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I think I miss my mom the more time goes by, so I understand how you're feeling. It's been 1.5 years and my mom's birthday was Feb. 23rd so that stirred it up for me some more.

George, I used to be gone 10.5 hours/day but I got my dog when he was one, and am so glad I did. When I got off work, I hurried home to him and made him priority. He has a pen with a doghouse in it and he totally loves it, it is his den. Now that I'm retired, he still wants to go out to his pen, so I let him spend time out there as he desires and the rest of the time he's with me. We walk twice a day and visit a neighbor with a dog so they can hang out and play. Having a dog gives cuddle time, they're also great at picking up on our emotions and knowing just when we need that extra love or a kiss. I don't know what I'd do without him!

It's okay to mention God here, but it's not allowed to tell others what they should/shouldn't believe. The purpose of this forum is to bring healing to the grieving soul, correct me if I'm wrong, Marty.

Yes, but waiting years to see them again is very hard.

My dear fae, It is so good to hear from you again. I am glad you are making plans to be creative again, and am glad your friend is doing well in assisted living. It feels good to pass on some of the family heirlooms, doesn't it! My children don't seem interested so am not sure what I'll do with the stuff I've collected over the years, none of it worth overly much. I am away this weekend, visiting my granddaughter, helping take care of her while my son and daughter-in-law get some things done. I am sorry for the medial challenges you've been having. Unfortunately, what you say about the medical profession is quite true. Arlie has been sick 2.5 weeks and I am so disenchanted with vets I have been trying my level best to get him well on my own without their useless aid. I will know come Monday if it has worked. Be well, my friend... Kay

i'm visiting my granddaughter, so will have to listen to this when I get home, it sounds like a good topic!

I have been traveling, just getting caught up here...it sounds like you've had a trying day, Margaret. I bet you're glad it's over.

Your horse is beautiful! These horses have minimal care but at least are not hungry. I don't think the authorities are going to step in because they don't muck out their area, don't groom them, and don't ride them, and don't interact with them. They have food, water, and shelter, and that's what the authorities are interested in. The neighbors and I talk to and pet them and bring them occasional apples or carrots. I just wish the owners loved them as much as we do!

I lost trust of hospitals a year ago when I had a routine surgery and they over-anesthesized me and my heart stopped on the operating table. Then they were dishonest with me about it, leaving me to find bruises to my chest when I went home. I no longer trust them to do what is in my best interest and keep me safe. As a result, I don't even want my dog operated on for fear of losing him before his time.

Oh yeah! I went through that about a year after my husband died, I had to go back to the same hospital because my friend was in there and his wife being my best friend, I didn't feel I could NOT go (he had COPD). My husband died of a heart attack in there. I couldn't stop crying, it was really hard. My friend said, "You shouldn't have come" and I replied "I needed to come." It's gotten better with time, I can make it through w/o crying now, but it took a long long time. I'm one of those that believes in facing your fears, but three months is pretty soon.

When at last I'm in his arms again, I'm never letting go...

Good luck with it. Old age ain't for the weak!

Oh absolutely! I feel the same way, like Garth Brooks' song, "The Dance".

Remembering isn't a substitute for living it, is it?!

Beautiful horse! I love horses, there's some down the street whose owners only come up once a week and bring hay for them, they're never ridden, never brushed, walk in their own muck, and no love or interaction except what the neighbors & I give them. So sad! At least they have a barn. Good luck with your healthy endeavors! That's a lot of log-keeping!

I know how that goes, I was without a router for months, until a Dish Network guy came out to troubleshoot something and he installed a new router for me and also set it up on my computers. Love youngsters, they can do anything! Last night I had a flu fire, it was really scary. It was when the door was open on the wood stove & I was getting wood to put in it, just six feet away. I heard what sounded like rain on the roof but it wasn't raining, so I looked up and I had flames shooting out the chimney and red hot cinders dropping all over the roof. I ran in the house and closed the door the wood stove and closed the damper and it immediately stopped. I had my chimney cleaned before Fall so I'm not sure why more built up than usual, but I'm having it cleaned again this weekend. I pray it didn't damage my roof, I can't get up there to look and it hasn't rained since to find out. Also the patio roofer is supposed to be out to fix the leaks today but he was supposed to be here 1.5 hours ago and hasn't called, so I hope he shows. These are the things I hate dealing with, George used to always take care of stuff like this. I miss him and his care so much, it's times like this I feel vulnerable.

Kevin, so do you not carry insurance for the US? How do you avoid the obamacare penalty then? Or does year around travelers insurance qualify you?

I know, it seems like every month presents something new. I was getting a wheelbarrow full of wood in and my shoulder started killing me! That's a new one!

I have a friend that lives in a fifth wheel, it's so big it has a garage! They don't put their vehicle in it though, they have their washer and dryer and bicycles in it instead. Pretty cool though! It even has a pop out balcony and on the other side a barbecue!

Sometimes we have to look to ourselves for what we need instead of someone else...trust me, I'm the queen of failed relationships and mostly because they were the wrong person. It's important not to settle just because you're needy, I had to learn that the hard way. If you' learn this at your age you're way ahead of me, it took me until my 50s to learn it! I'm sorry you're hurting, breakups hurt even when you know the relationship wasn't "the one", and you were already hurting to start with because of losing your dad. You're special to me, and I wish I could put my arms around you, but I guess you'll have to settle for a cyber hug.

Just what you need! (dealing with his brother)...you may have to get tough with him as guys like that, tact goes right over them. When you mentioned watching a scary movie, I thought of this:

My husband and son-in-law worked for Country Coach. this was considered the coach center of the world, with Marathon, Winnebago, and others also in business in Junction City or nearby. Some were trimmed in gold although there were others more "affordable" at $100,000.00.

I don't know where you live but I saw on the news, from TX to FL, the devastation left in its wake. It left a lot of damage. I am so glad both you and your sister made it through safely.

An RV is something some people live in while traveling. Some are quite exquisite, they have different rooms, couch, recliners, a bar, kitchen, bathroom, bedroom. They are sometimes called a Coach.

It's hard to believe an entire year is nearing, it doesn't seem that long ago, and yet an eternity at the same time. Such is the contradictions of loss.