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Dear Suzanne: It will be two years this June that I lost Alex. When he first passed I hoped and prayed that I would never forget him. I never wanted to forget the way he looked before he passed. That is one thing I feared. Most people deal differently with their loss. Some have a very hard time remembering what happened. The part that I want to forget is when he suffered for 5 months in the hospital. That is what really haunts me. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Hi Gail: It is so nice to hear from you and with such wonderful news. I am very happy for you. It is so nice that you can love again. Be happy and God Bless, Jeanne

LDear TerryY. I am so sorry about your loss and pain. I know right now this might not make you feel better, but believe me in time this pain will go away. When my Alex passed away just about 2 years ago, I also just wanted to die. I used to cry all the time. When someone would talk to me I would burst in tears in between conversations. I still cry at times, but not to the extent it was in the beginning. You have come to to the right place. We are all here for you and we care. You will never stop missing your husband, but you will move on and you will find some kind of normal life. Make sure you take care of yourself. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Hi Wendy: Hope you are well. Long time you have not posted. I will pray for you as another year passes. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

I had one dream of Alex since he past just about 2 years ago. He was sitting in our kitchen which is usually the gathering place in my house. He noticed that I made some changes to the house and I said don't get mad because you have a bad heart and he said that it was fine.

Kim: I am sorry for your loss. I agree with everybody that posted. It will be 2 years in June for me and even though I miss my Alex terribly and think of him often and smile alot, there still is the pain of his loss and I think that will always be. You will move on and there will be times when you laugh and there will be times when you cry. Just remember that everyone here has helped me and I have found some great friends to confide in Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Marsha: Have a wonderful birthday and manny, manny more. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Dear Korina Happy birthday to your baby girl, Kailyn. Scott is also wishing her a happy birthday with tons of kisses. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Hi everyone: I guess you can consider me an oldie. It will be two years in June for me. I miss not seeing everyone. Jeanne

Alex belongings (clothes and shoes) have left the house about six months. I thought I would never do that. I do have his false teeth (in a box) though. What do I do with them. hahhahah. Rochel - I know that it is hard for you to get rid of your husbands clothes. But it is done now and you will feel better about it. Kay - LOL about your husband's closet rod breaking. Jeanne

I have to agree with Kay. This to me has been very upsetting. In fact shocking. I do not appreciate anyone attacking anyone. Sometimes the advice that is given is not the best for everyone, but we appreciate whatever is given and move on. This is not a debate forum. God Bless, Jeanne

Hi Kim: I am so glad to hear from you and that the life coach is helping you. I enjoy hearing your comforting words. Lately on this site I have been noticing angry thoughts and bitterness among some mourners. It doesn't help when people are angry and bitter. At least for me it doesn't. Hope life is good to you. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Yes Marty you have always been there and still are for me. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Dear Babs: I have been on this site almost 2 years. This is the first time that I have seen a conflict between posters. I am not defending Vickie or anyone else, but as far as her stating you name as Babbs instead of Babs is a mistake that many of us make. It's a typographical error - nothing more. We understand each other here. We are all grieving and our emotions get the best of us. Nobody is slamming anyone. I can speak for myself and I guess others and say that sometimes we do not know what to say and how to put it into words. We try our best in comforting others. I find everyone here to be my dear friend in this tough time that we are going through. I hope that you will try to understand what I am saying and hope that I did not insult you. Please know that we are all here for you. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Leeann Thank you for sharing. I did not read it completely, just bits and pieces. It is so true about some of the things that Lisa said. Even though the story made me cry I would still like to read the book Thanks. Jeanne

Good Luck Debbie in returning to your class. The time seems right for you now and that will be a major hurdle for you to get over. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Dear Walt: I will pray for your wife Jeannie. What a wonderful tribute to her. May God Bless you. Jeanne (as you can see we share the name)

Hi Teny: I am happy that we all heard from you. And don't ever feel that you would depress us. I know what you mean about some days are bad and some are good. Sometimes I feel like I am going backwards. It is now 1 1/2 years since I lost Alex. Every Sunday morning I watch the show that is on CBS - "Sunday Morning" They always have a segment where they talk to a celebrity. This week it was Sophia Loren. She is 75 years old now. So beautiful. Her husband was about 20 years older than her. She had two children with him. He died 3 years ago. She said he was everything to her. When the interviewer asked her how hard it was losing him. She started to cry, but said exactly how I feel. She said: The actual death was not as bad as what she is going through now. Being alone, sharing with him, confiding with him and her husband helping her through their years of marriage. She went on to say many other things about him. I started to cry seeing Sophia Loren crying about her husband and how vulnerable she is. It really goes to show you how we are all in the same situation as everyone else. Our grief is no different. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Rochel: I am still here. I check in every day and throughout the day. I try to read as many posts as possible. It is just I don't have much to contribute. It seems I say the same things over and over. I do see that we have many new members now. It is so hard to keep up. I feel for everyone that has lost their spouse or any other loved one. A lot of the members when I joined a 1 1/2 ago don't post anymore. Maybe it is a good thing. They are healing. I like to come and visit here even though I don't have much to say. It does help when I am down. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

John: I have been on this site now for about 1 1/2 years and just recently I haven't been posting that much, but I do read everyone's post. I had to write when I read your's. I am in total shock to hear your story. Every story here is sad, but to hear how your wife passed is even more shocking. After reading what a wonderful relationship you two had, my heart goes out to you. I really don't know what words to say to you, but just know that this is a wonderful place to talk about whatever you want. The people here are wonderful and all are caring. They helped me through some really rough times. Please take care of yourself and maybe one-on-one counseling will help also. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Kimi: I will pray for your daughter. Please let us know when you get the results. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Thank you everyone for the Birthday wishes. I had a pleasant night and pretty much was on the phone so the evening went by fast so I did not have to think so much. Thank you all again and I love you all. Jeanne

Linda: I am sorry that this happened to you. But it is to no surprise to me that there are just some people that only think of themselves. You know how many times after my husband passed that I received call from family members that had to tell me about what is going on in their life, not even mentioning anything about me and my situation. Two weeks after Alex passed I called up Alex's cousin to ask him how his mother was doing, because she just had a heart attack and he went on and on and never asked how I was doing. So, Linda, you have to write these people off or just accept it. You have enough to worry about in your life and don't let any of this upset you. Love and God Bless, Jeanne

Boo: You are so nice to think about me on my birthday. In a way I am glad I am at work, where I am not alone on this day. I did my crying yesterday, when I was wathching the tree lighting ceremony from Rockerfeller Center in NYC. Thank you again for the birthday wishes. Love and God Bless, Jeanne