Billw Posted December 5, 2010 Report Share Posted December 5, 2010 Everyone says that the holidays are harder. Truth is, every day is hard when it comes to grief and experiencing the great loss in our lives. It was 7 months the 29th of November. I get the feeling sometimes that people around me think I should be moving on more than I am. That is only my take on it though. I have done a lot in the past months. Counseling, participating on this site, and trying to get out and socialize more. Truth is I have never been more lonely in my life. I can feel totally alone in a crowd, at a party, or at dinner with friends. I really want to think it will change some day and I do believe it will. This time of year is definitely harder, the days are shorter and it's cold out so it seems to amplify the fact that I am alone. The holidays the past few years have been stressed to say the least. My wife was having her original surgery December 19th of 08, started her radiation the day before Thanksgiving of 09 after suffering through 8 months of chemo before that. My fond memories of the holidays are clouded by the past couple seasons so I really have to dig deep to try and find the spirit right now. There was a time though that we did enjoy the holidays. I am a very fortunate man and remain grateful for all of the good years. Maybe I'm just feeling a little sorry for myself right now. I relate to pretty much everything on this forum and I know a lot of you feel the same right now. This is one place that I do not feel so alone. Thank you all for being here for me. Take care my friends....BW Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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