of my mother so I really wasn't able to express myself and was very shy. Now I am just trying to channel myself inwardly to be calm after having met the most wonderful friend who tried her hardest to bring me out naturally. She gave me space and patience just like you did with your husband. Thanks, Kavish

Hi Paula B., I am sorry for your loss. All I can say is that usually in times of grief and sorrow people don't know how to react and they look at one another to make a move. I would suggest you try to hang on and be strong in yourself so that you can carry on through this life alteration. I am sure you have the strength to do the right thing as I read it in your message. Thanks, Kavish

Hi, I am sorry you lost your Dad at such an early age. I lost my Dad when I was 14 yrs old. At that time, I wasn't so mature in my feelings yet as you are with yours, losing your father at 15. So I would say, Your Dad did a great job raising you, giving you your independent identity, hoping you would take care of yourself and in time would be able to work your grief through your actions into something he would be proud of. Thanks, Kavish

My friend too had 3 poodles! one after another. The first one was toy poodle called Jamai. Very intelligent and would follow a hot air balloon if he could all over the block, sadly one day he did get out of the backyard on to the streets, and crossed over to the road where he was struck by a city bus. He was 6 years old. The 2nd poodle, a miniature, called Jamai-II ate grass sprayed with pesticide and died too. He was 11 years old. Then she had Gilby who would just be so nice and patient, but alas he loved the sweets we gave him and lost his eye sight, but not his patience and sense of caring. He would know when I was going to give him a needle for his diabetes and would not move so that I could give it to him. Dogs are the best. Kavish

I wish I could write a poem from my heart as well for my best friend. I am sure Jon can hear you. I am sure he knows your love for him. Thank you for opening your heart through your poem to Jon. Kavish

Hi, I lived at my friend's who had a miniature poodle called Gilby. He lives now with my friends' daughter in law. I think of him and can understand what you are going through. Poodles are so divine and they know everything, as I am sure almost every animal does. It wasn't your fault. I convey to you my sincere wishes that you don't blame yourself and Midgy would know how much you cared. Kavish

Hi Derek, I am sorry that your heart has to go through another break once again. I hope you don't blame yourself and keep trying to do right by yourself. You can and will get through this. Thanks, Kavish

Hi NotCoping, I am not sure why Bob's friends would not want to include you or atleast let you know that they are doing it in good faith. Sorry if they are doing it though. You may as well let it be. It does not affect your relationship with your husband. Kavish

Don't pretend it does not hurt. You lost someone very close and they were a part of your life. Stop and think what you have lost before you can go on.

Hi Mary Linda, I can understand your feelings when you have done everything one could possibly do, yet there is a feeling of inadequacy as is amongst many of us who try to understand the gap left behind in our hearts. We need to fill that space with doing right by ourselves. I hope you all the courage and spirits to keep moving on. I am sure our loved ones would like that for us too. I for myself have let my beloved ones to dance in the eternal bliss and hope to join them one day, while i try to learn to dance to that tune on this earth. I found a lot of solace reading Deepak Chopra's book Life after Death: The Burden of Proof. And as I infer it "that without ego we would not have grief" or some meanings that I am deriving/devising for myself as I learn to be light in my heart and in my steps. Thanks , Kavish

HI Kathy, I too feel I lost My best friend and I can not explain it to anybody face to face. She took care of me, when I was a boarder at her place. I will never get over her because she would bowl me over with her wit, spirit of independance, and her brave heart. I am not going to tell her age , because she wouldn't have me want to. I just want to say, that thanks for talking about Jon and Noah. They will always stay alive in spirit. Kavish

I am sorry your mom had to go through so long through so much all alone. It is a boon that you were with her and stuck with her and I am sure she knew that. I hope you and your mom peace after all you went through together.

It is appropriate keeping the loved ones in our memory, no matter what you do or where you go. We know we love them for all they were and celebrate them in any way one finds to do it.

Hi Magic, I lost my best friend, who took me in as a boarder when I first came to Canada, and I was turned from a impatient, impulsive man by her kindness and patience to listen more and react if at all. Now she is gone but I know that she is here with me forever in my heart. Because my heart changed because of her. So I can say that she will live on through me. I don't feel she is lost I feel she and I will continue on this journey together, and frankly I only need to keep her thoughts alive to think she is always here with me. I think of her everyday and every night, but I think of her as alive inside of me. Take care, Kavish

Happy Birthday. Keep on growing and going. You are a wonderful person. Kavish

I am sorry for your loss. It is quite clear your mom is jealous of you! Sorry for the double whammy. Have faith in your abilities , get back on your feet. I know It is hard on you, let on anybody else but it is what happens when we lose the trusted souls in our lives. I know they will look out for us so as not to get us lost. Kavish

All I have is the thoughts of my best friend in my mind. And it is true all I can hear her saying is I love you darling, infact She was so clear in saying it to me once when I was down. She said, Noone will love you as I love you. I wish I could hear her again. But she is in my heart and my heart will go on..and on...with her. I believe that when we think of our friend they gave us hope. Now sometimes we are not able to see that but we must find that hope within our hearts where my friend resides.

Boo, Thanks for your courage for writing your heart out. I too feel I am more sensitive after my best friend's died that I do not feel I will be able to defend myself if people try to take advantage of my sensitiveness. I am just going to go on with the memories of my best friend in my heart to help me feel stronger and not necessarily have to fight the distractions outside. Kavish

Hi Bamboo, I can understand your loss of your mom. She would always love you and wish you her strength and courage in life ahead. Go on with your mom's angel on your side. Bamboo wish for you, Kavish