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Hi All, I am very sorry for all your losses, I feel like I can not talk about my parents infront of anyone especially my own siblings. Everytime I bring up the subject someone quickly changes it to something else. I still really need to talk to someone and I thought of anyone I could talk to it would be family but it isn't. I do see a grief counsellor and atleast I get some of what I need to say off my chest. Anyway that is why I feel isolated and alone. Most nights after I come home from work I stay in my one bed apartment and keep to myself because I can not really say anything to anyone else. Take care and God bless you all and here are a few big hugs for all who need them. God Bless You All Shelley

Hi avsqr_dancer, I am so very sorry to hear the news about Tawny. I was so hoping that with all the prayers Tawny would be getting better. I think saying good bye to a beloved pet is one of the hardest things that you have to do. I know when I found out my parrot Shamrock was dying I could not make myself do it. my pet Shamrock was not in any pain so I decided to take him home and before the night was over my poor little Shamrock had passed away. I know that in your case your beloved Tawny is in pain and the best thing for her would to put her to sleep but knowing it is the best thing does not make it any easier does it? Take care and I will continue to pray for you both. Shelley

Hi Maylissa, You are right on the nose with your post, I know I have two losts and their first anniversaries are coming up and I miss both of them so very much. I know that it is especially when some occassions are happening. I feel so sad but know in time I will not miss them as much. As someone told me time will tell. Take care and Thank you for all your wonderful and caring posts that you have written. Shelley

Hi All, I too have not lost a child but losing two people who were dear to me and grieving over them I know what it is like to grieve. I am a daycare teacher and work with children everyday, I do not know what it feels like to lose a child but have been around where a child has been badly hurt. It is a gut wrenching feel that is truly horrible I felt like I wish it could have been me. I will pray for everyone who has lost a child or grandchild and ask God to hold each of the lost little ones in His hands and love them till you see them again. I will also pray to God to give you all the strength to help you get through your grief Take care and God Bless all of you Shelley

Hi Lisa, I am sorry for your loss and know that I have had feelings about the same. Even now after both my mom and dad have been gone one year. I feel very lonely and just do not know what to do to get out of this feeling. I feel that even with all my other family over I just can not stop thinking about being with my mom and dad and dog Chelsea.. I hope that with God's help we will both be able to feel less lonely God Bless you Shelley

Hi avsqr_dancer, I will continue to pray for both of you in hopes that Tawny gets better and to give you the strength for you both to go on. So not to worry I will keep you in my prayers. Take care Shelley

Hi All, I am writing this post in hopes that it might help you. My mom died in April of 2005 and after her death my dad asked me to deal with her personal belongings. My mom before our trip to the United States gave alot of her clothes away. So there was some stuff to deal with but not a whole lot but she did have some other things to deal with. My mom died on vacation while in Las Vegas of compications to diabetes. After my dad died in August of 2005 I wanted my brothers to deal with his personal belongings but again it was myself who had to deal with them. But one week after the funeral of my dad the rest of the family had a real estate agent come through the house and before long it was several yard sales and than the house went up for sale. I had no choice but to do what the other family member wanted me to do. I even had to decide where I wanted to live. I saw my happy life turn into a money hungry family taking it all away. I was the only still at home and the one who saw my parents through all their sicknesses. To have this happen it was heartwrenching and I could not believe my family would do this to one of their own members. Anyway I hope telling this helped a little, Take care and God Bless you Shelley

Hi Shell, I do not know if I said this to you all ready but Here it goes, I am so very, very sorry for all your losses. I can not imagine how I would handle it if I were in your footsteps. I can only help by saying that I will pray for you and keep you in my thoughts and prayers for as long as it takes. My mom died in April, My parrot died in June, My dad died in August, I lost my job in October and I changed my address of my childhood home that I lived in for forty years in November all of the year 2005. I know that they are all not real life deaths that I suffered so I can not really compare to what you went through so I will pray for you and with God's hands help you get through all of this. Take care Shelley

Hi Bebekat, When talking about holidays, I took them for granted I say this because before 2005 I had all I ever wanted in this world. That is a geat big happy and loving family. But when 2005 came along so did pain, loss, and confusing. I lost my Mom in April of that year, I lost my Dad in August of that year, I lost the house I grew up in November of that year and I lost my job in October of that year. so I can not say holidays were well liked that year but as 2006 comes in it is just slightly better. I hope you are doing better even if only a little bit. Take care and God Bless

Hi Derek, What a wonderful Post!!! I also agree you do not get to choose when or where you go. I think that you might get the feeling your going to die though. I say this because last April we that is my mom,dad and myself went on vacation to Las Vegas but before we left my mom gave most of her clothes away to good will and she phoned each of her children and said see you later. She never phone the family before any other trip but this last one. So who really knows but I do believe you. Take care Shelley

Hi avsqr_dancer, I am so very, very, sorry to hear about Tawny, I have lost many dogs and other pets and I can not even imagine and agony that you must be feeling now. I just wish I could reach out and give you a big hug but since I can not I will pray and pray again for both you and Tawny to ask God to give you both strength to carry on the journey. Take care and I will keep praying for you and you will be in my thought Shelley

Hi Seanboy, Please allow me to first say I will definitely say a prayer for Marty, and Please allow me to send a heart felt prayer to you as well. I know that it is never easy to lose someone close to you but with God's great love it will take time but with His help it will get easier. Take care and God Bless you both Shelley

Hi Kellymarie, No problem about getting off target we all do get off our targets and please realize that we are here to listen and to pray for you so you never need to be sorry for showing you care about your lost love or any other loss you want to say something about take care and I will continue to pray for you Shelley

Hi All, First of all I want to say how sorry I am for all your losses, The next thing is I have also had a death that I have not dealt with. It happened about twenty years ago it was my grandmother who I was very close to. She died on Christmas Day, The whole family except for me went to see her on Christmas Eve I did not go because I thought she was coming home. I have not been able to move on after her death because I can not forgive myself for not going and seeing her the day before Christmas. Please help if you have any suggestions that might get me through this. shelley

Hi All, Thank you to everyone who has posted a message of this page, I find them very helpful to read and it lets me know that I am not alone as I feel this way and it is also telling me that feeling this way during grief is perfectly normal. So thank you again for all your posts and God Bless you all, Take care and God bless Shelley

Hi drtondalia, I agree with dpodesta, I took live to far away to help you deal with your loss but I will certainly pray for you and you can email me if you need to talk or just have someone caring to listen too. Take care of yourself and try not to blame yourself God bless you Shelley

Hi Marty and Derek, Thank you both for bring the subject up I too would love to see a chatroom for the bereaved, but I would definitely still take part on this website too. I agree with Derek in saying it is like talking to family when you post something Thank you both for all your posts and understandings take care and God bless you both shelley

Hi Dipodesta, I am so glad from your post that you decided to do the family reunion, I am having problems with deciding if I should go to the one our family is having. It was my mom's decision to start it and on her death bed my brother promised to continue it. I am glad that I read your post and perhaps I will take the chance and go to mine. Thank you again Shelley

Hi Nona, I am so very sorry for your lost, I could not even imagine losing someone like a son. I am an aunt to two young adult who abuse drugs and I am ever so fearful that I will receive a phone call saying they are dead. Again I am very sorry for your lost and I am sorry I was not much help Take care and I will pray for you. God bless you Shelley

Hi Jenn, You are so right it does say it all, I am coming to the one year marks for both my parents and eventhough it was a year ago I still really miss them so very much. Thank you for posting this it is really really good. Take care of yourself and God Bless Shelley

Hi All, I have decided to take enough balloons to my brother's where we are able to have our family picnic. This picnic was my mom's idea four years ago, Last year it was cancelled due to the deaths of my two most loved parents. We promised my mom we would continue this picnic even after she was gone. So it is happening on the 19th of August this year. So as a great big thank you to my mom and dad I thought if everyone had a balloon and released it into the air it would be one big thank you for my mom and dad. I just do not know if the other family members would agree with me. If they do not I will not something a little different all by myself. What would you do?????

Hi Lorikelly, I hope that you are doing a little better, I will continue to pray for you and if I could give you strength I certainly would do it with no questions asked but since I can not I will definitely pray and keep you in my thoughts. take care and email me if you need someone to listen Shelley

Hi KayC, Well here's hoping you get the position you want, and thank you for the kindness you have posted in your last post. From the posts I have read that you wrote I think that you are a special person. Take care of yourself and I will continue to pray for you. Shelley

Hi Amanda, I am sorry for all your pain, but it is true you have to deal with the grief and slow but sure it will go away. I lost my mom in April 2005 and eventhough it has been a year I still had lots and lots of emotions that show up daily. I miss her and the stories and the times we spent together. I am on medication and I have attended a hospice group for almost a year and I also see a grief counsellor. Even doing all the things I am I still have alot of problems still. So I really do not know how you are feeling but I can atleast say I somewhat feel the same way. I will pray for you and keep you in my thoughts Take care shelley

Thanks Amanda, I know that feeling as well it killed me to leave mom behind in Las Vegas when my dad and I returned. Thank you for your understanding and kind words take care and God Bless Shelley